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Lady Annabelle Jul 2013
I'm sorry
about your sweatshirt

I couldn't
help myself
from stealing it

But it isn't my fault
you didn't believe
that I would never
give it back.
We had to write poems in English class, so I made a reply to an ex boyfriend's facebook post.
Lady Annabelle Jul 2013
"Are you mad at me?"
"I wouldn't say 'mad.'"
I'd say
captious
petulant
furious
acrimonious
irritable
querulous
sou­r
acerbic
peevish
ornery
livid
vicious.
No, of course I'm not mad at you.
Lady Annabelle Jul 2013
You said he's no Mr. Wonderful
that there's a lot of shame in his name
You said his bad side is something I'd never want to see
but I've seen glimpses once in awhile
You got upset when I said he was amazing
Scolding me to say he really wasn't
You're his best friend
I'm just Miss Pathetically-In-Love
Maybe you're just protecting me
when you say he's awful
Maybe I should trust you
when you say you speak the truth
Wait a minute, why do you care so much?
Lady Annabelle Jul 2013
Why would he worry about me?
He doesn't know I broke my promise not to hurt myself.
He doesn't know about the scars.
He doesn't know about the bottle of pills beside my bed.
He doesn't know there's a collection of knives in my drawer.
He doesn't know that I write nasty letters to life.
He doesn't know about the reason I sit on the roof.
He doesn't know about how I can't sleep at night.
He doesn't know that even if I do, it's only after the tears.
He doesn't know I carry around a mental list of why I hate myself.
He doesn't know I can't concentrate at all.
He doesn't know I lie through my teeth about how I'm feeling.
He doesn't know that I'm avoiding church.
He doesn't know I'm pushing everyone away.
He doesn't know how lonely I am.
He doesn't know about these poems.
Why would he worry about me?
Lady Annabelle Jul 2013
your smile is contagious
your hair is perfect
you have those brilliant blue eyes
you're an amazing speaker
your look of determination
you're pretty **** attractive
you are obviously on fire for God
how you always volunteer to pray
you are a fantastic singer
you will never leave me
you're adorable
you're my knight in shining armor of a specific un-chosen color
you try to understand me
you respect me
it's easy for you to open up to me
you have a thesaurus(to go with my dictionary)
you say I'm beautiful
you trust me
you care a heck of a lot more than others
I love your writing
you're pretty hilarious
you like my laugh(even though others don't)
I like your laugh
you are a true gentleman
you can jump over chairs
...that one time I had to wake you up and I threw a dictionary at you
you're intoxicating
when you stare at me you always say I'm attractive
I like your voice, a lot
you apparently talk about me a lot
you are one of the most intelligent people I know
fireworks go off when I see you
I always get jittery and nervous when I know you are in the same place
you enjoy spending time with me
you say you love my hugs
you're like a party somebody threw me
your mind is brilliant
you're special
you're truly kind
we go together
you talk about how we compliment each other, how we fit
you have that heart that wants to help
you're just fantastic at everything
you don't mind telling me about the times you've messed up
you want to hear what I have to say
you want to know me
you're so very talented
you yearn for more knowledge
you're concerned for my well-being
we planned a future for ourselves(even if it was a joke)
you said I can live with a room full of books
your family adores me
you couldn't wait until summer just because you could see me
*Yeah I took some lyrics from song, shut up
Lady Annabelle Jul 2013
9:00 p.m.
walk into the kitchen
open freezer door
no dinner tonight
what a shame

open door
sit down on doorstep
cautious of the fire escape
feel the chilled rain
fold arms over knees
reply to text message

watch neighbors take a smoke
look at the open door
lights flicker in the alley I'm in
cars driving by
wipe the rain off of arms

watch tv through neighbor's window
hope he doesn't let out his dog
think of climbing out on roof
but there are puddles everywhere
tears stay separate from the rain

think about my failures
remember mother walking off screaming
paraphrasing her words
only to mean it's my fault
but it is

feel so pathetic
stomach unhappy not to be fed
compose poem in my head
see shadow in the doorway
watch the people walk beneath me

stand up shivering from the wetness
open the door
take a deep breath
wipe away the tears
walk back into the kitchen

grab a bagel
make some cereal
dwell on today
eat the food
bite by bite
step by step
Yeah, this is literally the poem I created in my head when sitting out on the fire escape.
Lady Annabelle Jun 2013
You stole my heart away
like that boy when he stole my skateboard.
You cared for it
like how I cared for the first pet I ever had.
You loved it
like my one teacher's love for books.
You broke it
like when I broke the ropes of my favorite swing.
Now, you're refusing it to give back
like when my stupid brother never gave me back my toys.
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