you know that swans can die of a broken heart when their partner leaves.
people have said that on ice I am more graceful than a swan.
this adds up in ways that I don't appreciate
but its like i was born to tell you i love you and then just leave

and i want to say thank you and just be with you
but the truth is i don’t nearly love you as much as you love me
and i hate that
because i want to love you
every inch of you
i run my tongue over my lips and i can remember every kiss
but its not enough
and i’ve tried to bite my tongue and push it aside
cause i want you more than life
but a part of me can’t take it
and i can’t take hurting you anymore
because a part of me does
love
you.

for there is a way
to utter words
the words that i could never string together
just as there is a way
to say goodbye
for now and forever