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3.9k · Oct 2012
Warrior
Kittridge James Oct 2012
Noble warrior

covered with dust

He doesn't dare to

let you see him sweat


Persistent warrior

with wounds severe

He puts up a smirk

to fool our minds


Passionate warrior

with eyes fixed on target

His gun steadily aimed

a moment frozen


Victorious warrior

with a triumphant grin

Formidable opponent to ashes

His heart is right again
3.6k · Aug 2013
Slut
Kittridge James Aug 2013
Slap me
Choke me
Bite me

Show me you own me
I am your property
Your ****

Spank me
Cane me
Violate me

Tease me
I'll please you
Kiss me once

I live to please you.
2.5k · Nov 2012
Dark Brown Eyes (Haiku)
Kittridge James Nov 2012
The way your eyes are

They coax me into your grasp

I can't help myself
2.5k · Oct 2012
Maverick Soldier
Kittridge James Oct 2012
Two Hearts Beat as One

Undeniably magnificent

Open-heart despair

Tougher rhythm dominating bonded purpose

I Fall Down

Can't wait to get to Berlin

Short-sided bravado

Notably lacking comparison

The edge of nihilism

It's New Year's Day,

And Sunday ****** Sunday

Matured maverick solider

Exact achievements contrary to empathetic aspirants

Reunion in October

Temporarily divided by faith

Undeniable spiritual optimism

Victory, complete ardor

Promising and passionate

Rejoice in optimistic reunion

Two hearts beat out of control
2.3k · Jan 2013
Liar
Kittridge James Jan 2013
Your eyes are filled with


Broken promise and empty


Lies about your life
2.1k · Oct 2012
Slipping
Kittridge James Oct 2012
Clear crystal blue
Marbled colours show
beneath the cascading
ripples of heaving sanity

A feather touch
quickly thrown into a
debilitating stab
that stops your breath

A blood curdling scream
Hummingbird heartbeat
Colour fading from fingertips
Finally some peace and quiet
2.0k · Feb 2013
Adrenaline
Kittridge James Feb 2013
The familiar rush
of adrenaline hits
almost cripplingly


Your hands have
become adjusted
to my every curve


My eyes dart
my voice becomes
a thick, heavy syrup


I flinch at first
but it switches to
thrashing about


Even just sitting
in your near vicinity
drives me batty
1.7k · Nov 2012
Ravish Me
Kittridge James Nov 2012
Ravish me, oh love

the way your fingers

cascade through

my hair of raven feather


Enrapture me, oh love

don't let any fears or

apprehension stop your

exploring expedition


Hypnotize me, oh love

make me moan

and writhe underneath

your throbbing passion


Please me, oh love

don't hold anything back

Ravish me, oh love

I've been waiting for you
1.5k · Oct 2012
Composure
Kittridge James Oct 2012
She holds her composure better than me,

And yet she's falling apart.



I can see a bit of purple around her eye,

where her foundation didn't cover.

She's always in long sleeves,

to cover the bumps and the scars.



She's in so much pain, yet she smiles.

She's got a round bump under her shirt,

But it isn't from a boyfriend or an act of passion.



She used to be called anorexic,

when the reality was, she didn't have food to

feed herself, nor the child she is being forced to carry.



She is missing chunks of her long blonde hair.

She only has three outfits.

Her only pair of shoes are plagued with tears and holes.



Her blue jeans are covered in crimson stains,

beyond her façade she's screaming.



And yet, despite all of these things she's enduring;



She just puts on a big smile,

And pretends everything is okay.
1.4k · Nov 2012
Banter (Haiku)
Kittridge James Nov 2012
Meaningless banter

Is sometimes comforting to

Absent sanity
1.2k · Jan 2013
Bass
Kittridge James Jan 2013
Bass drum meets heartbeat


I embrace the energy


Everything is right
1.2k · May 2013
Rubber Bands
Kittridge James May 2013
Snap, snap, wince
It's slowly coming
back into routine

Snap, snap, gasp
A room full of
milling people in
the muggy heat

Snap, snap, ouch
Always one too far
Now I remember this
gratifying therapy
1.2k · Oct 2012
The Vision of Macabre
Kittridge James Oct 2012
Terminally upset,

terminally emotional.

