**** these dysfunctional thoughts
that takes my thoughts away

i can only get mad at myself
why do delusions consume me

i know all the pieces should fit
but i can only point the finger at one

i need to rediscover my computations
or at least know the dangers of my path

trailing dreams from my days gone past
haunt me and live happily in my mind

**** this roll of film stuck in my head
if i could put a big magnet on my head
to erase my past i most diffidently would

it's burning a hole in me
this life of delusions

a life of only breathing

As I hop, skip and jump
Over the humps

The humps of my dreams
Of my life to be

Now jumping on nothing
Of no life to be

Feeling the darkness
Of a life to be

My life will be nothing
It will be filled with fear

The fear for a life
A life that I need

From a crippled thought,
that resides in our mind...

Stone encriptions,
from far away times.....

The sinking sun,
the rising moon...

The pressures on earth,
of love and gloom....

A world with no war....
Would mean a world with no religion...

So, if there is a god,
then peace should be easy...

From the minerals they seek....
To the poison they spread.....

It's blood for gold,
that's harvested on earth...

For control of the almighty dollar,
they seek to keep one in grief....

There is a world order,
that dates back in time....

If you would learn the blood line,
you would be surprised.....

The banks will be controled,
possibly by one....

Now marshall law,
can play it's part....

It may come into play,
and one day be law..

I have something so sweet
Her body is so smooth
She has rosey cheeks
She's so fine
She has no losing side
She holds me tight
She has rocket style
She takes no prisoners
She's a ***** inside
At night her eyes shine bright
She's such a mean machine
She has leather seats
She hits 60 in 1.3
Let her take you for a ride
But she's all mine

If I could paint a picture,
    I would paint a picture of you.....

If I could write a book,
    I would write a book about you.....

If I could draw,
    I would draw a life with you....

If I called you on the phone,
     could you talk to me....

If I wrote you a letter,
     could you reply to me...

If I said I loved you,
     could you love me....

In times of sorrow
In times of pain
In times of forgiveness

Who does one turn to

In times of happiness
In time of joy
In times of greatness

Who does one turn to

How our thoughts change with our emotions
With every thought we look to a different person

Is there just one we can turn to
Could there actually be just one

One, who can resolve all problems, good or bad
Good is not a problem, yet good, can always be better

Turn to who we say
Turn away if you like

But someone is always there

When I tell you I love you
Do you even need me

When I try to hug you
You don't even squeeze me

I try to  kiss you
You turn away

I know I still love you
So please don't walk away

I know that I need you
So please can you stay

Give me a chance
So please baby stay

I'll deffently be there
I'll always love you
I'll always care

Please try and remember
Our love that we shared

But always remember
I'll always be there

And I said god

You've touched my spirit inside
You hide the hurt that makes me cry

And I said god

Keep my life aside I don't want die
**** these feelings I feel inside

And I said god

You bring me the life I never had
You teach me how to love and care

And I said god

Can you take my life somewhere
Where happiness is always there
Where they show me peace, love and care

And I said god

Your the only one that's there
I'll take your hand and I'll swear
Bring me life and take me there

And I said god

Your the only one that cares
You show me love and your always there

And I said god

Your my god and the one who's there
You share your life to make me aware
Of where I need to be in this life of means

theres a tree by the brook
with song birds in the leaves
singing all of our thoughts and our memerious

theres a sign on the wall
with a note in chinese
that says someone please read me

there smoke on the walls
from some who's not sure
if this life is what they came for

theres  flowers thats stares
with tears in their eyes
because all they want is to be cared for

and it makes me wonder

So I wonder who killed JFK
Was it a man named hunger play
Movie predator and the pray
Simple action and meditate

Total hopeful and kinda delayed
And every murderer repaided
Believe Carma Cola faded
The first place designated

Time is at hand the last days
World War 3 in Trinity ways
Isreal in the east State stays
Stay and drop bombs and Jay's

Jordan the Illuminati create
Jordan and Nile river  cream mate..11.11
Ethiopian Princess great Great
Great grandpa SEeD DNA

Additional rest to retaliate
While u lie and legislate
Regulate revolver reinteirigate
Now game over checkmate

From Pluto to Mercury
And the planets inbetween
Through in some moons
And we'll make the trip clean

Going control to starship one
Your journey has just begun
5, 4, 3, 2, 1
Blastoff your off to the stars

Is it a journey to find life
Or is it a journey to find a place to hide
With the heat of the sun upon my feet
I try to keep my starship neat

Now to the outer skirts of the milkyway
I think I see life or could it be a knife
This journey is killing me what a fight
Is the end or did I find life

If I had a dollar
for everytime she hollered
I could be a millionaire

If I had a stitch
for everytime she *******
I could mend everyones clothes

If I had a bread crumb
for everytime she cried
I could lead a path to paradise

If I hand a grand of sand
for everytime she lost control
I would have a hour glass with unlimited time

If I had a chair
for everytime she cared
I would have no place to sit

If I had to walk a mile
for everytime she smiled
I would never go anywhere

If I had a perk
For everytime she hurt
It would never run out of benefits

and so on
and so on
and so on

i don't see you
but i can feel you

from the times of our past
from the we have spent together

your in my thoughts and dreams
your always with me, as i miss you
your in my heart, so

i hear your voice always
but i still can not find you

our memories will never fade away
for i always see you in my dreams

only to know,
that you are only

an illusion in my mind

The covenant of our father's
The antiquities from our past
The scrolls with words of wisdom
The lighting in our past

