Do you ever feel so alone that you just cannot move?
And everyone you turn to
Is too busy doing this
Doing that
Too busy with their other friends
Their life
To help you when you're feeling dragged down
By the depth of your soul
And the voices in your head.
Your left to the comfort of an old friend
Whose name you forgot
Whose cold slicing embrace chills your soul.

Hold close to me
I never left
You try to bury me
Just like the rest
I will not go
With you I shall stay
I will not go
For the end of your days.

A child's whisper
A faint glimmer
We're never really alone
Are we?

I'll spend the rest of my life
Trying to put into words
The love consuming my soul
For everything you are

When I think of the word passion
I think of him
And the look that shines in his eyes
When our lips barely touch
And we begin to kiss
The glimmer he shares
For just me to see
A look between lovers
His passion for me

His passion isn't just
A touch or a kiss
but the way he gently whispers
How badly he'll miss
my presence my love
if I ever walked away
But deep down my love knows
I never could stray

They way he explained
his pure hearts desire
Waiting for me
walking through fire
Not the easy route
By a far thought indeed
But a temporary passion
Despite a humanistic plead

A short-living phase
Makes it so hard
Not to sing him sweet praise
For loving me true and pure and strong
He's willing to wait
To 'become one' through bond

My heart he makes soar
Sing and leap great distance
I'm glad he's so stubborn
And sweet and persistent
He's learning to lead me
Guide me the right way
I'll always be his
Past the end of our days

Hello friends and fellow artists,
I was sitting here (my room) the other night and I had a thought about all my peers that are or have gone through self harm. It dawned on me that warm weather is coming up and a lot of you/us feel like you can’t wear shorts or short sleeves. I've noticed that there is a lot of poems about that on here, probably because us silly poets are always so emotional and feel things so strongly. I had the idea of making a video on how to cover up your scars with makeup for summer time. Though I am at a place in my life where I no longer feel the need to hide them, I know a lot of people still do (and there’s nothing wrong with that). If I could get some feedback on this I’d be really thankful! :) Much love and good vibes to you all!

Slow down, take a breath,
You don't have to push the words out religiously.
Each poem you write,
Is a delicate enchantment of your heart and soul.
Treat them with care.
Be gentle, be harsh, let your words flow out of you.
But never force.
Forced words end in corrupt ideals and rocky reading.
Slow down, take a breath,
You don't have to push the word out religiously.

Shove your fingers down your throat
Farther farther till your choke
That never was
A friend of mine

You like to pretend
You aren't selfish
You aren't a mess
But you are
Oh, little girl
You are
Even now
Acting so self righteous
And a flash of the eyes
A twist of the tongue
And now
Like magic
You're all gone

I used to think
bright blue eyes
and long blonde hair
was my weakness
But it turns out
it was your blue eyes
and your blonde hair
that made my knees drop
made my heart flutter
And now
All I see is you
When the others stare
and their dull blue eyes
don't light up my room
And the smell of their skin
doesn't help me sleep
doesn't make me feel safe
Your eyes are torrential downpour
into my soul
drowning all that I was
Leaving a changed woman
stranded in my place

So many times
She carved words
Into her smooth flesh
But they never stayed
They never stayed
The deep purple scars
Haunting her perfect thighs
Oh they always stay
They always stay

Rapunzel, Rapunzel, clean up your golden hair,
For in the way is thy golden stair.
I work and I clean and I just want a rest,
Maybe a hair cut would be for the best.
A small amount, a trim and a snip,
Please my dear, I constantly trip.
For your locks are beautiful and golden and fair,
Even with a cut, still your beauty no one can compare.

Why am I
Such a monster
Destroying and breaking
All that is in my path

Too selfish to give
The pure love
That I so eagerly
Receive

A kiss from red wine
On my red lips
Is a little sweeter
When my heart
Is falling to bits

Sometimes when he calls me baby
I feel so safe and secure
From such a simple word
Sometimes when he speaks
I can almost feel it
The warmth of him pulling me close
When I draw away
Curling up
Closing off
Shutting out
Everything

My Father my Lord
Hold me close to your heart
I cannot do this life without you.