Plagued with multiple personalities,

Plagued with a desire to maintain

my last clutches of scarce sanity.



Brushes with a simple reclusive state,

Slowly but surely morph into

brushes with a razorblade.

Trying to escape myself,

Trying to find a safe haven.



Breaking out of my façade,

Breaking out of the asylum.

Screaming loud, with everything left in me,

Screaming loud, but I know

No one can hear me.



Crying out for her,

Crying out for help.

Falling out of my sorrows,

Falling out of tomorrow.



The world growing increasingly violent,

The world growing eerily silent.

Seeing the cruelness in my last breaths,

Seeing the shards of pain in the shattered mirror.



Suddenly, a pale hand zips the body bag that holds me,

Suddenly, my vision fades to white.

Gently, the music of mourning begins to play,

Gently, my coffin in lowered into the ground.
1.2k · Sep 2013
Sweet Nothings
Kittridge James Sep 2013
If there was a way,
I would hand you
Every moon and
Endless numbers
Of sweet nothings
Written on the stars

I love the curve of
Your smile to the curve
Where your neck
Meets you shoulders
And all your little things
In between

Your hazel eyes and
Your soft pink lips,
I love when the smoke
Puts you out and you
Talk in your sleep
I love to see your peace

My love, here we are
Against the unforgiving world
I will always hold you tight
I'll never leave your side
I know you feel you're broken
But I'll help you love you
1.2k · Oct 2012
Ceremonials
Kittridge James Oct 2012
Hurtled through love,

Dark, robust, romantic

Violent memories

Tearing through a moonless night

Hooting and growling through a treatise

A spiritual rebirth, heaved into heartbreak

Ever revving metaphor

Shake it Out

I am done with my graceless heart,

So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and restart

Melodrama vastly inflated

Turbulent ballads, booming drums

The wind chorales howling melodies

Hopeless romantic separating rapture from disaster

Love is a vast and violent force

Overflow of iconoclastic shamelessness

Leave my Body

Midnight-on-the-moors

Oh my love don't forget me
1.1k · Oct 2012
Imperfect.
Kittridge James Oct 2012
I am no vessel of perfection.
I'm crazy, unstable and emotional.
My hair never lays quite right.
My clothes aren't the most expensive.

I am no vessel of perfection.
I talk to myself.
I see things that aren't there.
I'm not the skinniest girl ever.

I am no vessel of perfection.
I'm adamant in what I believe.
I'm loud and derranged.
My room is usually messy.

I am no vessel of perfection.
I care too much.
I'm too nice.
I hate school and my grades ****.

I am no vessel for perfection;
and yet, she still seems to think
I am flawless.
I am the sunshine.

She says that I am her world.
She holds me when I cry.
Her kisses make me weak in the knees.
My hands fit perfectly in hers.

She says that I am her world.
She is my last missing puzzle piece.
Her beauty is remarkable.
I don't deserve someone so wonderful.

She says that I am her world;
She says that I am the one.
She asked me to marry her,
and all I could do was gawk.

I am no vessel for perfection;
But for some reason, she seems to think

I make the world go round.
1.1k · Nov 2012
Smirk
Kittridge James Nov 2012
Your smile

Warm and inviting

You're persuasive,

and I'm bending at your will



The presence in you eyes

draws me in closer to you

When they meet mine

and the colours mingle



Your strength is remarkable

I don't see any effort

as you lay me down

with a subtle smirk on your lips



We are becoming one

Wrought with passion and

dripping with a heavy lust

Look me in the eye



and don't quit smirking
1.1k · Oct 2012
The Lovers
Kittridge James Oct 2012
The old oak stands in a quiet clearing, covered in a blanket of grass and wildflowers.

A soft breeze rustles the ancient branches and makes the grass dance.

The peaceful serenity is broken by soft footsteps and bubbles of laughter.

Two lovers approach the old oak hand-in-hand.

The couple reflects the true meaning of contentment.

Their smiles radiate the warmth of the love between them.

They lay under the oak, huddled tight.

