It seems I write best when I am asleep
How unfortunate though for none of these words I can keep
Not like a memory it doesn’t fade
But like a memory it remains vague
Lost deep within the vast bank
Where you don’t withdraw but lose instead

I talk a lot but I cannot speak
Endless words that will not reach
That echo and pierce the walls within
But only walls for I am as good as mute
Denied an end with no beginning to return

I lent my ear, but paid no mind
For all and everything meant no mind
I had no words so I discarded my voice
So another it went and found
I lost my ear when I paid no mind
Now I am plagued with the sound of noise

Average girls are my type
But beautiful girls with ******* get all the hype
Cute girls are chatty and those will definitely skype
Damsels oh damsels will inevitably start a fight
Elegant girls are rare and as such hold them tight
Fine girls are women that come only with sacrifice
Good girls go bad once we look behind the lace
Humble girls are lovely but lack so much spice
Ignorant girls are like boys non of their friends are sensitive
Jealous girls are adorable but that is all they can be
Kind girls are wonderful it’s unfortunate most come at a fee
Loyal girls are like shooting stars now you see them now you don’t
Most girls just want to be loved but give up way too easily
Naughty girls don’t care they just want to have fun simple
Obedient girls have dark fetishes and boy are they fickle
Pretty girls have a half life and yes that’s science
Queer girls are hot you know, I mean it’s just a game of patience
Real girls are in computers and are just ones and zeros
**** girls on my bedroom wall posters
******* girls are dudes just look at their faces
Ugly girls don’t exist; beauty is in the eye of the beholder in most cases
Vixens will bite you I’d stay far if I were you
Women are not girls! What is that true?
Xochitl is a girl’s name it means princess
Young girls are rare nowadays girls act twice their age
Zippy girls are wild just try to keep your zippers closed.

Her seduction was a craft
Her body a remarkable piece of art
And before I could play my part
She had me crying, “Stop thief! You stole my heart"

I have never felt the touch of a woman
But I have loved tens of thousands
I go by one too many names
That’s where I get my confidence.

Bruce this Bruce that now everyone’s a Jenner
Well next time you yap I’m going to bruise you with my Benson burner
My darling lass always liked it rough
Until one day she came back home sounding tenor
I trembled and shook in disbelief then realized,
Oh this happened sooner
How she liked to use the rear entry and always walked in my drawers
And **** I know I’m straight but she still is a looker
If she wasn’t my **** wife I would make her my winger
Or maybe introduce her as my foreign half brother
But she not only rid herself of ******* but of me her lover
Threw me out of my hard earned manor and
Even took my side girl and sneered, that’s my pleasure.

The say inherit after seeing the success of other inheritances
But in other circumstances it’s more of coincidence
And sheer luck that one can be of such providence
Revered across the land in his time
By multitudes as much as the grains of sand you can find
Blinded by his love and trust of man
His life he did forfeit in his prime
But his memory is well imbued with mine
The blood of a great ruler courses through these veins
Of Chiefs of Kings of Lordships that string a long line
Chief Chivi Shumba Murambwi

Dear Sunlight

You think I don’t, but I see you
Hellraiser you take me a fool
Nay I say I’ve got foil under this blazer
So your rays are useless and I can but
I won’t look up to your master like his my saviour
I feel his stare on my back all day blasted gazer
So just go on and tell me what you want from me
I’ve got Benjamin button and I’m not getting older.

Yours Schizophrenia

You said my ego would be my downfall
I scoffed,”Oh what a dull people.”
Now my ego is my biggest foe.

When you stand at the apex of all man
And realize your greatest fear
Was that you were a man
But now all these thoughts flood you brain
The man you are transcends the man you were
You need not fight nor further your rule
You need not dream or hope for
When the world all lies in the reach of your hand
You acknowledge your limited life span
And think only of how to immortalize your existence
Then you think ‘Why Religion’
When now I exist.

