My fists repeatedly striking her face,
oh, how right it feels.
The way her nose crunches when it breaks,
oh, how right it feels.
The chunks of her skin under my nails,
oh how right it feels.
These handfulls of hair that I clutch,
oh, how right it feels.
Her screams of pain and suffering,
oh, how right it feels.
How her face turns purple as my grip tightens,
oh, how right it feels.
How her heartbeat starts to slow down,
oh, how right it feels.
When her eyes roll back,
oh how right it feels.
When her chest falls for the last time,

HOW ******* RIGHT THIS FEELS!!

Forsaken flames,

lick your way across my hips,

a pleasure that

I have dearly missed


Beautiful flames;

my lovely poison.

Their forgiving intensity,

bites just as I remember


Scarlet flames,

wrap your tendrils round me.

You're dripping with satisfaction

when I know not of other pleasures


Flames,

love me tender,

bring me pain;

come and coddle me


Every new, unwelcomed day

Dim lights, comfy seats

Buttered popcorn and sweet treats

Quiet, It's starting

We don't know what time we'll be there
But we won't show up till later
It will all look so much nicer
After all of us arrive

Promise me to pass the time
Dance with me on plastic tears
Kiss me We won't feel alone
Till morning when we disappear

Though we all want to be noticed
There's no need for competition
Cause there's just no way of knowing
Where the camera points tonight

Promise me to pass the time
Dance with me on plastic tears
Kiss me We won't feel alone
Till morning when we disappear

We don't listen to each other
Cause we're all too busy talking
We'll tell lies about each other
Cause the truth is such a bore
With the threat of dawn approaching
And our interest quickly fading
We will stumble home together
As we did the night before

Promise me to pass the time
Dance with me on plastic tears
Kiss me. We won't feel alone
Till morning when we disappear

I know that

I'm awkward

and my every word

comes out a mess


I know that

I laugh too loud

and all I do

is hide behind my hair


All I want is

for you to see

something so clear

yet somehow so opaque

The rays of sunlight are shunned by the drapes pulled tight.
Music is at war with the silence the space once held.
Tears roll down her cheeks and land on her crossed legs.
All she wanted was to be loved in return for hers.

She clutches onto the sharp silver object, ignoring the fact
that the corner is boring into her pale white flesh.
Blood runs down her arms and her abdomen as she wonders
why she tries. Why was she even born?

Her heartbeat speeds up as she lifts the sharp, stainless
object and sees her own frightened reflection.
Her eyes are red and swollen from her tears.

The object is guided to her neck.
Her hands shaking a bit a she begins to drag.
The blood sprays from her pallid canvas as she pushes harder.
Then she sees nothing but darkness.

Your eyes smile
My heart sings

Your arms like tree limbs
My roots grow weaker

Your skin like velvet
My face red as dawn

Your smile is warming
My soul responding

Your heart
My heart
melding together

Quiet girl

You are stronger

Than your biting

Urge for pain


Reclusive girl,

Just because

you know where it is

Doesn't mean necessary indulgence


Mindless girl,

With your broken

Heart and smile

You can pull through


Self- destructive girl,

You can handle

This strong urge

For a razorblade kiss

I can almost feel his scruffy chin brushing against my neck

I can hear his smokey voice grazing my outer ear

I feel his stalwart arms around my ribs

Five years from now, he'll transition into who

He has always been on the inside

He always meets the mirrors in his dreams when he's awake

Every wall is
simply seething with
uncomfortable tension
and bubbling anger

I've become almost
painfully aware that
something around me
just isn't right

Even the metronome-
constant ticking of
the antique clock
cannot settle me

Only in my state

Of punch-drunk

In love and

My buzzy body high

Can make me feel as if

I radiate poetry

Never in my life
Have a set of hazel
brown irises brought
me to my knees
faster than hers can

Your staind glass eyes
Your tears so colourful
My broken swords
My deteriorating armour

You feel like you're all alone
I feel that I can help you
Your being is torn in two
I have a needle and thread

You and I could be something
You and I could love again
I could be yours
You could be mine

We can be us once again

My perception is going now,

It seems as if I can't hear a sound.



Cars fly past me, I'm still here,

from the moment that you left me, dear.



I'm screaming and no one can hear me,

everything I thought was wrong; completely.



All your lies all falling around your feet,

Even your façade every time we would meet.



Why would you lie so explicitly?

Was I so blinded by emotion that I couldn't see?



I guess you lied when you said "I love you too."

Now here I lay, bruised and scarred;



No one can stitch these fatal wounds.

Music floats lazily through the muggy July air
Our legs are intertwined, but like never before
Your face is alongside mine,
there's a fire gleaming our cheeks

I can't help but feel a little electricity
as you stroke my hair,
and peek at me through timid eyes
Exasperated, I murmur,

"Fire. I can't take it anymore."
Set to collision, I twist my body nearer
Your hands graze my waist as
our lips meet fervidly, rhythmically

Impulse and emotion lull
you cuddle nearer and caress my face
I encircle my arms around your shoulders
"This trip did something," I whisper,
"I see you differently."

Tears are streaming down my face.

My breath isn't coming easy.

Am I dying? Is anyone hearing my sobs?

I'm sitting here, not seeing anything in front of me.

Where have they gone? Why am I alone?



Rain is hitting the room of this small house.

The wind is howling through the windows.

I'm feeling unsettled and sick.

Blood is running down my wrists.

My razor is sharpening with every fatal swoop.



