We saved each other
I owe you my life
Every heartbeat I'm rewarded with

When did I stop saying "I" and start saying "We"?

I didn't want you to see that Me,
a Me that's so insecure that she
can't even bring herself to smile
or laugh at your jokes...
But you did.
It was an accident.
I'm sorry.
Please don't look.
Please don't leave.

If there's anything I've learned in the past year, it's that Normal people don't change. Normal people don't change. But then there's Abnormal people. The movers, the thinkers, the innovators, the shifters. They, unlike Normal people, see what they can become and change their lives firsthand. Normal people don't. They wallow and swallow, playing the victim to Life. False positivity crushes the Normal mind. Isn't it wonderful, being Abnormal?

I'm sick
of being hit
with your
sharpened daggers.
What makes you
think that
my heart
is protected by an
impenetrable
shield?
It's covered in scars,
bruised and damaged.
The slightest mention
of an insecurity
and I'll break,
crash,
and burn.
You don't even care.
You don't even *see.

I thought we were done.
You had become a stranger, a figment of my imagination.
But now you're back and you're weakening me.
I can't even find the strength to smile.
My girlfriend asks me to talk, but I can't without bursting into tears.
And for what?
I'm worn from the strain of pretending to be alright.
Step back.
Go bother someone else (but I'd rather you didn't).
Leave me alone.

With disdain,
Leigh

You have to sing quieter
So soft no one can hear
It's an alto's time to shine
I'm singing loud and clear

You're disgusting
Pure filth
No amount of "love"
Could change you

Push and pull, the waves keep us aligned.
Do you notice the seagulls, too?

My heart is bursting like a dam
and I'm not repairing it, no,
I will let the bombs detonate  
and watch as my love for you
seeps from the cracks in the cement

Sleeping next to you
was an
unattainable dream
come true...

Everything feels so right with you
My heart threatens to overflow

You can't look me in the eye
You can't stand to hear my song
You can't be in the same room
I've won
Finally... *I've won

We're above the influence
Alcohol is for Them
But here We are
Drunk as happy hour regulars

Making friends is like
building up castles from sand...
With one sweep of the hand
or one whisper from the lips
and the castle comes crashing down,
tumbling into your lap
and leaving you
helpless.
I promise that I won't
let this castle fall
or get the slightest bit
damaged.

I would **** for you
but you wouldn't lift a finger
for me

Shut up and kiss me quick
Run your lips over my pulse
Drag your nails across my hips
Grip the hem of my shirt and pull  
You won't hurt me
I am not antique glass
I will not break
Go ahead
Try

I found peace atop a Ferris wheel
wedged in the space between our fingers

When did I trade in crayons for cigarettes? Barbies for whiskey? Dress up for dressing down?

No.

Please do not act as if you're my best friend again.
It's been too long.

Don't text me saying "I miss you, let's hang out" if you aren't going to follow through with it.
Don't ask me how my relationship is going if you're just going to cut off the conversation with a perverted joke.
Don't pretend to be my best friend if you're just going to *leave me.

I've always said
"You're the only person who's never left me."

...But now I see that's not quite true.

You've left me over and over and over.

You haven't glanced back at me, the girl who never stopped loving your heart full of fear.

But I got over it.
I moved on.
I don't need you anymore, bud.

I didn't mean to let you see
I didn't mean to let the walls down
But once they're down, they're crumbling  
And there's no way I can rebuild them with this cement
You've seen too much
You've seen too much

I wish I'd never met you
I wish I'd never heard your name

It's out now
Someone in authority knows
This will either help
Or go up in flames

I've let hundreds of moments pass where I could've told you. The words are pushing against the back of my teeth, but I just can't seem to let them out. When I do tell you, I hope you'll understand how hard it is for me to say the words out loud. Wrap your arms around my shaking frame and just hold me. Because a declaration like that will drain the light I keep so carefully lit. You'll look at me differently. I won't be the same girl you fell for during a chemistry lesson. My hands will seem colder, my spine will seem stiffer. Will you still love me when you know that I'm damaged?

I've spent
the past week
trying to muster up
a piece of writing
that could even
come close
to expressing
my love for
you.

In those seven days,
I took a different approach.
I wrote
2 haikus
   with my hands
3 ballads
   with my lips
and
4 sonnets
    with my heart.

No,
my love may not
be poured into
a poem --
typed up
and posted here --
but  
it's there and
it's real and
it breathes.

We all see each other in the hallway
   in between classes, at lunch, at 3:15
      but do we honestly see each other?
Do we see these poems, these words
   that are often full of darkness and misunderstandings
       but sometimes light and forgiveness?
I see you, friends of mine
   hiding in the shadows of our legacy
      ...but do you see me?

I used to think, darlin', you never did nothin'
But you were always up to somethin'
Always had a run in, yeah
I got to think those days are comin' to get ya
Now no body want to protect ya
They only want to forget ya

You'll be on my mind
Don't give yourself away
To the weight of love

Lovin' so deeply, I'm in over my head

We all seem to depend on something -- drugs, sleep, music, ***, "love", relationships -- but when will we realize that the only thing we can solely depend on is ourselves?

You make me happy. Really happy. The kind of happiness I can feel in the center of my chest, a warmth that just sits there and grows whenever you call me baby or say that you love me. I always want to be with you, even when I'm on my period and don't even want to leave my house. There is nothing I enjoy more than just laying around with you and simply being with you. your smile makes me smile. I could listen to your laugh all day. I like everything that differentiates you from me. I like that you play video games and soccer and that you watch all these shows and movies on Netflix. I like that you listen to 90s alternative rock because I've never heard of 95% of the songs and artists you've introduced me to. With differences, there are similarities and I like them just as much. I like that our sense of humor is so alike. It's like we're always in an inside joke and no one else knows what the hell we're laughing at. I like that you say cheeky things at ten at night and seven in the morning and two in the afternoon.

God, I just... I like you. I might love you. I'm falling for you and ****, I hope you catch me.

your stupidity baffles me

I may have switched gears,

left and down
lust
right and up
love

but trust me,
love was all I was feeling.

I could listen to your midnight voice for hours, talking about nothing and yet everything.

You're a fool, Jesus Christ.
How can I help you?

I hate that my name is associated with yours;
They think of you, they think of me.

I was lost and alone in the shadows
Dark in my mind
My heart was trampled in the battle
Love left me blind

Then you came around and found me, baby
You took my hand
And made me stand like the man I am again

Do you see what you've done to me
Gone and washed away my misery
With your touch
You love gracefully

I was shattered into pieces
Torn to the bone
And nothing mattered. No reason
To come from under my stone

Then like the sun you fell over me, baby
You hit my eyes
And made me rise and fly and shine again

Do you see what you've done to me
Gone and washed away my misery
With your touch
You love gracefully

I’d ‘bout given up on it all
Every single little hope and dream
Then you heard it and answered my call
When you lifted me
Lifted me over the wall

Do you see what you've done to me
Gone and washed away my misery
With your touch
You love gracefully
You love gracefully
Love gracefully