You hold me up
You love me purely
You are the greatest joy.

Remind me of you
In your grace do I thrive
Thank you for my beautiful life.

You are my strength
Looking after me constantly
You are my saving grace and my Lord.

I always though the world was lying
When they'd rehearse the words
Speaking about how this thing called 'love'
Was the most beautifully tragic thing
I never understood how something like that
Something so powerful
Could exist and be attainable

But now I know
That love
True love

Is so painfully beautiful
If you ever dip your toes
Into the sea of love
Don't hesitate for a moment
To throw yourself fully in
For it's better to love fully
Than wade in the shallow
And risk never understanding
The most painful beauty the world offers

Creepy is a compliment to me
I admit I like to bleed
I just cannot help my crush
Oh the way it makes me rush
The way it flows
The way it grows
The saying "make blood boil"
Causes me such turmoil
Do I prefer it cold
Though that's pretty bold
Or maybe, should I heat it up
Before I go and eat it up
Baby what's your recipe
Share your secrets with me

And is it self hate
To say I feel
Like the worst partner
That's ever existed?
I promise I'm not
Trying to bash and spew
Just trying to understand
Why I'm not good to you
Just trying to love
To be good and to learn
But I can't seem to grow
No matter how hard I yearn
I should try harder
Work harder
Be better than me
But I doesn't seem
I can be anything else
But selfish and mean
I'm sorry my love
I'm sorry my friend
I'll love you till
Forever again
But I'm not good to you
I'm not good it seems
For anything but
Being selfish and mean
But I want so badly
So desperately to grow
To show you my love
How love should be shown
How do I do it
How can I be what I could
For the love of my life
I want to be what I should

She quietly sits,
Evaluating the words she
Let escape her lips.
Fighting with the anger,
Igniting her naked
Soul; being her only danger.
Her words are so devastating

A growling tummy
Itchy scars
But you just want to feel
Beautiful
Skinny
Free
Feel anything really
Other than the darkness
Trying to bring you back in
As an old comforting friend

A home wrecker is a woman
Who comes between two lovers
A dreadful sort that is feared
Despised
but what do you call a woman
Who gets in her own way
Who wrecks her own home
Simply Chaos

Dance with me, my skeleton groom
Our bones tangling up, as we move

I am only yours, down to the core

Let me feed off your negative vibes
But negative is such a relative term
You're so much ******* fun
When we both get like this
Are we destructive or are we perfect
Come one baby just be mine
Embrace our inner freaks
The scary kids the creepy kids
I always wanted to be that
You and I can be that couple
But only if you really knew
The mess that is inside me
I joke and tease constantly
But this is really part of my soul
Always been the demented one
Always been the morbid girl
You and I should stay together
You aren't scared away from my thoughts
Lets go play lets have some fun
I'm pretty sure you are the one

I feel so silly
So ridiculous
That I valued time
Now labled childish

I feel so alone
This night
As I toss and turn
As my mind and heart
Roughly fight

So I try to spew words
And label it a poem
But these words
Are meaningless dribble

And I'm not even tiredi

Letting your thoughts flow free
Your spirit is so kind,
I never thought my man to be
Would have such a similar mind.

I simply cannot fathom
The way you understand,
Why don’t we open an asylum
Where our world is never bland.

You delightfully inspire my soul
With the way you hold my hand,
My heart you quickly stole
And nothing has ever been so grand.

I never thought I'd be this cutesy
But they say that love is blind,
I'll always be your little gypsy
Our souls forever entwined.

Silly girl
You're a disaster
A mess and a wreck
Be stronger be better
Look past yourself
Be better be stronger
Silly girl
You're a disaster
Reeking havoc
On all you touch
You twister you storm
Calm down
You chaotic mess

The ocean never gets exhausted,
So it tries to ware down the shore,
Sand always keeps strong against the tide.

The sun weights heavy on the surface
As it smiles and shines, despite this
The ocean never gets exhausted.

People come and they always go
Hellos are fun, but goodbyes hurt
So it tries to ware down the shore.

Storms start far off the beach
They build till they affect the surf, but
Sand always keeps strong against the tide.