My eyes are getting swollen from crying so much.

I'm finding myself wanting to end it all.

It's raining harder now, no one would be finding any of my blood.

My silencing should come as no surprise.

Where is my angel when I need her? What is flying above me?



This bright blue light is shimmering above me.

It's beginning to make curious.

Hands begin drying my tears.

Soft kisses are landing on my cheeks.

Here is my angel, she is materializing.



It is appearing to me now, I was dying.

This is the point where I'm fading away.

Look past her
tired eyes and
her plastic smile

Look past her
messy hair and
chipped nail polish

Look past her
teeming strength and
her scarred up arms

And you'll see
someone unwell and
broken inside

And you'll see
everything wrong and
nothing right

And you'll see
a courageous bravado and
a breaking facade

Look past her
everything and
you'll see

Only me.

A silver film

Covers the iris


A brilliant abrasion

Shrouds the throat


A plight of lacerations

Cover the corpse


There was always

A cry for help


She was always

Drowning in sadness


But you never

Know what you have


Until It's dead and gone

Friendship never dies

I can always promise that

I ******* love you

Come decorate the tree with me dear,

Pretend like we're the only ones here.

A tight embrace, this is my place.

Here in your arms is my favorite space.



The snow is falling on the icy ground,

The sound of carolers is all around.

Everyone leaves just you and me here.

Now it's our turn to spread the cheer.



This is your favorite time of year,

It isn't mine but you're here.

This smile on my face will last forever,

Just as long as we're together.



You make my heart sing a euphoric tune,

You take me out to dance under the snowy moon.

We laugh to the merry spirit of the season.

We're in love, that's the only reason.

Here I am
on my little island

Over there
is my faithful row boat

All of my trees
are starting to die

There's not a flower
to be picked or enjoyed

Not another being
is to be discovered

It seems like my
little island is shrinking

My boat oars  are
broken to splinters

Violent waves are
devouring the shore

Thunder cracks and
clouds swirl perilously

Lightening strikes,
fire breaks out

My trusted shelter
is completely obliterated

On ly little island
in my sea of solitude

Fires rages and
lightening plagues

I find myself
fading away

I just don't see
I can never please you
I always mess something up

I just don't see
Why I always say
something wrong or
insensitive in your eyes

I just don't see
Why I even try with you
anymore

Empty promises

No friends and broken bottles

Is it Friday yet?

It won't stop
this lovely colour
gushing out from
a hole in my being

It's staining this
ivory coloured rag
I'm also weeping
It still won't cease

It wont' stop
this lovely colour
gushing out from
my shrouded sorrow

Pent up
Stressed out

Anger seething
Blood boiling

Sadness resonating
Depression looming

All of it replaced
with a green haze

The lesson here
is simple you see

It's easy  to be
happy and positive

When all your thoughts
simply drift away

With the smoke you exhale

I know you can't see

All of the broken porcelain

Shards of who I was

And who I wished to be


Your little girl

Is now falling to pieces

With every passing moment,

She searches for her release


Another day comes with

Another debilitating relapse

Another kiss of bloodied pain

From her only lasting friend


All she wants is just a little


Peace

I'm screaming inside

My own head is a prison

Nothing turns out right

Your eyes are filled with

Broken promises, empty

Lies about your life

Spring breeze

bombarded with

countless melodies

and sweet memories


Summer haze

dissipated with your

loving gaze

and everlasing days


Autumn air

the wind blows your

chesnut hair

and your last care


Winter cold

your smile,

brighter than gold

and it never gets old

Pretty little thing

Let me pull you into a

warm and tight embrace

The silence in the air
It's eerie and almost
smothering

There's many others
surrounding but
the silence remains
as profound as before

Even the sound of my
own breathing, my
source of life,

Gone.

I close my eyes
and everything
that used to be

Was really never there

There's something about

The depth in your eyes and it

Makes  me feel scared

When you look at me,
Your brown eyes
somber and empty,
It makes me wonder
if it's my doing

When you shake in the
midnights and new dawns,
I can only hope
that I'm not the one
undoing what you're holding dear

I want to help you, beautiful,
with every piece of me.
Until then I'll shush you in slumber
and love you unconditionally
in your waking moments and long days

Silence is comfort

I'm living in dream sequence

I have lost myself

The shadows dancing

They always follow in stride

They consume it all

You were never mine

Your eyes only hid secrets

It's better this way

I inhale the smoke

And exhale the loneliness

Everything goes cold

When Death comes knocking

I'll let him in with pleasure

I am unafraid

Look into my eyes

Push your passion into me

This is total bliss

The cold overtakes

What was once beating in my

Burning heart of hearts

Tremours plague me

Always a shiver

A constant shake


My eyes never

Give away any

Truth of my being


I honestly

Barely know myself

Most of the time

When you feel alone
Smile
Just for me

When your hurt
just brush it off
and try to laugh

When you miss me
know that
I'm always with you

When you're angry
just close your eyes
and think of us

When you cry
try and smile
Just for me

And even though
my breathing has stopped
and I am merely ashes

And even though
I'm scattered,
one with the earth

Smile.
   Just for me

Here lies the last piece

Of everything I ever

Hoped and thought I'd be

Here in the valley,

Dreams are broken to pieces

In this sleepy town

The number thirteen


Permanently burned into


Every memory

The number thirteen

Permanently burned into

Every memory

You were never mine


Your eyes only hid secrets


It's better this way