Through rays you touched me
Burning my skin
Changing my color to crimson
Where once I worshipped
I now live in shadows
impulsively muttering your words

To see is to defeat

Though few make it out alive...
and I can feel all these splinters sinking into my mind
As I try to resist the temptation and habit
slipped to me by some pesky rabbit
What of my mind?
Was it ever my own?

Impossible;
tried a hundred twenty times
and still cannot find a rhyme
to write about you
and everything you do

Unrealistic;
wrote about trees and wrote books
and still cannot write the way you look
from the way you carelessly smile
to your suspiciously gleaming eyes

Hopeless;
effortlessly described the smell of rain
and listed every one of life's pains
yet cannot rationalize all the good in you
along with the bad that still shine through

yet everytime i write about you
the ink in my hands stay still and blue
and my thoughts cannot go through

You're beyond the bounds of possibility
that i cannot fathom into reality

-djs

I wanna find a boy and break his heart,
the way you broke mine.

I wanna tell him lies and make him swoon,
the way you did with me.

I wanna be an emotionless shell of a person,
the way you are.

I wonder how it feels to destroy somebody,
the way you destroyed me.

Is it fun? It must be. I wanna try.
I wanna make a boy cry.

I wanna make him think I care.
I wanna caress and kiss his hair and
then **** his best friend.

I want to make him need me.
Crave me.
Love me.

Think he'll die without me.
Then I wanna rip it all out from under him.

Baby, I wanna be like you.

are you there?
i’m here.

good.

i love you.
i love you too.


do you remember when
we nested on the
rocky beach,

surfers walking on water


our seagull thoughts
drifting, dancing,
together
woven in the blue canopy

sunflower wilting

behind the curtain of tidal mist?


i cried then.

       why?


because it reminded me,

someday the night will fall and
never get up.

you know,

without you

life would be

a hollow place,

a sad place,

a dark place.

are you there?
i’m here.

good.