Let you down yet again.
whats the difference this time?
It will only happen again,
'so disappointed', that's your line.

Since I am such a failure,
then please leave me be.
If you just left me alone,
there would be nothing bad to see.

I give up, I will not try,
to hide from that awful glare.
That angry stance, that mean look,
that not good enough stare.

So this is the end of my caring,
and after all we have been through.
I was never what you wanted,
never good enough for you...

Let my fears guide my sight.
Lost my will and lost the fight.
Look at me, so far off track.
One step forward and three steps back.

Want to stop, to give in.
But I wont, I'll aim to win.
What does it matter anyway?
I’ll take the steps and choose my way.

I’ll pretend it’s all OK,
That I will make it come what may.
Deep inside I’ll hide the fright.
Succumb to darkness, loose my light.

Because simply I cannot take,
One more horror, one more shake.
I will strap back on my mask,
I will take up my look of glass.

I will do what I am told,
Forget the past and become cold.
It won’t affect me anymore,
Built the wall and shut the door.

Kneeling there with my tears,
I lock up my past and my fears.
The soul I was, no more free.
Locked it up, I locked up me.

Can a whisk be fun?

'Can a whisk be fun?' she said to me,
it made me stop so suddenly,
the whisk went still and I looked at her,
'I'll explain' I say; 'and you will concur.'

'If I was to ask if cakes are fun,
you'd say not unless they were in your tum.'
'What stirs the cake mix?' I'd then say,
my point made I'd go on my way.

Next we'd stand over a siblings sleeping head,
and twist the whisk in their hair on the bed.
No guilt we would feel when they woke up and saw,
a hair cut would be in order, no hair no more.

Finally the noise they make,
it's not that pleasant in anyone's wake.
The rattling whir annoys the mind,
and drives neighbors crazy I think you'll find.

Cakes, torment and frustrated glares,
are enough to make me laugh my fair share.
Can a whisk be fun?; I know it to be true,
with an imagination like mine there's few things you can't do.

I will take your reservations,
throw them, burn them, I don't care.
I'll show you how to jump so far,
you'll fly with me through the air.

Stand at heights you can't imagine,
look down on the sites below.
I will let you clasp my hand,
as your final worries go.

What is it really like I'll wonder,
for you to be so carefree.
Nothing that can stop us now,
aren't you glad you jumped with me?

Here it comes, this queasy fear,
God just get me out of here.
I've gotta run, need to hide,
'You'll be fine', ******* they lied.

Standing, I begin to shake.
Can't you see, the fool I make?
I can't swallow, I can't speak.
Small and quiet, this fool is weak.

Too quick the lights shine in my face,
I've lost my purpose, lost my place.
Laughter echoes, in my head?
Subtly I, wish me dead.

On my back, on the floor,
that's it, can't take it anymore.
Fade away, into nowhere.
My recurring, worst nightmare.

Unrelenting discourteous guide.
Wheres my choice, is this my life?
Who controls and who obeys?
Who wears the strings, writes the play?
Selfish unholy shadow of mine,
one step behind, silent stare.
Creating havoc in your wake,
of me, of me, the fool you make.
Painful treacherous path that leads,
astray to trails I can't survive.
Does it make you happy, gleeful sin.
Does it let you feel, do you win?
Perfect desperate traitor you see,
the way you make me stumble and stray.
A little more, just for a while,
I'll let you revel in your guile.
[Just keeping going...]
on and on,
on and on,
on and on and on and on...
[but then it ends.]
Lonely miserable stranger of mine,
lost in your own struggle to be.
You've written me out, forever gone.
Not you, alone, on and on.

[Falling from this cliff laughing,
I fall towards my only you.]

Its your reflection in the water,
your face that I need to touch.
It's your fault, selfish guiser,
that I love your face this much.

Fake it is, I implore you,
remove for once this mask you wear.
Break me, hurt me, if you need to,
Its ok, your pain lets share.

Hiding as you have completely,
just a reflection that I glance.
I wonder if its you I see,
and jump with my selfish trance.

[Falling from this cliff laughing,
I fall towards my only you.]