Together, entwined in the arms of one another,

The lovers slowly fade away…
1.1k · Oct 2012
I am
Kittridge James Oct 2012
I am a mess and a masterpiece
I wonder how it feels to fly
I hear my life ticking away
I see the paint eluding the canvas
I want to be free
I am a mess and a masterpiece

I pretend that I am not afraid
I feel like I'm falling to pieces
I touch the glittering sunlight
I worry about my future plans
I cry pools of blue paint
I am a mess and a masterpiece

I understand that not everyone is good
I say a prayer for equality
I dream of a surreal life behind a lens
I try to smile even when it hurts
I hope some day I will be good enough
I am a mess and a masterpiece
1.1k · Oct 2012
Gentle Caress
Kittridge James Oct 2012
The sun sets at the lonely sea,
how I wish you were holding me.
The day you left is still fresh and new,
I wanted to tell you, but didn't have a chance to.

These wounds are stitched but are not healing,
the day you left has my mine reeling.
When you left my life soon ended,
my outlook is anything but splendid.

Sadness has completely overwhelmed me,
without you there is nothing to see.
Pain has dyed my heart jet black,
it hurts to know you aren't coming back.

I remember the feel of your gentle caress as
the corner of the razor bores into my flesh.
1.1k · Oct 2012
Midnight Freedom
Kittridge James Oct 2012
Sitting in her room, back against the door,
Playing her music so loud she can feel it in the floor.
She turns off the light, opens the curtains, lets in the breeze.
She wants to stand looking through window, she doesn't care if she does freeze

Downstairs she can hear the screaming, she closes her eyes.
she feels the acidic tears start to drip, feels the buzzing inside like a thousand flies.
She opens the window, ever so slightly,
She wishes for someone, anyone to creep in and grab her tightly.

One hand on the windowsill, the other gripping a razor hanging from a chain
They used to tell her to cut, just once, it would take away the pain.
Outside its pitch black, not even a star dares to peek,
Tonight is the night she knows the vampires start to creep.

Voices and whispering telling of dark tales
She has heard the breath of an empty body, felt the grip, heard the wails.
Pushing and pushing, the window open wide
That's it, she has lost her chance, no point in trying to hide

Slide down the wall, back against the brick
Knees beneath her chin, hearing the clock tick.
Shaking back and forth, downstairs its quiet
She knows what they are trying to do, she won't buy it.

Her music finally stops, as if paused mid-word
Outside nothing could live, not a human, not a bird.
The air begins to solidify, her shaky hands grip her hair
Looking down at the floor, she'll pretend it's not there.

Footsteps approach, creaky floorboards give their warning
Even if anyone was around, they wouldn't hear her calling.
Others would be scared, but right now her heart beats for this
She has heard of the story, human gets bitten, not a voice just a hiss.

She looks down still, she fears if their eyes meet she might see,
See the face that shall haunt her yet set her free
It reaches out and places a finger under her chin
His hands so cold, yet warm within.

As if it knew what she needed so badly,
He lifted her head and icy eyes looked at her so sadly.
Her heart races, she can barely breathe, who knew that he would
Creep in through her window, her little sign, he knows not of good.

Lips so full she yearns to hear his voice, hair so dark it matches midnight
Unlike the tales he is soft and gentle, his heart free and light.
They both stop, stare at each other, he knows what she is thinking
Tattoos on his pale skins of chains, if he was to move she's sure she would hear clinking.

His hand tilts her head, she can feel breath on her neck,
"Are your windows locked? Make sure you check!"
Moving in closer, she knows what his kind do,
She doesn't what to stop this, even though she knows what she will go through.

Two little points, pressed against her neck, surely they are teeth
His hands on her should, holding her like a tree holds its leaf.
He presses harder, piercing her skin,
Warmth drips out, a glowing form within.

She gasps a little, its finally done
All these years she has fought to be noticed, her battle is won.
Alone in this house, she lays in his arms,
Neither of them speak, he never hurts he never harms.

Her pulse starts to slow, he is drinking silently
Stealing her life, but gently not violently.
Maybe she'll change into someone like him, a vampire,
Alone in the night, just him and her, they will float higher and higher.