We are all ruined until we aren’t no more
For me, society killed me and moved on
I on the other hand have been stuck in limbo
The future is a distant memory
The past a door with no ****
And the present feels like hemorrhoids
An unnerving pain at the blissful of moments

You would think life be simpler
If only everything were black and white
But my grey scale’s been tipped
And my sight is way over five thousand
Yet still I don’t dream just a misfit
Like a misplaced piece of a puzzle
You can see the picture but just can’t fix it

Jingle bells jingle bells
Bring the sound of
Blood thirsty elves
Evil spells sinister santa
Plots to taunt
and scatter witches,
frail and pale
Around the world
To **** and chill
With their haunting melodies
La lalala la- la- la- la
La lalala la- la- la- la
A trail of blood
Red like crimson
Horrors worse
than those of prison

I hate myself I do, or at least
I've convinced myself I do
Will I repeat it, I don't know
But sure as hell know I can
What started as a couple drinks
Turned into a real big thing
Its just a fling I thought
Nothing more no big deal
I hate myself I do
What a big lie I'm such a fool
I'm nothing but your tool
But still I  let you use me
like I am your stool
Whenever you weary
quench your lust with me
This is not a poem
Merely just a confession
The guilt in me is piling
But how can I resist your touch
Your fragrance is compelling
No you put a spell on me
I don't mean to blame,
Why I have you both here
I just want to be heard
And if possible
continue as is was
I know it is a bit selfish
Disgusting as you might think
But the best is the best
How could it be
compared with the rest
I'm sorry
I slept with your mother

All alone with no care
A destiny you and I shall share
I shy away to hide my tear
You smile to shy away my fear
A burden we both have to bare
Without a place we call a home
All our friends and peers are gone
This lonely world is ours alone
The friend in you is all that's clear
You fill my heart with lots of cheer
The world might call but I shall not hear
You are all that's right and dear to me
The perfect friend I sometimes think
How in the world we ever linked
Your face is mine and mine is yours
How in the world could we both exist

I love to look good, auspicious they say
Maybe it’s to hide how ugly it is I am inside
Pretty devious indeed, so I always have one
Or more broads by my side, never suspicious
I am lustful, guess that is why I find
My prey to be delicious
Barely dressed yet heavily
Musked by all sorts of fragrance
Unaware of the malicious thoughts
That run rampant in my head
They say I have a twitch
So I had to get it fixed
But the charming ones love them a good story
And the bold ones hate Mr. Perfect
So "hear lies" my great defect
My little itsy bitty secret
I do not judge, yet still am a hypocrite
So criticize if you must
I shan’t protest, but I will guarantee
None will detest for I am your lover
And you hate how much you know me
So you ignore the parts you dislike
And cling to the façade I propose
You want me to use you and discard you
So a story you can share
I want to use you to discard me
Lose myself in the euphoria
Hoping the slimmest chance
That I find my first love and redemption
If not then the cycle repeats
And I take you over and over
With or without your permission

I wonder if the sky bleeds
That red when the sun gives a few peeks
Hanging over the horizon dip
I wonder if she cries
During storms and she pours
Heavy tears on the earths cheeks
And when she sneeze thunder roars
Or maybe it’s the gods applaud
When they feast or battle
That electrifies the sky
And send shivers down her spine
I wonder if the sky is afraid
When it’s dark and she’s all alone
And the stars don’t show their face
While the moons gaze
Is hidden behind the clouds
I wonder.

Have you ever seen a dead body?
Pictures from my aunts Christmas party
Everyone had a blast, pretending it was all for charity
Not me, troubles on my mind
I don’t usually go out chasing after crime
But tonight I just might
Sinister me sinister look
I had never felt so fine
So when I ran into her
And he smiled whilst tossing me aside
I just knew how thin that line was
And they say knowing is half the battle
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
I had practically won, but I still rattled them a bit
So your daddy fought in Nam and you in where?
Show some mettle, it’s also my first time
Please take care of me I wish, hahahaha
So your girlfriend is a bit noisy
Oops cat bit its tongue, oh daisy
Now she can’t talk not from the lack of trying no.
She just keeps gagging on her blood
And Private Ryan’s no fun
It was going to be either him or her
But now his regressed and stuck in baby mode
While she’s pretending to be a fish out of the water
Well you know what they say,
One man’s food is another man’s garbage
And I have never been known to blow my own trumpet
So, boy’s night out!
We started with the nails,
Oh what wonderful nails he didn’t have
He screamed all night in amazement
I had outdone myself, I was impressed
Then I got annoyed so I cut his tongue out
Replaced it with his dead girlfriends
Sewed back on like it was never removed
Then sewed his mouth shut
Now he could taste his girlfriend
Wherever he went,
Or maybe his girlfriend could taste him even in death
Genius I thought to myself as I prepared for an emergency op
Tbc.

