Read this poem only if you are alone.

You wished me nice dreams last night
I could say I have dreamed
About flowers, butterflies
It would be nothing but lies
I was dreaming about
My arms holding your hips
Against mine
Mine lips touching your sweet lips
Then
One hand squeezing your breast tight
Other hand holding your waist
So you won't fight
Then
With a slide touching the magic Place
Leaving quickly without a trace
I want to make it perfectly clear
I will never do it for real
Maybe

I found these flowers on sidewalk
Someone have thrown a way
I don't know why and how
Unneeded beauty
Other mans trash is my treasure now
Decorating my table
Until they die
I see beauty in things
That others just pass by

Another sleepless night
Thinking of words to say gently good bye

We talked long hours last night
Result is - I won't be your shining armor knight

I am tired of hide and seek
I am strong, but in this game am weak

You will grant me lunch, meeting
Teach me Chinese while eating

Not good enough to satisfied
My desire to be with you, gratified

Instead of making love
You punched my face,
heart with boxing glove

On the WeChat you have send me
Flower with cat's pose
It turned out to be stem
Full of thorns, not rose

Go ahead roam Internet,
streets, bars searching for love

You won't find it
It just has flown away
Under wings of white dove

Despite of all I said, I love you still
Love you forever and always will

I do anything for you, I say
Love you until my dying day

(It doesn't have to be always about love.)

I want you to know that I care
I pass on my way to subway
My travels trough city
I pass beggars without their limb
Blind men playing violin
Old, not able to take care of themselves
I make sure I have some change
Give to those who have no chance
The other day I bought young man
Wearing shabby and ***** clothes
I bought a simple meal
My reward was grateful grim
Not happy, it made me sad
I should have done much more
To make him glad
I know I can't alleviate all the pain I see
You may say what now you are sorry for
Well, because I was selfish
Didn't have the time to cry for them before

It was long engagement
Now you are just a glimpse
I on train passing you by
You on platform waiting
Just waiving hand good bye
Train going forward
Never return to former place
I will never forget
The moment of your graceful face

It was a magic the night we met
Moment I won't ever forget
I happened in Shanghai town
Turned my world upside down
Beginning of romantic affair
Only lucky dream, or dare
We said good night without kiss
But I've  seen in your smile promise
I am waiting it to be fulfilled
I want to have it without a guilt
I believe in another magic night
We will kiss under moonlight
In meant time I will just dream
Kissing you will be the theme

You know inside I cry
Hiding it with a smile
I am man of complicated way
Kind of you don't meet every day
I feeling my feelings more
Reason my heart is sore
Jumping in my chest
Irregular heartbeat? I think not
It tries to get out
With the heart it needs
Reunite

I miss you so

Have plenty of wine
But you never drink
Stare at empty glass
The same with apple fruit
You have it but never eat
Have a man won't kiss
You don't like a fun
You better get a gun
Put it to your head
Why?
Cause you already dead

The other day I walked to take a train
Clouds above asked, why so sad?
I did explain and made them cry
You may say, you fool, it's just a rain
I say, not just rain
They are the tears of pain

Son, who will never be born

My father was a writer
Wrote a lot of poems
About love and pain
I am his son
He told me that he loved me
Forever and always
That time I was little boy
I didn't understand

Now I have no one
Accompany me
My father's ashes spread  in forest and lake
He is fish in the river
He told me it will be so
I go to this forest to be with him
My father living in leaves and trees

Now I have no one to help me grow
My father went to where I don't know
He is a green grass on the hill
The bridge made of wood
Clouds in the skies that he became
I was told of his smile like sunshine
Blue eyes like the sky
And  like cloud, white hair
I dream of being born, having dad

You promise to keep it secret
It's probably stupid of me to write poem for young girl
Well, I am all alone here
Have only myself and my world
No one to share it with
There are times I want to leave
Where I go?
I want to leave to place I cant specify
It's a longing for something
Some place that perhaps even doesn't exist
I like to take you with me, but where we would go?
A place
If it doesn't exist
I have done a lot for love
Coming here was like self inflicting wound and who does that?
But it's still better to feel sad
Feel love for someone impossible
Struggle, be in pain, than feel nothing