A young boy embodied by an astral divine race
malevolence was his only relevance to those who shared his features
deceptive ways of an extra
dimension
manipulation of the time
distorted thoughts of happy and numb
love
money
power
greed
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drugs
madness, making its revolutions in his mind like Broadway hotel doors
correcting his ways with wrongs
never changing
like a caterpillar, in his cocoon.
In my crystal transition,
loving those who hate
hating no one other than himself
destroying his mind body and soul
apathetically trying to find the strength to love himself
until one day
the butterfly releases from his tomb
to fly away to a distant galaxy
where not even gravity has control over him
until that day
I sit here
typing
hoping there is someone who will reach out to this caterpillar

I would like to remember my grandpa,
as a strong man,
a respected man,
one of the only perfect people I've known.
I will be reminded of his presence
every time I pass a field, cattle, a farm, see a barn, eat fresh non pesticide foods,
anytime I need strength draw from to know that I can be a man,
I will know that I have had someone in my life who has literally lived a perfect life at least for as long as I can remember.
I would like to take this moment to stop my bad doings,
in respects for him,
anyone who has an agenda to do illegal things with me please respect me,
and leave me be.
I realize that I may have been at one point an influence to you or possibly the biggest influence but I'm doing this out of respects towards my family and towards myself,
if you can't respect that then you need to get out of my life,
never speak to me,
don't text me,
don't wave to me,
don't say hi to me,
because I do not need that influence anymore.
Those of you who'm I love and respect should be able to understand.
I need some closure, I need some time away from people, I need some time with my family.