Buried in ancient times
Myths from the past
Artifacts under water
History is our past

Demeaned never to be found
In a world that is still unknown
With their own dreams and delusions
They destroy them in these days

What was once made for a reason
Was meant to stay sacred
What is now stored and old
Will send them to their grave

How people change
When you have a life they want

That goes for both
Guys and Girls who I hardly knew

They were at my house daily
Wanting what I had to give

I gave them all friendship
But they wanted more from me

I worked very hard to get what I had
Cars, boats, houses, a big game room
Are just a few things I had

I was very young then
And it was a life I never had
I made mega money from a company that I built.

No one really knew me
From a poor life that I had
I had absolutely nothing
And I was always sad

So I didn't mind showing others
Of a life they never had

When people say life's tough
All I do is laugh

Live my life when I had nothing
No home, no family, hardly even food

Run away from nothing
Is the only life I had

When it blows to the left<
is when I'm the best~;]

When it blows to the right>
Are the times that I fight~~;[

When it flows up,^
are the times I have luck~~~:)

When it flows down,√
are the days that I frown~~~~:(

When it changes direction,:@
is when I lose perfection~~~~~:(

When it starts to miss me,€
are the times that you kiss me~~~~~~:*

When it goes in circles, ©
is when my life's crippled~~~~~~~:¢

When it stops,¥
is when my life drops___:

Anyway the wind blows,<>^√@¢©¥
is just how my life goes~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Butterfly's, that make me high.
--
Tingles I get, when you say hi..
--
Emotions of love, make me sigh...
--
Uncontrollable feelings, upon the sky's....  
--
I life without you, could lead me to die.....
--
I thought of you, and I forget what hurts......
--
I life with you, shall be my perk.......

If i could write a poem,
how would it read...

Would it be about love,
or would it be about hurt...

Would it be about pastures of green
or would it be about fulfilling ur dreams..

Will i write between the lines,
oh how we walk that narrow line...

Can i write about the moon and stars,
or can i write about life afar....

The thing about a poem is,
you can never go wrong...

Roses are red
Vilots are blue

When she says
I love you

I reply
*******

Your my apple pie
You make me cry
You make me high
You make me lie
You make me sigh
You make me die
You make me fry

You make me  laugh
You make my path
You make me *****
Your like my dope

You bring me love
You bring me tears
You bring me fears
You bring me years

Recipe for apple pie
One part man
One part women
A sprinkle of salt
Some doe
Maybe some sugar
Add butter
Little Cinnamon
Then bake it in a relationship

Your my apple pie.....
You make me cry....

You make me high...
You make me lie...

You make me sigh...
You make me laugh....

You make my path....
You make me *****....

Your like my dope...
You bring me love....

You bring me tears....
You bring me fears....

You bring me years....
You make me want to die at times....

Recipe for apple pie:

One part man....
One part women.....

A sprinkle of salt....
Some doe.....

Maybe some sugar....
Add butter....

Little Cinnamon....
Then bake it in a relationship....

Don't forget the apples.....

Dear Everyone,

Most should know me past from my writings, most know that I was an addict, in prison, lonely at times, heart aches, I've been trough a lot including death of loves ones.

But do you pay attention to my writings about goals, dreams, to inspire, teach, motivate. I just don't talk about it, I follow through, which I hope everyone learns to do one day. If your doing it know, my hats off to you.

I have been having trouble getting a job because I am a convicted felon. That only inspired me to talk with God which had changed my way of thinking. I had a dream 2 weeks ago to open up my knowledge from the past. I was very successful in the energy field, to help fight global warming while reducing energy cost. I've been working 24/7 since that conversation.

My company is now  real but the opening is postponed because of new ideas. I have been approached by many investors, so me and my team has decided to go public with our stocks. I want to open four offices, Alexandria, Lafayette, Baton Rouge at one time.  And by year two New Orleans where I  I will have my Corporate office.

I don't tell you this to boast, but to inspire, especially our youth. I always tell them to dream big and you will never fail. Most don't understand, how sad.  Is that the parents these day don't teach this, just simple say my child if you dream it may come true one day. Tell them to simply dream about a new bike and provide it for them, don't have them earn it. These dreams will always grow year after year. Every day we get older and your children will leave from under your wing. Prepare for this world in the simplest ways and they will be prepared to step out in life.

Remember DREAM BIG and you will never fail.

INSPIRE, TEACH, MOTIVATE, PREPARE OUR YOUTH FOR THIS BIG WORLD WE LIVE IN, AS WELL SELF MOTIVATION FOR YOURSELF.

STAY POSITIVE, NEVER COMPLAIN AND NEVER SAY I CAN'T.

My hats off to my Marketing guru & genius , "Gailforcewinds".

this is very real

I really miss being on this site. ****, I've posted over 700 writings in 2 months and read 1000's/

the little things
is all i want

a piece of sky
a blue moon

a little question
can you always be true

the things you forget
is the pain that can ****

locked in a cage
tearing at my brains

you tell a tale
on and on and on

the simple question
are you true