seems like i always fall short.
that I'm always messing up.
and yet you still can love me?

its a fact though,
that i turn and run directly from you
and yet you still wait for me.

i see it happening.
I see me deliberately disobeying.
and yet you forgive me.

it makes me so sick.
to think what pain I've caused.
and yet you never give up on me.

I'm saving it for you.
people say I'm so innocent.
that I'm a goody-two-shoes.
because i had yet to kiss someone,
that that should be through.

I don't want to waste it.
its already been so long.
what goods it go give it all away.
what goods it to go that far?
i don't care what they say I'm saving my heart.

see they have lost already.
so many parts of their hearts.
from boy to girl and so on and on
trusting in something that hurts.
I'm saving it for you.

you're the something i cant escape.
      you're the secret that doesn't relate.
but a few know of you and your strength.
and how you tear me apart day by day.

keeping you hidden gives you more power.
   because in darkness you can devour.
everything that i am and are
you are what is causing the scars.

some may say your quite normal.
   though you are what makes me abnormal.
i know now i need to take the next step
to save me from this depth.

you are my ANXIETY
  everything that surrounds me.
stop making me worry
about things that aren't worthy.

I'm that girl.
The one who tries to do it all on her own.
The one who acts like she's okay alone.
The one who puts on a mask that says happy.

I'm that girl.
The kind that is let down often.
The kind that needs to be heard.
The kind that is misunderstood.

Yea.
I'm her.

is this what love is like,
to feel: pained, crushed,
bruised, beaten, broken,
torn apart, ripped to shreds.

im not sure how much more
my exasperated heart can
bear.

is this how its going to be.
to be: let down, used, looked
over, disregarded, invisible,
kicked, skipped over, unloved.

im through with this now. even
as i say it i know its a lie.
and a hole ill get ****** right back into.

all of me aches..
my heart no longer feels.
for now im crawling to the
next mirage of love only to find
it nonexistent.

it is the only way to get you to listen.
it is the only thing that is mine.
it is the only way i am heard.

i sing to feel.
i sing to let it all out.
i sing to keep myself alive.

music has never hurt me.
music has always been there.
music has been the words i cant speak.

Im not a child anymore.
stop treating me this way.
Im old enough to do what
i want.

Do you realize ive gotten older.
do you see that i have changed
how do you expect me to grow
and learn when you have me on
short chains.


its sounds cliche but im old enough
stop trying to control my life.
you should understand what its like
you where here one point in life.


i thought i had your trust
but i guess just not enough
what have i done to deserve
such restrictions.
time is running out.