get out of the way
i've got no idea where these
white heels are taking me
and i don't care
i'm ready to stain them,
break them, ruin them
i'm going to take some
questionable paths but
it doesn't matter to me
as long as i'm not walking
the same circle every day

white dress and linen hair
decorated with ***** willow buds
pale skin and strawberry lips
hazel eyes hiding behind sleeping eyelids

i long to kiss you one last time
but i know i'll only feel it in my chest
and you won't at all

they close the casket
but this outdoor funeral
will never end

you win

i thought we were together
and we are
just not in the way my
first-dose affection portrayed

you won't take what's mine
but i'll give you plenty

i don't think we'll
get married some day
but i don't need that
to feel how i do

it's hard to love
with constrictions
i can commit
but not without confliction

too many labels and my love falls apart

for now i'm in love with
you being you
and me being me

should you find someone
you want to share yourself
and i pray to god
your children with

i'll be very happy for you
but for now

i love you
oh so closely

-

you know i've no particular identity
but i wouldn't mind being
a feminine figure in your life
that didn't ******* over

butterflies in my head
**** them and pin them
add them to your collection

hold my hand and i'll ask you
why they flutter around
when you do that

when you look at me
i can feel them behind my eyes
i think they want a taste
of your raspberry lips

they do all they can
to try and escape
just to perch upon your skin

they can't escape
they never will
instead they fill my head
with the inexplicable

i wanted you to take me with you
i wanted you to take me everywhere
i'm as good as dead
but remember that much

Engrave that gun in fleur de lis and take your own life.
Claim a last attempt at denial but it's not true.
End-all validation.