It's so incredibly terrifying
Their talking, I always hear them
I can't tell you what goes on in my head

I have to force calm breathing
Every action, they condemn
It's so incredibly terrifying

Such a fear so soothing
My soul is constant mayhem
I can't tell you what goes on in my head

When their mad their seething
Their angry with this poem
It's so incredibly terrifying

The constant noise is tiring
If I end myself I end them
I can't tell you what goes on in my head

I wonder how I'm still breathing
My end will be a stratagem
It's so incredibly terrifying
I can't tell you what goes on in my head

You know you start to believe them
All those lies
When you tell them
One too many times

How pretentious and atrocious
To write stories
Where you get to be the main character
And have the life you've always wanted

Why don't you try living
Like your temper controls the weather
And you anger
Destroys lives

A peaceful soul
Tender kind and loving
Will always be sought after
Above all other types

Regardless of recovery
You will always be your own worst enemy
Drown the voices in your head
You can make it out alive

Have you memorized the ocean wave?
It draws in an out so slowly
To the ocean you are a slave.

Being near the sea is something you crave
You stare into forever dully
Have you memorized the ocean wave?

Under the waters there is a cave
Calling your name so brashly
To the ocean you are a slave.

Something inside you is still brave
But you know you won’t act rashly
Have you memorized the ocean wave?

For the sea you have not yet forgave
It has taken your life wholly
To the ocean you are a slave.

The tides never seem to behave
Never dividing the time fairly
Have you memorized the ocean wave?
To the ocean you are a slave.

I saw you turning and quickly leaving
As you did, I was sure my heart should quit beating.
For if you leave me, I don't quite know why,
But I think all my hopes and dreams shall die.

Ah, I think I have found the reason.
For if you leave I will be freezin'
'cause when I'm alone or without you,
I don't know what I'm supposed to do.

You're my better half, don't you see?
Sit down, promise to never leave me.
For I love you, and you love me.
Forever and ever we shall be.

She just doesn't like uneven numbers.
That look in his eyes, terrified her.
She wanted it too but,
She felt so used.
It became another tendency,
To be pleasing to the men.
She doesn't know how to make it work,
Unless she works for them.
His intentions started pure,
But God knows it turned sour.
He just wanted to love her.
Stuck in a paradox,
not knowing what to do.
She gave up the only thing,
She was clinging tightly to.

Thank you for the wind in the trees
Thank you for the sun and the breeze

The sound of the rushing waves
When you whisper, the sound the leaves make

The rain on my skin
The soil beneath my feet
The fragrance of flowers in spring

For the aches in my heart
But the peace in my soul

Thank you for the sun and the breeze
Thank you for the win in the trees

I will be traveling tomorrow morning and won't be back home till the 10th. I may or may not have internet access, so replying to messages will be slim to none and poems definitely won't get posted. I hope you all have a great week :)
Namaste.

I love the taste of my coffee
But I'm really terrible at remembering
To drink it before it stars chilling.
I write
I draw
I sing
I am art.
But my coffee grows old.
So I've become okay with the taste
Of lukewarm coffee.
It's become a familiar kiss
Across my mouth and these lips.

A kiss from red wine
On my red lips
Is a little sweeter
When my heart
Is falling to bits

When a girl thinks of you
In the most intimate setting
She embraces the thought
Of her wedding night
Letting herself go to you
Once you've given her your heart

When a boy thinks of you
In the most intimate setting
He thinks of the deed
In a car park, on a couch
Wherever is most convenient
Letting himself go to you
Once you've given him your body

When I think of you
In the most intimate setting
I think of the love and commitment
That I have given to you
Letting myself go to you
My whole heart and body

When you think of me
In the most intimate setting
Do you think of how you love me
Or of how much you care
While letting yourself go to me
Your heart, or just your body?

She was born with a dragon tattoo
On the small of her back
And a butterfly that flutters
On the nape of her neck

The dragon daily throws fireballs
While the butterfly puts them out with her tears
The forever feel of heartache and emotion
Scars left that will never smear

It is often said that time heals wounds
Good and evil an everlasting struggle
Yin and yang, the north and south
Opposing forces are never subtle

She's accepted the truth of her tattoo's
As her lot in life
The battle rages daily
Fighting for her souls light

Inner turmoil, all she knows
But darkness won't consume
A once held brightness
One day shall resume

For the girl with the dragon tattoo
On the small of her back
And the butterfly that flutters
At the nape of her neck

I entertained the thought
of you and I writing together
But if we ever put in words
The sort of love we share
We would make the entire
world crumble with jealousy

I've been craving a smoke
So I've taken up gum
It's been such a long time
Since that was a habit of mine

Cigarettes and coffee
Compliment each other better
Like did we before this tragedy
When it was we were together

Your kiss was like a sip from my mug
Sweet and soft but quickly removed
A sip, save from poison, is never regretted
And you were far from poison on my lips

A love that could have been and was
Has somehow vanished in the dust
Now daily life is bleak and boring
Thoughts of you are full of mourning

Those thoughts of you guide me through
The dreams of yesterday
Where all I see are shadows of you and me
Blocking out the warming of the suns morning rays

The coldest warmth I've ever felt
As the sun rises higher in the sky
I miss the peaceful silence we used to live in
It's a shame it was built on a lie

A lie that can't be justified
In what hope it had to gain
On my lips your kiss still sits
As your poison runs through my veins

"You must love haikus
Because you are a poet"
I do not like them

I simply adore when smoke is shared in a passionate embrace
See, when you share a cigarette you share more than nicotine
You share your breath
                                   your air
                                              your source of life.

