If I was a mime
I could only show you

If I was a heart
You could only feel it

If you had a million dollars
You could never buy it

If I was to hide it
You could never find it

Some think they have it
But it could be a ploy

When one forgets about it
It then fades away

i don't like him holding my hand
he's in my soul and mind

his controlling features leave me dead inside
with no signs of hope, of love and pride

wanting from my own hurt, this pain in my life
i'll tell you everything, about my life

if you can show me how
to break me from sin

please tell me how, because i think i'm falling
give me one last chance, just one more look

help me find this in my hearts desire
break me from my pain of fire

from satin's grip within, which he keeps me falling,
from this life, which i don't understand

please catch me now, so i'll understand
give life for one last stand

so please come take my hand, my heavens friend
make me understand

with my arms wide

As one lives their life
Why must one live a strife of life

As one lives their life
Why must one control another's life

As one lives their life
Why must one always complain about life

As one lives their life
Why must one cry about life

As one lives their life
Why must one carry negativity in life

As one lives their life
Why must one make excuses about life

As one lives their life
One must strive for a better life

As one lives their life
One must control their own destiny

As one lives their life
One must prophesize about their life

As one lives their life
One must be happy about their life

As one lives their life
One must carry positivity about their life

As one lives their life
One must face reality about their life

A funny  thought
A happy laugh
A tickling touch
A loving moment

Two in love
Two with hope
Two with trust
Two in bond

Two that care
Two that hold
Two that want
That special moment

A child for two
A child to love
A life to give
That special moment

The darkened roads of the night,
Will soon see the morning light....

As I drive down the hwy of I-10
I see my old city as this trip will end..

It brings up thoughts of the past,
that quickly change to the future...

I am now in the city of New Orleans,
as I will soon begin to wake....

What's on the streets is the homeless, drunk and me....

I park in the french quartes and make sure not to get towed...

I wall to the river and what do i see....
Two young girls kissing on a bench...
A homeless man making no sense...
And a man on a bike without a life...

I then myself gaze upon the river,
As the sun comes up, so do my thoughts...

Watching the tugs push barges,
and the ship's filled with life...

It's a lonley romance the city life..
Yet filled with adventure for live of the night...

Sitting in the exact same place on the railroad tracks as a child...

It was 3 am in the morning, I was smoking *** and watching a recking ball, tear down Jax Brewrey for a mall.

Thought of the past how quick they come and go... How we lose them and choose them is not for me to decide...

Back to the streets as the city come alive... The city will now begin to strive...

Lets go for a ride together
To a place where no one else can go

In our thoughts that were once in our mind
From that dream that you remember

It could from a  fairy tale that you once knew
It could be from a shooting star when ya'll were together

It could be from something you wished for in a wishing well
It could be from a thought you had with a horse shoe

Buy it's a thought of ya'll together

The longer I live,
the more I realize the impact on my attitude on life.
Attitude to me, is much more then fact.

It's more important,
than the past,
than education,
than money,
than circumstances,
than failure,
than success.

Than what other people think or say or do.

It's more important,
than appearance,
than talents,
than skills.

It will make or break,
a company...
a church...
a home...

The remarkable thing is that everyday,
we have a choice regarding the attitude we will embrace for the day.

We cannot change our past.
We cannot change the fact that people will act a certain way.
We cannot change the inevitable.

The only thing we can do is play on the string we have,
and that is our attitude.

I feel like I have sand in my eyes
My heads caving in
I have a foot in my mouth
and no not were to begin

I layed tied to a bed
In a very strange place

With wax on my *******
With a leather mask on my head

Not knowing what to do
I here voices whispering

Of two young girls
That followed me in the club

They slipped me a mickey
and I don't know why

I have no real money
and blackmail nots their style

They walkin with boots
Up to their knee's

They say were daddy's little girls
and they start to beat me

God what a thrill
If I only knew this before

They then each made love
Which I did adore

That night is now over
and I wonder everyday

Who were those two girls
Who made a grand stay

Do we distract or react
To or from a situation

When things become unclear
Control your mind and be sincere

Hold your emotions be real
Think things through
No ones out to get you

These are not poems
They are writings

Writings about real life
That you may already know

But a refresher course
Is always good to know

Do you really know yourself.
Know who you are and your every move.

