should I have told her?
I sit alone on weekdays
to find a space that touches the sun
I remember how the debt collectors
want a handwritten letter
I pen-pal a girl from Oregon
these days my socks are always *****
and I don't remember his middle name
I like it this way
Saturn is mean to me
she wants me to be strong
you have to understand this
I go far to find home
and always take her with me.

need I say more

I write songs
I don't sing them
your name is beautiful
I don't say it
your words invent new images in my mind
what you touch you destroy
my body sleeps on your boredom
I shouldn't say it
it reaks of love
but if there is no point
why run?
you talk of things undiscovered to me
your eyes are steady in my mind
to love you is unreachable
like climbing a mountain blind
I write songs
I don't sing them
your name is lovely
I don't say it

I ask you about chess
you say yes but you haven't played in years
when I tell you I have a chess set you get excited
this gets me excited
to be excited to play chess is a lovely thing
when I tell you that I wish I would have paid 4 euros more for the glass set you tell me it doesn't matter
chess is chess
in my head, I disagree
I think to myself that if I am going to play chess with someone so lovely I want to do it right
this requires the glass chess set

We are on the roof listening to Frank Sinatra
Where did you come from?
I never wear lime green crochet and necklaces from Turkey
The Magician attracted what I was least expecting
love like la luz
poetry like a new diamond
who let you sit with my crystal in your hand?
me I guess
finishing the story from a past life
ill see him soon where words seem unreachable
the grass is more than dead
and this isn't a teenage blue
but until then we play with sleepy dogs
the glory of nighttime
and a full moon in Taurus
goodnight from a different time zone

two cards telling me
the flowers dried out
but they are still there
dusty and forgotten
where did you think 8 moons could take you
in another lifetime maybe
when the seeds are planted at the right time
and the skies are blue
and you will look at what challenged you so much

with something new
not to be seen

it sits deep and you know its real
when the wind flows between your fingers
the water isolates thoughts
and nothing hurts anymore
i feel free