So empty she's so pale, so weak and so frail
Her head against his chest, a unique scent she does inhale.
Still he stays holding her close, a woman's life,
Stolen in the night, gone forever, without a gun. Without a knife.
1.0k · Oct 2012
Faithful Gunmetal
Kittridge James Oct 2012
I'd never seen her so beautiful,
the color of life now covering her once ivory complexion.
The heart that once beat is now stagnant and black.
This thing in my hand, locked and loaded;
the shiniest gunmetal I've seen in a while.
Her only solitary life now gushing from her head.

Why did I take her life you ask?
It was those eyes...those godforsaken white, sightless eyes!
They never saw anything I am or ever will be.
All I ever wanted was for her to see!!
I've wanted to gouge them out since the day our two
lives became a single, cohesive one.

But it was those eyes that drove me to this.
Never had she seen my face.
Why is this just now occuring to me?
Yes, of course I loved her.
Mad? Why would you say that?

What is a madman? Me? A madman?
Preposterous!! What is a madman?
Certainly not in comparison to me.
I am the spitting image of true sanity...
Or am I?

I see no wrong doing in my actions.
I was simply doing her a favor...
Though, I probably should've been more humane
with the child she was carrying...

My child! My own flesh and blood!! Gone forever!
But it was for the good of both of them I presume...
There was a good chance my son would've been blind.

...My son!! My baby boy!!! How tragic a day this is!
Well, there wasn't any stipulation to 'Till death do us part'.
There wasn't any specification on how it was to happen.

I look to the gunmetal again.
It is to blame for this tragedy...
I hold the faithful steel grey to the side of my head
and look to my deceased spouse and unborn child.

Finally, I give the gun one final squeeze goodbye...
1.0k · May 2013
Oblivion
Kittridge James May 2013
Buzzy and disoriented

Surreal and intangible

Semi-lucid stumbling

A nervous tick to

A gory mess


Dizzying with elapsing

time and continued

bleeding. Blurring the

thick lines of reality

Into oblivion
1.0k · Nov 2012
Sickly Satisfied
Kittridge James Nov 2012
My senses, all

completely deprived,

water surrounds me,

embracing my every curve



Serenity replaces all

of the residual tendrils

of unfitted rage,

and shying sanity



As my lungs

begin to shrivel

and my soul

fades to black



I'm sickly satisfied.
1.0k · Oct 2012
Violent Bloodshed
Kittridge James Oct 2012
As the blood drips off of her knuckles,

All she can do is smile.

Her heartbeat is going at the speed of light,

Her victim doesn't appear to be conscious.



As she tries to regain her aloof composure,

All her hands do is shake.

Her face is locked in a satisfied smirk,

Her violent fix has been met.



As her victim bleeds from the face,

All she can do is worry about her knuckles being stained.

Her knuckles are split open severely,

Her smirk hasn't left.



As she washes her ****** hands,

All everyone did was stare.

Her mind is racing with emotion,

Her mood is full of pride.



She didn't want to have to hurt her,

But it was simply meant to happen.

Now, her blood was spilled,



Now all she can do is beam.
980 · Nov 2012
Bass Drum (Haiku)
Kittridge James Nov 2012
Bass drum meets heartbeat

I embrace the energy

Everything is right
927 · Nov 2012
Weakness (Haiku)
Kittridge James Nov 2012
I will not tell you

How I truly feel inside

It shows my weakness
919 · Oct 2012
Spontaneous Combustion
Kittridge James Oct 2012
See how she smiles?
See how she laughs?
It seems I have misjudged,
It seems that I have lost.

His hand touches hers lightly,
she grasps his hand tightly.
It feels like I'm being torn apart
by watching this lovely scene.

They look so in love,
so enthralled with one another.
It seems like the fire I put out,
has been rekindled from spontaneous combustion.

