It happens when you are at your best
It happens when life gives you grief and you pass the test
It happens when it seemed you would fail
It happens when success tips the scale
It happens when you stumble and don't fall
It happens when your strength and courage wins it all
It happens when you continue to believe
It happens when you have a few clever tricks up your sleeve
It happens when you follow your dreams and spread your faith wide
Your friends start to hate you and become green eyed

One cup of time
A half cup of compromise
Three cups of patience
A dash of understanding
Two teaspoons of forgiveness
A pinch of tenderness
Add no regrets
Bake until its love
Serve hot

Morning dew on the grass that you feel in between your toes
The taste of honey
Ice tea on a hot summer's day
A double rainbow in the sky

$20 you find in the back pocket of your magic pants
A flower growing through the concrete
A smile from a stranger
The hug you give to a friend

Air
Scented candles
Peppermint
Your love

I don't see myself on tv
I don't see myself in magazines
I don't see myself in books
I don't see myself in my community



They say I can't love her
They say I can't love him
They say I don't love them
They make jokes
They shun

Confused
Experimenting
Curious
Going through a phase

Trying it out
Not sure of what you want
You'll change your mind
You aren't inclusive
That's what they say to me

It's not true
None of it
Any of it
All of it

My truth
The truth
The only truth
The absolute truth


I can love her
I can love him
I can love them
It doesn't mean I like everyone I see
It means I'm just being me

Bisexual in the past
Bisexual today
Bisexual tomorrow
Bisexual forever

Stop erasing me

Spalshes of blue
Bursts of pink
Dapplings of red
The smell of the ocean
The taste of ice cream
A song that makes me smile
I'm singing
I'm dancing
I'm falling

I'm running
I'm swimming
Its the Renaissance
Tumbleweeds blow by
It's Christmas
It's July
I'm happy
I'm content
I'm scared
I'm laughing

Then he's there
Holding me
Devouring me
Setting me on fire with his passionate kiss
Sometimes he's an actor
Sometimes he's a fireman or a soldier
Other times he's a knight, a lawyer, an architect or race car driver
And, he's always mine

He's tall
He's short
He's fit
He's stout
Tonight he has no face
But I remember his smile
I know his voice

We go surfing
It's bright out
The sun is warm
I'm on horseback
I'm driving a fast car
My friends are laughing
They are dancing
They are acrobats
We are at a party
We ice skate
We fight
There's an explosion
It's bright.......bright.......bright

My eyes have opened
I am awake.....or am I?

Everything here is smeared in hues of gray and blotches of black
I laugh and it doesn't sound real
I don't dance
I don't sing
I don't swim
And he's not here
I can barely capture his voice
I vaguely remember his smile
There is no great adventure
There is no great love

Is this real?
Or is this plain version of life the dream?
I am nothing here
I am no one here

I look at the clock longing to go home
Longing for my life
Longing to wake up from this terrible dream filled with gray
I want to return to my splashes of blue
His smile
And the warmth of a new adventure
I long for life