I live my life like there's no tomorrow
And all I've got I had to steal

Least I don't need to beg or borrow
I'm living at a pace that kills

I found the simple life ain't so simple
When I jumped out on that road

I got no love, no career you'd call real
Ain't got nobody waiting at home

Sadness in my Heart
Nothing in my Soul
God forsake me
I want to be whole

A child, A women
I want to hold
Things to share
Something to Bare

Things to hold
with nothing but care
I get my strength
From this word of LOVE

It will make me whole
As I grow old

IN THE GRIPS OF SATIN
FILLED WITH AGONY & PAIN
MY LIFE GOING NOWHERE
WITH HIM IN MY HEAD
MY LIFE WAS IN SHAMBLES
AND I ALWAYS GAMBLED
GAMBLED MY LIFE
HE HELD MY FUTURE
COULDN'T BREAK FREE
MY HEART WAS DEAD
I THINK OF MY LIFE
I NEVER HAD
PLEASE LET ME GO
I'LL DO ANYTHING
PLEASE FORGIVE ME LORD
I'LL DO THE RIGHT THING

as you grow, i'm always there
it always starts, truth or dare
you may not think, i start from there

as you grow, you do what's taught
you never think, were it starts

as you grow, you break away
never thinking, whats the right way

you begin to want, material things
never knowing, how to do the right thing

i'm your power, you love it so
i'll get you things, you'll never know

i've always wished, i could take your heart
i thank you know, for giving me a start

as you grow, you know know different
as i've become, your only freind

i'm always there, when your asleep
i'm in your mind, so be descrete

as we play, mind astray
you forget the things, you could of had

you may not think, but i'm always there
you never learn, you make me happy
do it over, i'll make you happy

now you love me, pain beware
now your mine, i'm always there

you should of thought
truth or dare

Hey
Ah ya
Ah right
It's our night
Feels good Inside
Say it ain't so, my love
Look at us walking this way
Your love is so magical, say it ain't so
My love I just can't let you go, say it ain't so
Lets brake it down, you and me and me and you
Will it last forever, all these things between you and me
The farthest thing from my mind is the closest, say it ain't so
You
&
Me

Just a bit of pain at  sea
Just another pin *****

You say there is a new love is on the horizon

The pain is now gone
Seven miles have past

You say she will have turquoise eye's

You shift sails to a new destination
You know were you can find gold

And you now only see an open ocean

You now sail into the wind
You are cold and hungry

Trying to find anything

The sails have now rotten to nothing
You have given up hope

You are now lost in the
Sea of Love

in a heart of need of rescue

not sure what i'm looking for

sweet melodies of a life time

like sunshine in the rain

is the girl i'm looking for

like a shadow in the darkness
like a puddle in the rain

my feelings going nowhere
with misery and pain

i keep searching for the answers

my lifetime adventure

just can't seem to find what in looking for

please someone give me the answer

so i can get what i'm looking for

for my yesteryears of yesterday

so I can make up my dreams

Is this real life?
Is this just a fantasy?

Is life collapsing around us?
Why can't we sometimes face the truth?

Can we control the variables in our life?
the love, the fiction, the drama, the secrets?

What will make us?
What will break us?
What will take us?

Is life really easy come, easy go?

I've cry enough tears to fill the ocean.
I've built walls that can be seen from space.
I've clouded my thoughts where no sun can shine.

What makes us human?
What controls us?

Our blood and flesh?
Our heart and mind?

What is being sound?
What is self control?

The things we think of?
The things we do?

This part of me that I hold dear.
Is my self existence from year to year.

