The fear takes over me, as I start to break down
You fill me with so many emotions and I don't know how to handle them
The fear that once left me wont leave me now
I sit here in the dark because its all I can do.

I know there's nothing I can do now, now that it has me
Shaking, I decide to move, but my body wont let me
It has taken over, and there's noting I can do
Taken over me all over again.

If you knew what you put me through would you care?
If you knew what your eyes do to me would you still stare me down?
If I told you how I react to your distance would you move closer?
Or would you sill put me trough this?

The way you move makes me want to move with you
But you wont let me
If the day came where you held me close
All my fears would leave me.

I try to move again, the fear is still holding me down
We try so hard to be loved, and to love
And when I finally decide I know what I want
It doesn't want me back.

The feeling of sinking takes over me now
And nothing will let me look back
If you where here I would feel safe
But your not...

You make the sun seem small
But only in my eyes
The sinking slows as I think of your eyes
And nothing will ever be the same now.

I had a taste of joy, but I let it go
Now I have nothing but fear
Can we ever go back?
I want that back more than anything in my life.

the tears start to fill my eyes when I think of that time
I was so happy, nothing but joy
Why, Why did I give it up?
Because the fear took over me.

I can feel the cold grasp start to break.
But I know it wont last
You will stay distant, and I wont say anything
But it secretly kills me.

You hate the way you are, so you close yourself off to the world
But there are some of us who love what you are
You know the way I feel
But you will never fully understand

If you know what I would give for you
You would know that I know what I want
Where you to give me a chance
I would show you how much you mean to me

The feet on the floor, your heart shows on your hands
I move with your arms, but not the way we know.
You know me well, we know this, why can you see through my layers?
But I can’t... not the way we know
Your limbs are my sea, the way the sun moves
You know, we could do this again?
But not the way we know.
Not now.
Your face lights up the place.
The way you show your eyes on the wall
But not the way I know, only the right one.
I have loved and lost, and loved again.
But knowing makes all the difference
The only way we know.

Stop now
Stop whatever you are doing
look down.
look at yourself
Notice your position.
How are you holding your body?
Why are your feet pointing the way they are?
Where are your hands?
Why do you have your legs like that?
How are you holding your head?
Would you let others see you like this?
Are you proud of your position?
Would you change it if someone asked you to?


Make any adjustments you feel necessary.



Now, as you go back to what ever you were doing, keep your position in mind.

Keep thinking about your body parts and how you are holding them.



                                                                                                                   Continue.

Your breath swarms in around me, taking all I have left
it warms the deepest part of my soul,
wrapping me in this unwanted state.
Your love knows no limits,
but my heart can only take so much.
I want your arms around me,
but in this state, I don’t know who you are.
Your face is hidden by your emotions.
Take a breath, my love.
Morning will be here soon.

The way she moves her face
and the way she looks at me
takes me to this special place
where rules are lost and love moves in
Running around, hoping not to see the shape her age takes
wishing that you would let this begin,
knowing,
already filled with mistakes

You open your mouth,
hate spewing out.

Ask me to speak
tell me its alright,
then knock me down

The fire in your eyes
matches the one in my head,
if you could see in
you would stop asking.

You build yourself up
to be this great man
but showing me with your words

How wrong you really are

The sun shines down on you
and I see better than ever
the shape of your face
the way your lips fold
and the way your nose bends

Your beauty is overwhelming
it hits me like a wall
knocking me off my feet

Your eyes warm up my being
looking right through me
not only can you see my all
I give it over to you
give you my everything

Your hands touch my skin
my whole body shivers in the light
the realization of what you are

Your grace blows me away
the way you can move
dance your heart away
move as though no one is watching
even when everyone is

Then, I open my eyes
and begin to awaken

Dreaming of you in anticipation
what will we be?
Excitement shoots through my whole being.