As if I didn't feel your eyes following my every move

It breaks and it bleeds and I watch

You tried to guilt me into staying yours.
How did that work out?

Your eyes are partial to the moon, who takes credit for the sun's rays

I can still taste your breath mixed with mine

I am slowly (but surely)
   stumbling
      crashing
         falling
            for you...

I've only just noticed the
midnight circles
under your eyes.

Bitterness doesn't suit you
But it does match your eyes

I know I can be rude and crass and my words are biting
But please understand that this is not easy for me
I don't know what to think of it

You crave touch, but no one is willing to pick up the baggage that comes along with you.

Every nerve was burning over you

You lost half of me in July.
I just took back the rest in March.

I'm swimming backwards and I'm not sure when I'll drown

Everything would be easier with my body six feet under

Woe is me, black out my mind

You should come with a warning sign,
a detailed prequel to destruction.

You're going to keep hurting yourself by trying to fit other people's heart pieces into yours.

No, that's what you think trying is.

I've thought about it so many times
Whether I would whisper it in the morning
Or simply state it late at night
And I've thought about the look in your eyes
Maybe hatred or love  
Compassion or pity
Either way, I'd be terrified  
So say you'll still love me
Say you'll still want me to stay
Because I don't know how I'd handle
Being a stranger in this family

Golden lipstick casings and empty bottles of wine
They watch the willows move and breathe

"Bear with me; I am hungry for revenge."

You're a fool to be so blind

If you were dead, I wouldn't even blink.
Does that make me cruel?

And I wait sitting here by the phone,
With the hope that your heart isn't stone
And I wish that you'd call me and cry,
So I'd know how you feel deep inside.

And she's waving goodbye with that photograph smile,
Under the heavenly blue,
I'm never gonna be closer again,
I'll never know,
I'll never feel you, ever again

You can't lie, but you sure can pretend

Before you go to sleep
Say a little prayer
Every day in every way
It's getting better and better

You push and pull and grasp at air, nothing.
Who are you looking for?
What is it you want?
Why are you never satisfied?
Insatiable.
Always, always, always.

"What's the date?"
"March 24th."
"..."

I watched the light drain from your eyes
and your fingers stop moving over the page.
Suddenly, I knew.
A year.
It's been a year.
****.

"I don't think I'll be here Thursday or Friday."
"And that's alright."

You looked up.
I looked down.
Away and back at you.

"That's alright."

As I took your hand,
I felt the final crack in my heart
stitch itself together.
It was an understood
I'm here for you.
I hope you saw it in my smile.

This one is still attatched and scissors are at the ready, but I can't find it in me to cut it free

Speak
   so that I may understand you

I am prone to failure, a disappointment in the making

I feel as if I've taken flight --
But is such happiness short lived?

I've been told that I'm no good at keeping promises, so I don't think I will

Quit staring, I'm not looking back at you
Don't lie, *others see it, too

Don't ruin this safe place, too.

And I'll always think of you with the blue rose tattoo

And I'm finally rested

Take me to your river, I want to know.

Your lips hug my pulse as your hand clutches my heart

I feel so stupid to have ever have loved you

Reckless is fun when you're not the one that gets hurt

I thought about burning all of it, but decided against -- I like the memory.

I show all the signs
Why the hell didn't I see?

I hate my life
God, hold onto me