At this point, I just need to let it go,
at this point, I need to let them be.
The fire between her and I
will never fully burn out.
916 · Oct 2012
Simplicity
Kittridge James Oct 2012
Captivated simply by

a light

a sound

a movement

a breath


Motivated firmly by

a belief

a goal

a friend

a dream


All the progress
Torn down by


One


Little


Comment


Followed by a razorblade
903 · Oct 2012
The Tragedy
Kittridge James Oct 2012
An unfortuate soul

blue lips and

glassy green eyes

Ashen skin and

a still heartbeat

A tightly bound noose

of dad's neckties

A pretty little body

limp and lifeless

The one she loved

cries at her feet

This is where

the tragedy sets in
871 · Oct 2012
Always After Me
Kittridge James Oct 2012
The moon casts an ominous shadow overhead,
as if the sun's lightbulb had gone dead.
The hairs on my neck stand on end,
something dreadful is around the bend.
I don't know what i'll find there,
there isn't any thime to prepare.

All that lie here lie dead,
some stabbed, some shot in the head.
The engraved marble shines with threatening air,
something tells me i'm in for a scare.
A flash of steel announces the precense of his quarry,
this is where I begin to worry.

He starts to circle me menacingly,
that solomn steel blade is all I see.
The corners of his mouth turn up to see
the prominate fear inside me.
He crouches and bows his head,
it's all to clear he wants me dead.

The bite of his blade is all too real,
the wound he just made will not heal.
My heartbeat significantly slows down,
as I bleed I fall to the cold hard ground.
As my vison goes I begin to see,
this thespian was always after me.
852 · Oct 2012
Ghastly and Haunting
Kittridge James Oct 2012
A haunting melody
of razorblade to skin
The ghastly sight
of a newly opened wound
A sweet rush of diziness
A symphony of screams

A flood of horrifying visions
A heavy bout of shivers
A heartbeat set ablaze
The lacerations are deepening
The blood is running cooler
The edges are growing darker

A haunting melody
of a shovel in the dirt
The ghastly sight
of an open trench-grave
A sweet rush of a funeral dirge
A symphony of tears

and they're all falling for me
845 · Nov 2013
Lightening
Kittridge James Nov 2013
There’s a whirlwind caught in my hair
There’s a hurricane ringing in my ears
My eyes are starting to flood
Your words are painted on
every wall on my mind.

I never wanted to mimic
Nor try to steal your thunder,
I just absorb your lightening outbursts
as if they were soft raindrops
And kiss your looming electricity

But there’s one thing I’ve learned
About all the thunder and lightening,
It doesn’t mean that you’re explosive,
It just means that you give me drive,
To keep you going
836 · Oct 2012
Autumn Leaves
Kittridge James Oct 2012
Rust and gold fall soundlessly to the sodden ground,
the smell of autumn all around.
Soft crunches beneath my feet,
the euphoric tone of my heartbeat.
Wind sweetly carresses my cheek,
leaving me unable to speak.

All the colors so vibrant and gay,
my only wish is for them to stay.
Autumn is my time of year,
nothing to lose, not much to fear.
I climbed the old solomn oak tree
and beyond the horizon I did see.

So cool and carefree, but it isn't only me.
You've proven how happy I can possibly be.
Just stay right here by my side,
lay with me and enjoy the ride.
818 · Nov 2012
Skeletons (Haiku)
Kittridge James Nov 2012
They are coming out

The skeletons that I hide

I won't let them die
805 · Dec 2012
Reality
Kittridge James Dec 2012
Sometimes it's

Hard to tell

Where your

arms end and

where reality begins
805 · Apr 2013
Silver-Tongued Ghost
Kittridge James Apr 2013
He lustily wraps his
Unforgiving tendrils
'Round my willing mind
Here he comes again,
His tongue silver, cunning

He is my vice
He seduces my urges,
And encourages me,
To indulge in his
Hazy poison

Why are you being like this?
I can't explain to her
How he steadies
My freight train heart
And my fragile mind

His bite is all too
Familiar and comforting
Reminding me of
Bittersweet times,
Dwelling on the bitter

But something in me still
Just doesn't want to let him go
My little silver tongued- menace
I just can't stop
Letting his ghost

Gradually and damagingly,
Into my weakened lungs.
789 · Oct 2012
Death Certificate
Kittridge James Oct 2012
I wished on every fallen eye lash,
I wished on every star,
But it seems like every time I try,
I gain just one more scar.

I can't take your pity.
You don't have to forgive me for my sins.
The only thing I ask of you,
Is can you please just be my friend?

You are no better than me or them;
We are all the same.
But only when your knife is in my back,
is the time you're content.