I cannot get enough of the beautiful irony that the situation holds
When they tell you not to smoke because a cigarette a day keeps life away
But I ask you to share with me
                                             A carefree
                                                         painfully morbid
                                                                         life-threatening beauty.

Oh friend of mine
What time does the sun get up
My lover and I should like a cup
Of hot green tea
To start our day
What time does the sun get up.

Oh darling of mine
What time does the bus stop
On the 516 we'd have to hop
To run away
To another place
What time does the bus stop.

Oh love of mine
What time does the sun set
Between you and I there is a bet
How long we'll last
With lips apart
What time does the sun set.

Oh stranger of mine
What time does the sun rise
You were gone to my surprise
Alone with green tea
And a warm blanket
What time does the sun rise.

It's been along while
Since I've felt the
Desperate
Suffocating
Excruciating desire
To hear the ocean
Crashing on those pebbles
And wait for the
Chilling
Calming
Beautiful sound
Of it drawing back off the shore.

We only had a few hours that day
But it was sunny and beautiful and full of light,
I never wanted to leave your side.
The taste of your soft lips on mine,
Was sweeter than the brightest sunshine.

Near the river on a fence we lay
The softest skin I've ever felt,
And the bluest eyes that can make me melt.
The way you held me close and tight
Every moment seemed so right.

You wrapped your arms around my waist
I leaned in a little closer just to hear your heartbeat,
That day we skated and walked with bare-feet.
Watching you drive away wasn't too bad I swear,
Though it would have been easier if I didn't care.

Our first hug was the sweetest embrace
But just being in the same room was breathtaking,
My heart, immeasurable joy when you said 'intoxicating.'
Someday we'll be together again,
Thank you for being my very bestest friend.

Sweetie I wish to write you a letter
But finding words I haven't said..
Well I could always call you my anchor,
Though that might get erased once I proof read.
I think if our lips pressed together..
Not necessarily in a romantic way,
We wouldn't need to speak forever.
Goodness your smile can make my day.

If you've never tasted my tears as they stream across my lips
Don't tell me you've understood my pain
Tears lips and eyes tell stories words cannot
The stories deeply hidden in someones heart of hearts
The aching pain that stirs in them on the coldest days and warmest nights
The stinging in their throat and they lose all sense of up and down
When they clench their fist and squeeze their eye lids shut
And gently shake
When they don't understand why the tears chose to fall this day
But every pain is revealed to them at once and pilled upon another
Before you vanish out of this world and existence
Taste someones tears as they stream across their lips
Understand their pain as they cry for the world that has broken them

Bury the pain till it drives you insane
Don't let them win don't forget your kin
It's eating you up darling good luck
They're calling you lazy but you're just going crazy
You sad little thing your bell will ring
It's coming to the end you can no longer pretend
The voices in your head bind you to your bed
The secrets your smile hides you are so full of lies
No one will want you your life is through
They tell you you're wrong but it's too late you're gone.

I carry the weight of a million troubles
Watching my family tear apart
And everything we had, fell to rubble.

The selfish stubborn that flows about
My sister and mother are broken
I'm stuck in a middle and can't get out.

You stupid ignorant child
Don't you even care
Your relationship's defiled.

Oh but I must have forgot
Everythings about you
Even if our family will rot.

I dread the thought of seeing you
It turns my stomach
I know she dislikes it too.

That isn't how it should be
We should all be excited
Why can't everyone be happy.

I hate this way of life
Please grow up
I can't live with constant strife.

I'll see you very soon
So very soon indeed
The desperate month of June.

See you soon my dear sister
Are you prepared
Because I'm ready for a twister.

We should find a favorite spot,
Go camping there once a year.
In between the traveling about,
From there, to there, to there to here.

Put daisies up in my tangled hair,
And I will you help with yours.
Kiss me when I stir from a night mare,
Kiss my lips and make me soar.

We may only own a single teapot,
Living in the wilderness is an odd career.
But we'll never wish to be elsewhere,
In the morning when we wake to a herd of deer.

The little pitter-patter of tiny feet
Running to daddy and mommy.
A sound that would be so sweet
Even if sentences are a bit clumsy.

I must determine when I need to let you go,
and when I need to just hold close.
But the voices in my head,
send conflicting messages.
And the words that you speak,
Don't help me in the least.
I won't give up on us,
We hold something precious.

My Father my Lord
Hold me close to your heart
I cannot do this life without you.

You hold me up
You love me purely
You are the greatest joy.

Remind me of you
In your grace do I thrive
Thank you for my beautiful life.

You are my strength
Looking after me constantly
You are my saving grace and my Lord.

