When I think about where I was a year ago tonight, I can taste regret on my tongue

The life span of a red blood cell is 120 days...
This means that part of you is no longer who you were four months ago.

I know I can be rude and crass and my words are biting
But please understand that this is not easy for me
I don't know what to think of it

There is one that sounds good
and one that holds true

For so long, I wasn't angry... But now?
Now I understand that what we had was unhealthy.
Instead of making me better, you were making me ill.
It was an disease, a cancer that I couldn't rid myself of.
You were a tumor of the heart.
No amount of chemotherapy could diminish your size.
So I'm left with this aching pain in the center of my chest.
Extract it, burn it, **** it please.
**I just want you gone.

The only proof I have is a foggy memory and these words.
How could that save me? How could that end this?

You tried to guilt me into staying yours.
How did that work out?

I've let hundreds of moments pass where I could've told you. The words are pushing against the back of my teeth, but I just can't seem to let them out. When I do tell you, I hope you'll understand how hard it is for me to say the words out loud. Wrap your arms around my shaking frame and just hold me. Because a declaration like that will drain the light I keep so carefully lit. You'll look at me differently. I won't be the same girl you fell for during a chemistry lesson. My hands will seem colder, my spine will seem stiffer. Will you still love me when you know that I'm damaged?

You lost half of me in July.
I just took back the rest in March.

Don't ruin this safe place, too.

War is over now
I feel my mind returning
Carried on a cloud
Every nerve was burning over you
I never had a need at all for anyone
Anyone other than you
But now that's through
Sold fool...
We're prayin' to get it fast
And we pray it's in the past
Is anything we do, ever gonna last?
Couldn't I have a clue?
Searchin' the blue
Couldn't I have a clue?
Searchin' the blue
Searching the blue

I check over my shoulder when I feel your blatant stare
I listen for your footfalls in an empty hallway
I tune out your shrill laughter at lunch
I check for the lack of your feet in bathroom stalls  
I grow silent at the mention of ****
I cringe when your friends send me glances of pity  
I wish no one else had your name
***** you

This is a terrible idea.
I know.
We shouldn't.
Probably not.
You'll regret this.
*Never.

Every nerve was burning over you

I can't tell you how I feel, but I do
Those things they say can't get to me, but they do
I don't see the sky as blue, as you do
Should I fantasize? There must be some way to love again

It's been so hard for a girl like me, it's true
People say I look just like my daddy, cause I do

All I really want is peace of mind

Why is everything so complicated?
Why is everyone so infatuated?
I gather myself safely
Until life on earth looks warm again

Everybody's leaving all the time
All I really want is peace of mind

I wish I'd never met you
I wish I'd never heard your name

I make my hatred known so that no one trusts you the way I did

Love...*
It makes creases in the corners of your eyes.
It throws stars into your smile.
It ignites an unquenchable fire in your soul.
It travels down your legs and curls your toes.
It opens doors and windows and hearts.
Will you let it?

Never again will I allow someone like you to deceive me, to take advantage of the love I reluctantly give

I've forgotten how your lips felt against mine, how your arms wrapped around me in the night, how your heart sang for me -- does this mean I've finally moved on?

I've set fire to what you left behind -
The embers singe the vanilla perfume inside my lungs
   and new life bursts through the flames.

Don't haunt me
Gather up the lost and sold
Into your arms
Gather up the pitiful
In your arms
What seems impossible
I think I have had my fill
*I think I should give up the ghost

And for the first time in a long time, I can feel the sun on my skin.
It feels like happiness, it feels like no shame.

Genius in one way.
Idiot in another.
Which one will make you happy?
Which one will take you further?

And if I wasn't so tolerant  
and blinded by what I thought was love,
then maybe We would've been able to last
but I'm not one to be tied down with lies.

Did we unknowingly search for each other in the darkest hours?
You, the sun - I, the moon.
They, the opaque night between.
We were hidden.
But finally, the light shone through.
Us, a pair -- a motley two, a mismatched pair of fools.
Is it fate that strings these calico hearts together?
A Higher Power with a guiding hand?
Or is it we who create our own destiny?
Did you find me...
   or did I find you?

I am slowly (but surely)
   stumbling
      crashing
         falling
            for you...

Quit staring, I'm not looking back at you
Don't lie, *others see it, too

If you were dead, I wouldn't even blink.
Does that make me cruel?

No longer will you diminish my light
I'm soaring through the galaxies
The stars are at my fingertips
I'm finding my soul again
*I am triumphant

I'm through accepting limits, 'cos someone says they're so.
Some things I cannot change, but till I try, I'll never know.
Too long I've been afraid of losing love I guess I've lost.
Well, if that's love, it comes at much too high a cost.

My fears have been swept away on winter winds
And there's no stopping me now

You are stronger now than you ever were before.

No one told me that at seventeen
I would risk everything for my freedom
I would have my heart shattered into pieces
I would learn to regret
I would learn to let go
I would find love in a stranger  
I would find my place  
...so what's waiting for me at eighteen?

"This is the first day of my life. I think I was blind before I met you. I went out in the rain and suddenly everything changed. I felt as if I just woke up."

I'm beginnging to forget and I don't mourn the loss of these memories

Steal the air from my lungs
Watch my ribs crack inward

Your eyes are partial to the moon, who takes credit for the sun's rays

Before you go to sleep
Say a little prayer
Every day in every way
It's getting better and better

Was it nothing more than noise inside my head?

I can't get inside if there's no soul to bare

Are there any words to say that will ever mean enough?
When the light runs from the day, will the darkness be too much?
Will I ever be enough?

You held on too tightly, grasped at my final breath
But you didn't seem to notice, you never relented

It's no fun kissing a snake
They're all tongue
and no *bite

I felt a rush of tears
flooding my eyes  
and an unseen force
pushing gold through my veins.
It was then that I realized --
I will be in love with music
for the rest of my life.

Don't give it a hand, offer it a soul
Honey, make this easy.
Leave it to the land, this is what it knows
Honey, that's how it sleeps.
Don't let it in with with no intention to keep it
Jesus Christ, don't be kind to it.
Honey don't feed it, it will come back.