You shout harsh words,but we're the same.
You hurt,just like me,
and when you're hurt,you bleed.
I bled for you.

You were caught up in your own little games,
and you wouldn't even listen when I said,
"My soul died that night."

You wonder what Happened.
Why can't I speak?
Because all your words were hurtful,
When I'm hurt,I bleed.

But you don't understand,
the scars are making me weak.
I can't take your pity.
You don't have to forgive me for my sins.

The only thing I ask of you,
Is can you please,just be my friend.
I'm lying in the darkness.
You're hiding from yourself.
If you were my friend,
You never would have left me on the shelf.

The tears I shed are for the ones you've failed
to shed on your own.
They're not only mine, they're theirs as well.

Your family.
Your friends.
And you.

I tried to help you break down the wall,
But every chance you watched me fall.
I wished on every fallen eye lash,
I wished on every star,
But it seems like every time I try
I gain just one more scar.

I'll be waiting in the darkest corner
when you finally realize who you are.
While you are out there living your life,
Just remember;my soul died that night.

Give it some time yours is on its way.
As you're slowly trying to salvage the remains,
I'll be waiting, while I'm filling out your

Death certificate.
784 · Oct 2012
Worry
Kittridge James Oct 2012
I can see it

Hiding behind your eyes

I can hear it

Buzzing in my ears

I can feel it

Warming my soul

But please forgive me


For I am only worried
778 · Nov 2012
Heartstrings (Haiku)
Kittridge James Nov 2012
Any thought of your

Smug smirk or sweet smile

Tears at my heartstrings
777 · Oct 2012
Look and See
Kittridge James Oct 2012
Barely more then ordinary,

but nothing like the rest.

Why when I explain myself

does it feel like I confess;

something you should know

but you refuse too see.

I can be extraordinary

just by being me.




Pace yourself, hold your ground,

so you won't disappear.

They try to change you every day

with lies, your dreams, and fear.

You're already formed inside,

why won't they look and see?

You're already beautiful,

a diamond breaking free.




So let this pain help you endure

the troubles that you face.

Heartache will be come your strength

until you find your place.

Nothing is Impossible,

if you can still believe.

That one day their "impossible",

you somehow will achieve.




Your life is just another page,

waiting for you to write.

Without it you can not have joy,

so don't give up and fight.

If you should become confused,

unsure of the right way.

If it brings unease to your heart

then you should turn away.




Don't use others as a means

to get what you desire.

Guilt will burn away your soul,

and leave a scar like fire.

Never throw away your pride.

for the easy choice.

The silent ones are watching you,

listening for your voice.
726 · May 2013
Euphoria
Kittridge James May 2013
I'm starting a journey.

My feet are already bloodied,
and my muscles are strained to
near complete disrepair;

But this is my self-discovery.

You have to let me
find and become myself.
708 · Oct 2012
My Addiction
Kittridge James Oct 2012
It's one of those nights when I can't sleep,

you're appearing everywhere when I begin to count sheep



I think of your smile and my heart speeds,

I'm feeling erratic and neurotic as I clutch onto my sheets



Together we've committed the perfect crime,

I stole your heart and you stole mine,

you're my drug and I'm heavily addicted,

every syringe, every thin powdery white line;

all of it just puts me into a deeper addiction



You're the original sin,

Here I am shooting up again

I don't know if loving you this much is healthy,

But baby, I really don't give a ****



If your world comes crashing down,

I'll be here with tape to put it all back together

Everything will be fine now, just smile and hold my hand



You and I together can change the world.
690 · Oct 2012
My Destinie
Kittridge James Oct 2012
The voice that sends shivers down my spine; the one that is my world.
Her touch makes all of my nerves raw and live-wire.
She makes me fall harder with every breath she takes.
Every second that passes makes me anxious.

My heartbeat speeds up, my movements jittery and caffinated.
Every word I speak seems to come out jumbled.
I watch her closely, taking in every inch of her skin.
She's the most beautiful being i've ever seen.