Things we do, we never know.
We talk to complain and all about you.
You think its a game
You don't know what to do
After awhile, it's all up to you
I thought it was a way to get affection from you
You told me you didn't love me
So I said I'd get you
So I took my own life
Not knowing what to do
Always remember your life's up to you

SELFISH PEOPLE
DO SELFISH THINGS

IT'S NOT ABOUT OTHERS
IT'S ALL ABOUT THEM

WHY DO THEY DO
THESE TERRIBLE THINGS

THEY KNOW
WHAT THEIR DOING

WHAT A SELFISH THING

when I speak
i know what i'm saying

i listen
so i can learn

i smell
to see what i like

i will speak
if you ask

i love
because i care

i cry
because of emotions

i hurt
because your hurting

i fight
because there's no way out

i agree
because you are right

am i right
not all the time

i won't judge
because that's not me

am i bold
if you think so

do i know life
i can only try

is there a GOD
of course there is

what he has taught us
is how to live

I'll sew my seed
for GOD is in me

bless the recievers
as God has blessed me

GOD will watch over us
as i watch over others

in their time of need
and their times of sorrow

forgiveness they want
forgiveness they have

and GOD wants
no one sad

so give up your ties
have them come from your heart

bless the recievers
and
bless the givers

for i have compassion
for the true meaning of love

I'll sew my seed
for GOD is in me

bless the recievers
as God has blessed me

GOD will watch over us
as i watch over others

in their time of need
and in their times of sorrow

forgiveness they want
forgiveness they have

and GOD wants no one
no one sad

so give up your ties
have them come from your heart

bless the recievers
and
bless the givers

for i have compassion
for the true meaning of love

I met this girl around, quarter to ten
We made it once, she said make me again
She wrapped her love around me all night long
In the morning we were still going strong

Now let me tell you it sure feels good
First time I saw that girl I knew it would
Now let me tell you it sure felt right
No pulling teeth, she didn't want to fight

she said, shake me
All night, all night long

Screamed and scratched and rolled out of the bed
I never really got her out of my head
And now and then she makes those social calls
Gives me a squeeze and kicks me to the wall

I feel her coming in the middle of the night
screaming higher, shake me

torture at night
sickness during day
thoughts of leaving
keep going through my head
my head keeps pounding
feeling nothing but shame
never thinking
can life ever cange
a life of misery
with no place to go
i hide my feelings
to hide my shame
never talking
drives me insane
my thoughts won't leave me
i keep them retained
should i pick up and use
or should i run and hide
i go in circles
to pace the floor
these everasting feelings
i need to pour
these feelings of SHAME
i need no more

i try to look away
when i see it or feel shame

it's so alive
i want to see it change

i took to my own
and swallowed the glass

i look at the cross
for crucifixion

and pray to my god
for resurrection

to break the spell
of shameful ways

So much for your promises
They died the day you let me go

Caught up in a web of lies
But it was just too late to know

I thought it was you
Who would stand by my side

And now you've given me
Nothing but shattered dreams

Feel like I could run away
From this empty heart
You said you'd die for me

Woke up to reality
And found the future not so bright

I dreamt the impossible
That maybe things could work out right

I thought it was you
Who would do me no wrong

So much for your promises

when i was 6
i began to have problems
a wall started
in front of me
one brick at a time
as i grew
the brick wall got taller
ADDICTION
i started laying my bricks myself
RELATIONSHIPS
the brick wall got even taller
LIFE
the wall never stopped
it has finally stop
no one could get past it
i was the same person
CHANGE
i started removing the bricks one by one
every time i
CHANGED
the faster the bricks fell
the wall is now half my size
LOVE
people started helping me
my skin began to shed
MORE LOVE
more people helping
not only with the remaining bricks
they helped peal off most of my skin
NO WALL
the wall is gone and people are coming in
MORE LOVE
i am now surrounded by people
WHO LOVE ME
i no longer have a wall
and i have now
SHED MY SKIN
to start a new
**LIFE

cold late night so long ago
when I was not so strong you know

a pretty woman came to me
never seen eyes so blue

I could not run away
It seemed we'd seen each other in a dream

It seemed like she knew me
she looked right through me

come on home, girl i said with a smile
you don't have to love me yet

let's get high awhile
but try to understand

try to understand
she'll drive me insane

so, she thinks she's going to break me
just because she slept in my bed

she has to do better
she's a bird of a feather
she enjoys me in bed

she's always knocking on my door
when i don't even ask

she's always waiting for me
and glad to see me

she always says she loves me
so who broke who