How many times have you said thats not me.

Be real, I'm sure you did many thing's you never expected, good or bad.

Like you know everything ahead of you.
You can predict the future.

What I'm trying to say is, expect change.
It could be to the good or bad. But you will learn from it.

Yes it may bring stress or sorrow, don't let it beat you.

Use it to your favor, always look at the flip side.

Don't cry or complain about it.
Yet tackle it head on.

It builds character and helps you learn who you are.

The feelings of being hated only affect the weak and insecure.

For me, if I see hatred from a person, I see signs of weakness and insucureties in that person.

How does one deal with a bigot. Bigot is a bit different. It is when one tries to influence one with hatred.

If someone hates you for what you have or the friends you have. It may sound like hate. It's called, envy or jealousy.

If someone hates you from something you've done to them, that's resentment.

As long as you've done nothing wrong, there's nothing you need to change.

I live my life by one rule, as long as I live a clean life. I do not care what one thinks.

I keep nothing but love in my heart and stay wise to everything.

How does one's thinking actually work. Should I explain, yes I will. You can call me Dr. Phil if you like, my friends do.

Thinking, we all know comes from the mind, yet reacts in different manners. There acts of movements, there thoughts of desire, reaction that some say it's not a thought, that *******. How long does it take for a thought to get to your heart, the biggest decision maker. I know, some of you are going to think that the heart has nothing to do with it. If you think your right your heartless.

Let me not get off the point.

Thoughts come into your head, you have about 70,000 thoughts a day, give or take.  With these thoughts you think of your experience from the past. Things that made you feel good, bad, sad, pain, hurt, all the norm. Before you can ever decide what you have to do, you have to think about it. Some will say no, I will say ******* again. Example, you go tho the store with a friend, to the candy isle. You each get something different, you get what has pleasures you in the past from what you desire. Desire is something you want based on past experience or it could be from something you heard that stimulated your mind. With desire brings pleasure. Like *** maybe, haha.

I don't want to make this long:

Boolean Logic:
((((Information brings  thoughts)+ (( past feelings)+ (rationalize))
                     (Divide by heart = outcome))))

I know most everyone know this, but we sometimes need a refresher course in life. Especially when we start making mistakes, again.

I can rest assure that you had to use your mind and think about this one.

Thanks for following me as I follow you.
God Bless
David

Justification:** Just as I thought.
                      To justify your actions to yourself.

Let me tell you a story.
I went on a cruise, what a time, great food, etc.......
Everyday i would walk the deck and talk to people. They had this one young man. He was happy as could be, eating his crackers and drinking water, smiling, just loving each day like it was his last. He was like this everyday. Me, i love to see happy, positive people.

On the last day of the cruise i went to compliment him on his enjoyable actions. I said, you really like ******* and water. He then replied that he did not have the money for food.

When he got his boarding pass checked, he did not read it. The cruise was an all inclusive deal. All the food and entertainment included in the cost of the ticket. When I told him this his faced showed his own signs of stupidity.
His tripped was ruined threw his own faults.

Look, most people know who God is and hopefully knows what the word and meditate means. To make it short, it's taking information in and thinking on it. Live by his ways and life can be very simple. The word may sound strange to some, but look through the situations Jesus went through and apply them to your own situations.

Small example: Jesus told Peter that he can walk on water, sounds pretty unreal. What this passage is saying is to have faith and you can accomplish anything that you put your mind to, with the correct information.

The bible (the word) looks real nice sitting on the table. Your friends say what a good man. But you never open it up.

No communication!!!!!!!!!!!

Quit justifying  your inabilities, change.

How do we overcome our fears ?
But then again what are your fears ?
Is fear is a different feeling for each ?

FEAR
An unpleasant often strong emotion caused by expectations or awareness of danger: An instance or stated marked by this emotion.

Anxious concerns: Solicitude

Profound reference toward God

Despair: Alone, the feelings of being alone

How does one tackle fear ?
I feel that everyone has their own way and we deal with it.
Think about your actions, what brought you to the point of fear.
Conclude the point and the fear should vanish.

For me, I find the courage to have the full trust in our God.

I have not felt fear in since i got away from drugs. Sounds bit made up.
Try and go to prison, being 5' 8' with no tattoos, with an average build. My wisdom and courage got me through, without a doubt. And most everyone respected me, the one's who didn't, my follower dealt with them.

