kiss me harder
and we'll go down together
I swear I'm not going
anywhere
because you're exactly what I needed
and you showed up the
moment
I
looked away
I'm holding my breaths in
and imagining yours
your mouth
and everything I learn about you is a new
star
and you form constellations with ease
while I'm stuck stargazing
overwhelmed
you are composed
and I am erratic
you don't see a difference
(I wish my words were as beautiful as you)

I'm in love with your perspective on life and the way it differs from mine
I am proud to be seen with you because I am proud of your existence
and the way you say my name makes me feel like royalty
You're smarter than me
which I love and I hate
When you stop talking I beg you to keep going because I cling on every word
I swear I remember every word
you make me write awful narratives
that I would never show you
and yet I almost would
because you would care.
And you say exactly what I didn't know I needed to hear
when the world goes black around my eyes and your words are all I can see.
(I would have kissed you but I want it to be perfect)
You tell me goodnight even though I've been asleep for hours
because you think of me when you lie down
(I would kiss you right now, it would be perfect)
whenever you laugh in my shoulder I know I could fall in love with you over and over again

we are merely human and we can not control what we feel
and I am a mere human who can not control how much I want you
your songs know what I've done in the dark and I listen to those songs despite how much the scars sting
I like to hear your voice, I like to hear your voice, I like to hear your voice
your favorite songs became mine and all I wanted was to be a part of you
that grew in you
and became a beautiful flower
that you tended to
you are a gardener
tend to my heart
grow its landscape with roses

sunshine, you're the light in my eyes on easy sunday mornings
you're a watch on my wrist that tells me when my time is up
and the first ocean breeze that hit my cheek

you're my grand purpose, my second chance, my opportunity to be fearless
i've been waiting for you, sunshine

it's funny that my prince charming never showed up until i was strong enough to save myself

"i love you to the moon and back" but the universe is so much more
life is unpredictable, but i only want to think about you right in front of me
of the alarm ringing
and your just-waking-up smile
we're always sleepy and life is beautiful

I love you so much it's destroying my organs and rebuilding my soul at the same time. when you are sad, you are so sad, and I wish I were better with words; I wish I could open my mouth and say the things you need to hear. my ears are ringing and I know you're singing, singing to me. how do I possibly compare to the most beautiful comet that has ever shot across my sky. I am the moon, revolving around you. You are my rock, pinning me to the ground. you deserve ten thousand moons orbiting your atmosphere, beautiful moons of purple and blue. but I am pale and I am small and I am alone, I orbit you slowly but I am deliberate. I admire you from my place in space, once, twice, three and more times around and I find something new to love every time. I am admiration and adoration, celebration and captivation. and I swear I will be your sky, and I swear I won't make you cry. and I swear you will always be mine. I swear, I swear.

I like to write about the ocean because it’s bigger than we could ever comprehend and it’s alive.

It’s more alive than we could ever be.

I sit here and I have these thoughts and somehow my mind always drifts to rolling waves under expanse of sky and just the noises. There’s something so perfectly imperfect about the crash of a singular wave piled on top of the crash of a million more singular waves.

And I guess this means something because we are all waves and we are all rolling and we are all crashing.

Crash crash, crash.

I wish I could forget you.

I wish I could forget you.

Crash.

Ocean would never pretend to be anything it wasn’t. And ocean couldn’t break you because ocean isn’t a he or a she or an it, ocean is an idea bigger than any idea we could ever create. Ocean is every idea you’ve ever had thrown together into a living, breathing Idea with arms and legs on every continent.

The ocean is that perfect brainstorm that every author hopes someday to have. Every writer hopes one day they’ll come up with that perfect Idea who’s shores would be walked on by every man who had appendages to walk with.

Every painter looks for the perfect Idea.

Every activist.

Every scientist.

Everyone you’ve ever met is looking for the ocean, and they don’t have to go very far to find it.

I want people to see how happy we are and become happy too
I want to inspire with our love
I want to love so loudly that it's impossible not to hear the affection we have for one another
I want the world to look at us and realize that it's not wrong to love another with all of your heart,
to give another everything you have
to give another your life
I want our fireworks to light up the night sky so brightly they can be seen across the Atlantic
and those we've never met will realize that love does exist.
I want our love to change each other
and I want others to notice
I want to world to cast their eyes on us thinking "I need what they have found"