All these things I've said I'd do
I don't see at all how I'll make it through
These trials these challenges
To be a better me
I can't seem to improve
The slightest of these
I pick and scrape
And barely get by
Though maybe that's only
In my eyes

It's not that bad
I promise
You can get through the day
Chin up
Look to the sky
Whatever's going wrong
It's so small
So temporary
Hold strong

And how undeserving am I
Of the graceful, steady
Love he provides
And he knows this
Yet provides nonetheless
For true love is forgiving
And searches for your best

When I'm falling down
Breaking apart it seems
He holds me steady
As soon as he's ready
Never abandons or drops
And treats me like a lady

How undeserving am I
To have such a lover
Who gives so many chances and more
To learn again and restore
Even if I keep repeating
Things that cause heart-sore

So I break and I build
This heart in my chest
For my lover my sight
And do all that I might
To learn and to grow
So I may treat him right

Help Help Help
The echoes reverberate
Ringing loudly
Of these empty prayers
Falling on
Deaf ears?
Are you there?
Are you listening?
I don't feel you
Where have you gone?
Or am I the one who left?
I've been pleading
Desperately praising
Desperately praying
Are you still there?
It feels so empty
So vague
So dusty
Why aren't you close to me?
Or is this what it fees like
When they say
"You're closer than ever
When He feels far away"
Well I don't believe it
This can't be right
Where is my God?
Where is my Saviour?
Are my choked prayers
Falling on His ears?
I don't know what I feel
Am I angry
Am I sad
Do I just give up?
Do I keep chasing?
Where are you?
The echoes reverberate
Ringing loudly
Of these empty prayers
Falling on
Deaf ears?
I won't give up
But I feel so lost
My Saviour My God

Help me be patient
Help me be loving
Things I've prayed for
So many times
But something I forgot
Way to pray
For selflessness
Because I've always been told
I was never selfish
And that makes for a selfish girl
Lord I never prayed
For the ability to listen
And quiet my words
I was always told
Two ears
One mouth
But then I was told
I have good things to say
But what I really needed
Was someone to say
"just listen..
Don't speak.."
I need help
With so much
But I ask
First
For so much help
With being less of self
And more of you
And more listening

Some of the sweetest wine
Softly rolls over my tongue
And I can barely taste
The flavor it offers

Silly girl
You're a disaster
A mess and a wreck
Be stronger be better
Look past yourself
Be better be stronger
Silly girl
You're a disaster
Reeking havoc
On all you touch
You twister you storm
Calm down
You chaotic mess