When we're together, I feel invincible.
Her warm, hazel eyes warm the deepest places in my soul.
Her lips are my perfect incumbent.
She's the only one for me.
My one,
   My only,
      My Destinie.
688 · Oct 2012
The Beach
Kittridge James Oct 2012
The stage was set, warm sandy beach under a blanket of overcast.
A smile takes over the frown that once existed.
I throw my arms to the sky, screaming to the world that you're mine.

You twist me around and tilt my chin up.
Our lips, the perfect incumbent.
Passion explodes around us as a ray of light illuminates
the space around us; the clouds have parted.

My heartbeat picks up and I hold tight to you.
The clouds close again as you watch me intently.
My muscles lock as if I was meant to hold you.

The stage was set, warm sandy beach under a blanket of overcast. The frown that once exsisted disappears
with the setting sun
685 · Oct 2012
Beyond the Pain
Kittridge James Oct 2012
When the razor doesn't hurt anymore,

When you can't do anything to even the score.

Your heart is jet black when they don't come back;

You're always wondering what you lack.



The blood trickles down your arms as the tears do down your face;

You're the one, you're the disgrace. The wasted unit of space.

You're the black sheep and your wool is tainted,

This image of macabre has been repeatedly painted.



The pain in your heart has left you battered and slain;

But in edgewise, the last thing you want to do is complain.

So you **** it up and you smile; that ought to hold them off a while.

You want to scream with every excruciating mile.



Finally you let the scream escape your heart;

That's when the bloodshed does start.

Your screams only grow in volume from here; the stabs you feel are just like spears.

You just can't take it anymore, it's not like anyone can hear.



You take this knife, six and a half inches long; you hold it to your throat in despair.

There is no feeling in the world you would dare to compare.

Drag it hard, make it count; a loved one you will always be without.

That's the one you've been crying about.



The scarlet sprays; a gorgeous colour.

Your body hidden alone in this cellar.

Your heart, stagnant and deathly black.

No one knows, but you aren't coming back.
669 · Nov 2012
Fighter (Haiku)
Kittridge James Nov 2012
Please enlighten me

How on earth you can simply

Keep fighting on cue
666 · Oct 2012
Behind the Mask
Kittridge James Oct 2012
Trying to take back what's already been done,
trying to change the past; something that can never be.
Trying to find my better half

Always there for others
No one there for me
Seeing the girl who needed to feel complete,
Breaking out of me now, just begging to be wanted.

Becoming the main source of the pain,
missing the chance to stop living a lie.
Alone in an empty room,
burning all the pictures in their frames

Seeing that girl in the mirror,
hiding the sorrow she knows so well.
Living in the shadow of my mistakes,
running from myself again.

I don't have a reason to stand still,
I'm becoming so unstable.
The girl behind the mask,
starts to show what she carries in her heart

Showing all that she has to offer,
and how fragile she truly is.
Showing how brave she can be,
going out and revealing her skeletons.

Reaching out, but she got away.
Reaching out, but she's starting to fade.
Knowing that I let her die,
knowing I created her lie.

I'm screaming and crying for help.
Lying on the ground, no one comes to my aid.
I'm bleeding from wounds left open.
I'm bruised and black and alone.

Her face is without emotion.
My heart is still beating, but I'm losing feeling
I have no one left within.
I'm growing darker, growing colder.

Not able to get up,
Not able to care anymore.
The girl behind the mask,
now shows her true face.
645 · Sep 2013
Journey
Kittridge James Sep 2013
I am free
My shackles have
fallen to the floor
My wounds are healed
My scars are a story
now in the past

I am free
My heart is mended
My once bleak outlook,
now shines with positivity
A bright future
now lies ahead

I am free
Liberated of self harm
Cured of self pity
Safe from myself
I have found stability
and I'm starting fresh

I am free
My weight has been lifted
My stars appear brighter
My happiness has returned
I have recovered

And now, I am free
639 · Nov 2012
Flames
Kittridge James Nov 2012
Forsaken flames,

lick your way across my hips,

a pleasure that

I have dearly missed


Beautiful flames;

my lovely poison.

Their forgiving intensity,

bites just as I remember


Scarlet flames,

wrap your tendrils round me.

You're dripping with satisfaction

when I know not of other pleasures


Flames,

love me tender,

bring me pain;

come and coddle me


Every new, unwelcomed day
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