This rain cloud looms over me
It's shadow follows me
It keeps me on edge
Ready for me to jump over the ledge
Is there a way to make it disappear
Where it came from is still very unclear

I wish I’d never met you
Because of the way it hurts
You love so painfully
You care so sharp

I’ve no fight left
So burn it all
You’ve got it all
On my knees but still standing tall

I hope I never meet you
Because of the way it could hurt
A love you painful
Compassion so sharp

Seems like there's nothing new except for someone new
Even so I'll let you in
And let love break my heart again
Talking to myself though I never listen
It's hard enough just to close the gap
To close the distance
There is indeed a difference between hearing and listening
Dissonance

Why didn’t you say to me…
You couldn’t be there
That’s all you had to say…
You’re no excuse
And neither am I
But in the end
We are all excuses

Goosebumps
All for nothing
There’s nothing like it in this whole world
For nothing can be done
But if we just breathe…
We’ve got it all
In it’s raw, premature state
The epitome of perfection
But if we just breathe… we can let it all go

**** my desire
To escape the unknown
To relinquish my fear
Hold me tightly and keep me warm
Kiss me sweetly and take home
Tighten the knots in my stomach
Ease the trouble on my mind
Take me on a journey
Ill be your's
You'll be mine

The ones who you love are always the ones that hurt you most
But that underlying love never fades and the bond grows stronger
To Be or Not To Be
Who knows only time will tell
But who cares because we always have the here and the now right?
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me

From the soles of my feet to the crown of my head

The butterflies take flight

A feeling I  thought I'd long forgotten

No tears

No fear

At the epicenter where your hand meets mine

The time isn't right for you or I

We both know that for sure is true

But we both move forward in the dark

Searching...

Long way from where I was
Different city
Different buzz
Still the same bees though
Stinging at my as I'm coming
Flowing with the breeze though
Rooming with the punches

Who's to say I wasn't what I was or
What used to be
Not another product of some sexually Unsurity
Life is full of madness and the crazy Thing about it is that everybody want It
It's a shame we just can't grasp it

I will relinquish me fear
In exchange for your heart
I will cherish and preserve it for as long as I can
My heart will stray
I apologize
I  am ready for my retribution

Pain is just a simple compromise...
To get what we want out of it
Catharsis
Beauty in misery
Anticipation
Anxiety at it finest..
Life
Not what you gather
But what you *scatter

I couldn't ask for better people in my life
Life throws curve *****
Times get hard
Life ***** sometimes
The world is black and white
But these select few people called friends
Add color to it

My hands caress her curvy waist
Her melody is the key to my heart
She's with me when there is no one else
She keeps my mind at ease
I love the smell of her maple body
I gently kiss her neck with my finger tips
She sings me sweet songs

Never think about the way things were
Never think of the pain in the vocals of the melodic lines
But leave it as it is..
In that sacred rural place where all o' your love rests
Call me by my name, and keep me
Never forget
Hold on to the words that I left with you
Then release...

This night was not as it seemed
This precious moment was not as I dreamed

I don't understand what went wrong
What was missing from this time that I'd looked forward too for so long

I cant shake this feeling ...

I'll be 17 any day now...
But I'm not ready to grow up
Everyday simplicity dissipates
Slow down! Slow down!
I'm not ready to grow up
I'm only good at being young....

Booming thunder adds to lightning's ferocity
Howling winds cry out
Wandering souls, yearning to rest their aching spirits
Golden leaves hold on to their branches for dear life
Rain pours, washing, cleansing, purifying
This beauty I live for

It took me a while and I did not want to accept it
I hope I never see the day that I live to regret it
It took some time to put into words
But now I see
This is not the place for me
This is not a Cry for help
No this is not a desperate plea
Nothing has gone wrong
There are no accidents
But I am certain that I do not belong
Loneliness flourishes where familiarity and love have been vanquished
Opening the door to torment and anguish
Cross my heart and hope to die
Pray that everything turns out alright
Stick and stones may break my bones
Will heal and flesh wounds don't last
But how do you recover from being an outcast

It's just you and me
But we were never meant to be
A tear in the fabric of space and time
Another line to add to my notebook of rhymes

It's crazy how life takes twists and turns
Close my eyes and see the bridges burned
May the flames only light our way
To the paths we are destined to cross one day

One day soon love will be free
I won't give up the fight until you return to me
I'll imprison my heart under keys and locks
Forever yours my Paradox

Observer des étoiles
Dans des endroits étranges
Petite salutations
Et visages heureux
Les petites choses dans de la vie
Elles sont pour ce que je vis

So many shes and hers in the world
18 years old still tryna find that one Girl
No I'm not in a rush to get hitched Tonight
Just want a love that's pure through Fuss and fight
No need to be worried cause what's Mine is mine
And when I find you love we're only Looking forward no mistakes no Retries

Nostalgia circulates through these veins
Same old people
New bodies
New pain
Love is barren for my heart is preoccupied
Common misconceptions take the throne and reign

I remember the days when I thought happiness was free
Soon I learned it never was
Someone else paid the price for me
Now simplicity has been crucified
Silence is reduced to bronze
Now I wonder what was the cause

Everything I knew was turned to ash
But who ignited the fire

Fire
Water
There is no in between

Highs
Lows
There are no in betweens

Life
Death
There is no in between

Black
White
Grey

The road is wide
The path is clear
The goals are set
As long as you are there

The trek is difficult
But it's worth the time
I'll wait forever
If one day you'll be mine

It's only the chase

Once you've caught it

Throw it back

Then catch it again

Where has the time gone
One day present
The next absent
Time flies when it's taken for granted
The fabric in which some were overjoyed
Others had sorrow
In the birth of a new relationship
One has withered away

Feeling the downpour of longing and nostalgia
Evaporating into the drought of anger and regret of things past
Thoughts condensing in the recesses of the mind
To Every Beginning There Is An End

Treasure
Radiant
Undeniable
Enduring
Long-suffering
Omnipresent
Vibrant
Endless

Vice Grip
Unsystematic patterns
Takes me to a place I once knew
Always there and yet never present
Another paradox of life I suppose
It is a blissful pain
Enveloping and unbearable

*....but I'm still here..

I miss you
A lot
Not I can bring into words
Every time I hear this song
Emotions resurface
Love
Hate
Anger
Disappointment
Regret
Nostalgia
I'm sorry

What happened to us
I miss us
All of us
I need us
All of us
But us is not longer mine to keep
There is no longer an us
Just
You
And
Me

Home is where the heart is
What if the heart has left before one has had time to realize
Where is home
Where does one lay their head at night
How long until the heart yearns to be found again
Will it ever return
Heartless
Homeless

You break the silence

You help put the pieces together

You're a breath of fresh air

You're unpredictable

You're overlooked

You're beautiful

You're role is small

You are still

You are appreciated

Nerves
Confusion
Sweat
Clutter
In the midst of it all I found you

Mistakes
Pause
Discord
Chaos
1..2...breathe in exhale
My mind goes back to you

Who are you
How could you
Who told you
How long will you stay