You are love joy peace patience

Kindness goodness faithfulness
Gentleness self-control.

And you, in comparison to me,
Are the most pure human example
Of love, that I have ever seen.

You are patient and kind, you
Don't boast or get angry
And you don't keep records of
My wrong, even when I do.

If you need your space and time
To discover what you need to be
I will patiently wait right here.

Just as you were always there for me
I will be here when you are ready

I won't give up, best friend.

Have you ever found a spark
In the oddest of places,
A positive mark
By some familiar faces.

Subtle and quiet
But not missed by the heart,
Such a peaceful riot
Begins to start.

It's not fair, it isn't fair
But with such a heavy glance of despair
You break me you mold me
I can't help but hold an overwhelming love for thee.

My poetry isn't bland, simple, or plain.
It's beautiful, a mess, and all sounds the same.
I use the same pattern, beat, and rhymes,
Eventually it will be used one too many times.

I am fighting the urge to love you so pure
God help me I have a poison and you are the cure.
Ignore me, push away, leave me to a thought.
It makes me miss you so much that I rot.

I'm a tree in the wind, I push but do not break
Will loving you turn out to just be a mistake?
Sometimes it's perfect and you're my closest best friend,
Other times it's like it was all just pretend.

It's not fair for me to desire your full attention,
And the sorrow in my soul is beyond comprehension.
I will never forgive myself, and you shouldn't either
I understand you need a break, your heart needs a breather.

I feel so worn thin, so little butter over too much bread
These thoughts and emotions must get out of my head.
What do you want can't you make yourself clear
But please don't tell me it's what I fear.

It's a sick sort of enjoyment, I get from this life,
It's hard to accept you seeing anyone else as a wife.
But that's what it's come to and that's my fault too
I just hope she makes you happy and her love is true.

You told me have patience to see if it's in my favor
I know I've had inexcusable behavior.
You probably didn't see that it was about you and I,
Waiting to see what you choose makes me want to die.

The heaviest burden I ever have bore,
I'm so sorry for that time, your heart, I tore.
It makes me feel ill to think about my choice,
But you don't understand, he stole my voice.

I won't talk about him because he isn't what I want,
Will my choice forever be over me, a ghost that will haunt?
I'm so sorry my dear, I'm so sorry my precious love,
You always treated me like a gift from above.

And sometimes I think about how bad is the pain,
When the person you love does not love the same.
Then I recall yet again what I did to your heart,
I wonder if it would be best, if I just chose to depart.

I get so beyond torn when I try to decide
Because no matter what, I won't leave your side.
Sometimes it just hurts too much, I have to write it out,
It comes it waves and I'm sorry for my doubt.

I'm sorry for the way my emotions turn and twist,
I never want you to have to deal with this.
I'm such a mess and I want to tell you all that I feel,
But I fear if I do, you will leave, and my nightmare will be real.

Oh my oh goodness me this has turned into a mess,
I can't form my words even when I try my best.
I'm sorry if this isn't clear, doesn't help, or bring peace,
I have no one to talk to, it just sits and festers, this is my release.

The earth screams at the smokey sky,
Fire rained back, and flames burned high.
The ocean will roar and the air
Will never relinquish power.
The animals they run run run,
Away from the elements that they love.
The heat pours down and penetrates a world,
The air is choked out, and reality is curled.

Silence takes over as the flame burns out,
Everything is gone without a doubt.
But it's the way of life, burning and growing,
It's earths process, cleansing and slowing.
There's good in the bad, though hard to see,
From the ashes grows a bud, a flower to be.
Please don't lose hope in any natural thing,
For you're of nature, like every human being.

My hair is dull, my skin is pale.
The love in my eyes
Has gone all to hell.
My body is scarred, the insides a mess.
Exhausted and destroyed,
But what comes next?
A story of love, what an odd quirky dream.
The world is just falling
Steeper and deeper it seems.
A light gives you hope, just cling to the air.
You must learn to be a brothers loving keeper.
I do not know how
Or why
Or where
But humans should love, not enjoy watching each other die.
Let joy fill your heart and lift your smile to the sky.

I’m surrounded by these people
Whose language I do not speak,
All of the sounds often make me weak,
A word I know, makes my nose crinkle.

Grey skies quite often sprinkle,
The apartment does have its leaks,
Wet furniture, oh but it reeks.
Finding my comfort, at the house with a steeple.

Praying, singing, dancing and love,
Your glory shines down on us from above.
We sing and praise your so Holy name,

Did you hear them ask me to play a game?
This foreign world, feeling like home,
You know what they say, “When in Rome!”

I’m surrounded by these people
Whose language I do not speak,
All of the sounds often make me weak,
A word I know, makes my nose crinkle.

Grey skies quite often sprinkle,
The apartment does have its leaks,
Wet furniture, oh but it reeks.
Finding my comfort, at the house with a steeple.

Praying, singing, dancing and love,
Your glory shines down on us from above.
We sing and praise your so Holy name,

Did you hear them ask me to play a game?
This foreign world, feeling like home,
You know what they say, “When in Rome!”