I remember having a thought
but then i remember not
whether this be naught
or maybe a clot in my head
and some sought of amnesia
I do not know.
I remember happiness
which i cannot seem to grasp
I also remember a sadness
that draws out rivers of tears
that soon flood my memory
with their salty anger,
for whom it is directed
I lay oblivious.
I remember having a reason
for just about anything,
Option A or B i could make a decision
But not now, I do not remember.
I remember i could talk for hours,
Even without stopping i just kept going
But now all the tenants in my head
have left and its all quiet.
I wonder if they took my memories
My precious memories with them.
I remember love, and all the joy
It brought into our lives
and the feeling i had in my stomach
Whenever i saw you or heard your voice
or just the mentioning of your name
But not anymore i do not.
It makes me wonder,
Where Did The Butterflies Go?

I've heard a choo choo like sound before
But there aren't no ferries or trains for miles
The monster under my bed has said
Its not a choo, but a chew instead
To befriend such a thing I wonder
Only the devil can be the cause

I whisper a prayer and suddenly pause
I thought I heard a little noise
Something crept behind my toys
I peep through my squinted eyes
For a moment see a dark shadow pose
Behind the curtain with a red nose
Oh Crusty man I've done my chores
Please let me be and haunt other boys.
I say in plight to save my skin

The sound of death and sadness looms
engulfs my room and all within
I pass out as I cannot breath
To wake up early morning soaked in red
The dog had made a mess all night
Stealthily assaulted me alright
Paint all over my bed and tights.
Yes I've always known
clowns are not that bright

If I am your friend, your confidante
Then let me be a rose, your special flower
When you are happy admire my petals
But never forget I too have thorns
So when I *****, don’t see me as just a blister

Humans die, is that really fine
All we can do is be withered
As we grow old and lose our shine
I can feel the warmth of your body
And the vibrancy radiated,
But with each moment you’re always a breath short
Reminding me of an inevitable outcome

You can’t unpick a flower
But not picking it does not ensure it lives forever.
I thought I would, when I fell for you
Let you clip me by them stem
Lived and laughed while love played us fools
Still my heart flutters when I see you
Breaks into a million little pieces
When I think of you now and tomorrow

I wonder how the unpicked flower feels
To be admired by all and shunned by none
In the summer bliss of a trillion gazes
To belong to all and not just one
Yet one day before your time is come
To find yourself, conveniently replaced
With one who’s young like you once were.

I fear that unlike my peers,
Friends,family and those dear
I'll always remain dormant
Like a small pool stagnant
In my development
Those that came before me
Blossomed,and those that followed
Were and are majestic in their fullest
I have created my domain
But how real is it?
I have shunned myself
But has the world also?
I look and I judge
Does everyone else do so?
I believe or think I do
But is it worth it
I smile to suppress it
Suppress my true feelings
And while at it hide my true beauty
I bathe,work and am dependable
But why do I feel filthy
I feel your presence
But I'm all here alone
Is it my imagination
Or maybe karma and this is penance
In my cocoon I lay alone
Shut from the world
I shall atone
To my surprise
A sad sad song
Meant for one
Who isn't I
I crack open
And stretch myself
Blinded by the beauty surround
To my surprise
I'm not alone
A monarch I am
My wings I spread
I shed tears, tears of joy
If only I had known my love,
My beauty and my joy
Were all within.