I can't remember where I hid those pills and I'm not sure that's a good thing

Stop watching
Stop listening
I don't want you to see

Woe is me, black out my mind

Neither of you will ruin this for me, but ****, you'd die trying.

You desecrated my safe place, ruined it with your selfishness

Breaking this habit will be more difficult than originally hoped

I can still taste your breath mixed with mine

I've only just noticed the
midnight circles
under your eyes.

The only thing keeping me alive
Is the fear of what you'll see
When you come to say "Good night"

You should come with a warning sign,
a detailed prequel to destruction.

How do you tell your mother that she's the reason you can't swallow pills?

And I wait sitting here by the phone,
With the hope that your heart isn't stone
And I wish that you'd call me and cry,
So I'd know how you feel deep inside.

And she's waving goodbye with that photograph smile,
Under the heavenly blue,
I'm never gonna be closer again,
I'll never know,
I'll never feel you, ever again

Your eyes are partial to the moon, who takes credit for the sun's rays

No, that's what you think trying is.

You're going to keep hurting yourself by trying to fit other people's heart pieces into yours.

I know I can be rude and crass and my words are biting
But please understand that this is not easy for me
I don't know what to think of it

I am slowly (but surely)
   stumbling
      crashing
         falling
            for you...

Everything would be easier with my body six feet under

You lost half of me in July.
I just took back the rest in March.

"What's the date?"
"March 24th."
"..."

I watched the light drain from your eyes
and your fingers stop moving over the page.
Suddenly, I knew.
A year.
It's been a year.
****.

"I don't think I'll be here Thursday or Friday."
"And that's alright."

You looked up.
I looked down.
Away and back at you.

"That's alright."

As I took your hand,
I felt the final crack in my heart
stitch itself together.
It was an understood
I'm here for you.
I hope you saw it in my smile.

Every nerve was burning over you

You crave touch, but no one is willing to pick up the baggage that comes along with you.

I'm swimming backwards and I'm not sure when I'll drown

You're a fool to be so blind

You held on too tightly, grasped at my final breath
But you didn't seem to notice, you never relented

Golden lipstick casings and empty bottles of wine
They watch the willows move and breathe

I show all the signs
Why the hell didn't I see?

Before you go to sleep
Say a little prayer
Every day in every way
It's getting better and better

I wish I was dead and that you didn't care

I feel so stupid to have ever have loved you

You deserve nothing deemed "good"

Slice me open and let the blood run its course

"Bear with me; I am hungry for revenge."

You push and pull and grasp at air, nothing.
Who are you looking for?
What is it you want?
Why are you never satisfied?
Insatiable.
Always, always, always.

And I'll always think of you with the blue rose tattoo

You can't lie, but you sure can pretend

I feel as if I've taken flight --
But is such happiness short lived?

This one is still attatched and scissors are at the ready, but I can't find it in me to cut it free

With a ribbon of blue and purple,
I promise that this darkness
will not consume me again.

There is one that sounds good
and one that holds true

No parent should outlive their child
And I'm sorry I almost let you

Take me to your river, I want to know.

I am prone to failure, a disappointment in the making

Your lips hug my pulse as your hand clutches my heart