**TACKLE YOUR FEARS

Come escape with me
To a place where the blind can see

Where poverty and sickness does not exist
A life that you can see, just come follow me

Where everything is beautiful
Where everybody loves you

I will take you higher to a place
To this place where love is free

Filled with golden streams
and silver green trees

When looking into the skies
Brings only tears of joy

Where the sun beams only happiness
And the birds sing love songs that last forever

Where rainbows are real, with gold filled pots
Where a shooting star's grants your every wish

When it rain's, it only rain's drops of love
Where heart's are filled with compassion

A place where you will never know
Sadness, sorrow or grief

A world that needs no shelter

As the spiders,
crawl above my head...

To all the flies,
around my head...

Lets not forget the roaches,
that crawl beneath my feet..

As the lizards awaite,
their mighty feast...

There are also,
stinging bees an
bed bugs that bite...

These are things,
that irratate me...

Stink bugs, critters
and slimy worms....

Caterpillars morph
and so they change...

A baby cries,
as another one dies...

The world around us,
can be ugly and cold...

How beautiful it can be,
with riches and gold..

If i can only find,
where i lost my soul...

I need to learn,
to lose my pride...

I'm no longer bold,
as I grow old..

Never throw in your hand..
And always make a stand..

Two things you must
Balance out in life

Attitude and a good sense of feelings

I know a day
Mother may i yes you may
Wait in January and May
Changing time delay
Financial gain repay
Washing with GAIN spray
Water beaches waves
Money grow on tree branch break
Taking a break from life decay
Maybe just stolen fish on bait
Men mastery *******
Mason and teplars template
Money laundering contemplate
Some words can relate
Relationships replace
Playing chess checkmate
Success i will regenerate
All along make a clean slate
The year 1776 to1778
My path clear and straight
I will eat because u already ate
Knowingly frustrating designate
This design is precious simulate
Simulating grids no hesitate
Motherboard and pannel fate
tHe 13th and 9HT gate
Souls and destined key to soulmates
The road 66 or 69 navigate
Mr and Mrs contract negotiate
Go with your gut or go with faith
Coins and diamonds a future await

I was my own
Worst enemy

From my drug addiction
Always trapped inside

I never knew
Love and affection
Only knew hurt inside

A prisoner in life
In my state of mind

I really got busted  
It was a ****** up time

To a real prison I went
For a short time

I finally lost
That state of mine

I learned to live
From that time

I wrote a lot
To pass time

Sharing my thoughts
All the time

lonely laughter

buried love

hurting thoughts

saddened eyes

reckless mind

heartless times

scared feelings

painful tears

praying darkness

silent words

emotional fear

dark days

silent nights

winter chill

summer heat

blacked life

beside yourself

Waiting, watching the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech

As he opens the door, she rolls over
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over

She lies and says she's in love with him
She dreams in color, she dreams in red

Talking to herself, there's no one else who needs to know
Memories back when she was bold and strong

And waiting for the world to come along
Swears she knew it, now she swears he's gone

She lies and says she still loves him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man
Yeah...

She loved him, yeah... she don't want to leave this way
She feeds him, yeah... that's why she'll be back again

She can't find a better man

I want you to remember

The things that came between us
From these games that we played

You were the lying one
I played your game

These things we have between us
Is what drives us apart

You squeezed my heart
And your the passion one

I'll make the break
You'll see the sun

I'll play your hand
You'll be the lonely one

These feelings we have between us
Are now far apart

As I pray to my master
That I made a big mistake

It was what controlled me
That led me to my own misery

Soul searching for a life there after
Same old trip that held my hand

Drifting endlessly in darkness
Flying not wise to notion,
to get my own way

Antipathy towards a person
Makes you a biggot

Do people know what this means
It is such a nasty way to live

If you ever meet this type of person
Just turn away

Delussional eyes...
Priceless times..

Mind arise...
Sunset surprise...

Darkened night...
Fear and freight...

The mind shifts...
To a different script..

Love turns to anger...
Care to spite...
The truth turns to lies..
What a ****** up life...

The girl i know....
For a year of my life...

Has now turned crazy...
So i must hide the knives..