Submerged is the art of the water rushing over
The stinging bite of the frozen waves
The numbing shake of the boiling embrace
The turning of the rushing sea
Trying desperately to swallow me

Infectious smile
Like the sweetest disease
My lip have never touched
Such a delicate taste
As the gentle toxin
Secreting from your lips

Oh lord
My loving lord
Aside from you
And the love you provide
I am beyond speechless
Beyond my words
I thank you so passionately
That he is mine

I think those who self harm
Are the most under estimated.

They are the most clever they
Are the most under rated.

So I haven't cut in a month
Are those thoughts really parted?

You said it wouldn't make a difference
Are the wedding plans thwarted?

La la la la la la la

My wounds are scars
With care they are covered

Does love really exist
With bright eyes I wondered

Finally healed and
With the clouds I have hovered

My darkest of days
With them I have sundered

La la la la la la la

Recovery is a process
But I've made it through this mess

Others say they care
But you alone I wish to impress

All this work that's come
But you rid me of stress

So far away
But you make me feel like a princess

La la la la la la la

For your soul and mind
That they are well
For the man that left me twice(and I left once, I need to start including that in my rants; I often wonder if that's why you did it), I pray for nothing but love and protection. I ask for your heart to be turned towards things that will bring joy and life, and away from those that drag you down...
You glow so brightly..
Well you used to
And I did too
But now we're dull and we've fallen apart once again
And I find myself
Just begging
For you to be okay
Because I know I will be
Or I'll hurt forever and deal with that too
But you, sweet one, I fear for
I'm sure that would make you indignant
You don't need me worrying about you
But I'll always be here for you
Even if you won't talk to me for another year
I am always here if you need me
Or if for some silly reason
You want me
Again

It's not fair, it isn't fair
But with such a heavy glance of despair
You break me you mold me
I can't help but hold an overwhelming love for thee.

My poetry isn't bland, simple, or plain.
It's beautiful, a mess, and all sounds the same.
I use the same pattern, beat, and rhymes,
Eventually it will be used one too many times.

I am fighting the urge to love you so pure
God help me I have a poison and you are the cure.
Ignore me, push away, leave me to a thought.
It makes me miss you so much that I rot.

I'm a tree in the wind, I push but do not break
Will loving you turn out to just be a mistake?
Sometimes it's perfect and you're my closest best friend,
Other times it's like it was all just pretend.

It's not fair for me to desire your full attention,
And the sorrow in my soul is beyond comprehension.
I will never forgive myself, and you shouldn't either
I understand you need a break, your heart needs a breather.

I feel so worn thin, so little butter over too much bread
These thoughts and emotions must get out of my head.
What do you want can't you make yourself clear
But please don't tell me it's what I fear.

It's a sick sort of enjoyment, I get from this life,
It's hard to accept you seeing anyone else as a wife.
But that's what it's come to and that's my fault too
I just hope she makes you happy and her love is true.

You told me have patience to see if it's in my favor
I know I've had inexcusable behavior.
You probably didn't see that it was about you and I,
Waiting to see what you choose makes me want to die.

The heaviest burden I ever have bore,
I'm so sorry for that time, your heart, I tore.
It makes me feel ill to think about my choice,
But you don't understand, he stole my voice.

I won't talk about him because he isn't what I want,
Will my choice forever be over me, a ghost that will haunt?
I'm so sorry my dear, I'm so sorry my precious love,
You always treated me like a gift from above.

And sometimes I think about how bad is the pain,
When the person you love does not love the same.
Then I recall yet again what I did to your heart,
I wonder if it would be best, if I just chose to depart.

I get so beyond torn when I try to decide
Because no matter what, I won't leave your side.
Sometimes it just hurts too much, I have to write it out,
It comes it waves and I'm sorry for my doubt.

I'm sorry for the way my emotions turn and twist,
I never want you to have to deal with this.
I'm such a mess and I want to tell you all that I feel,
But I fear if I do, you will leave, and my nightmare will be real.

Oh my oh goodness me this has turned into a mess,
I can't form my words even when I try my best.
I'm sorry if this isn't clear, doesn't help, or bring peace,
I have no one to talk to, it just sits and festers, this is my release.