as our life is now, will never be like it once was
is your life what you wanted it to be or does life have you

your life will always be different, things always change
we cannot control change, so we must change to control

change we cannot sometimes control, because time won't stop
so we always must try to stay in control
control of our lives and who we want to be

always be your own person, and let no one
i mean no one guide you but yourself

my blood may be red, but my life is black
i live in a hopeless world, why does my life have to be

why can't i stay in life with a child's mind
always curious, with no sorrow or doubt

my life is only living in a shell
hiding from my world, which i cannot tell

always in darkness and it feels like hell
with my burning soul that kills me to tell

i can't figure out if i want to live or die
when i visit my world it scares me inside

i need to figure this out, i don't want to die
i want that feeling that i'm still alive

slowly crawling into my grave
with one foot in and one foot out

my life has always been a shallow grave
since i stuck death into my veins

people thinking it all fun and games
until one dies and sets them in their grave

we tell them stop or you may die
they only laugh to pass their time

everyone thinks life is a game
only to know, that people do die

i am greatful that it wasn't me
i am know gone from my shallow grave

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                    ////  this is the springtime of my loving   /////  
                  ////////// the second season I am to know/////
                /////////////!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! /////
                !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!­!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!            
               !!!!!!!! you are the sunlight in my growing !  
               !!!!!!!!    so little warmth I've felt before       !!!
               !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!­!!!!!!!!!
               \\   it isn't hard to feel me glowing       \
                   \  i watched the fire that grew so low    \\
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                        \   it is the summer of my smiles         !!!!!!!!
                          !!! flee from me Keepers of the Gloom  !!!!!!!!
                          !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!­!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
                          !!! ­ speak to me only with your eyes    !!!!!!!!
                          ///       It is to you I give this tune        //////
                       ///////////////////////////////////////////////// /////
                     ///            ain't so hard to recognize      /////  
                     !!!       these things are clear to all from !!!!!
                      \\\\   time to time    ////////////////
                         \\\\\\\////////////////////////
                           \  i've felt the coldness of my winter
                             !  i never thought it would ever go
                               !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
         ­                    i cursed the gloom that set upon us
                               \  but I know that I love you so /
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                                   these are the seasons of emotion
                                and like the winds they rise and fall
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                              ­        this is the wonder of devotion
                                    i see the torch we all must hold
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                                   this is the mystery of the quotient
                                    upon us all a little rain must fall
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                                  ­                RAIN
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So close to leaving this game of life
Tears in my eyes as lie awake at night

As I fall into darkness, my head starts to ache
Is it a dream or is it to late

My minds playing tricks and I feel the pain
I now lie awake to face the day

Is it a dream or has it just begun
No place to hide
No place to run

I try to relax but it can't be done
Is it a place to face my fears
or
Is it a place to retrace my years

Suddenly I see a new deminsion
Now that I have someone watching over me

He will protect me at night and set my mind free
Now that I'm away from all those bad dream

I was the master of illusion I now relize
The day has come where I can open my eyes

The journey has gone from inside my head
I have learned from everything

That I have now said
I'll never forget my past and
My dreams will come true

To suddenly see
That I'm no longer blue

Surrender in solitudem, just ask for forgiveness
His light will shine bright and he will give forgiveness

Bring up the past, confess your sins
He's a loving GOD and knows everything

He will change your ways, to understand why
You'll know no evil and sometimes cry

He will give you true life, so hold your head high

Show him LOVE, then bow your head
It's all about good and never bad

Love the Almighty and your dreams will be had

May the good Lord be with down every road you roam.
Do onto others as you want them to do to you.

May sunshine and happiness surround you.
May you be courageous, dignified & true.
May your presense never grow old.

I am proud to have met you.
This is from me to you

I choose to die and not to live is my life
Paranoia to live is my greatest fear, less is death

As I sink into the sands of doom of time
There is no longer a great creator in my life

Swimming to nothing, is how I feel
The end of wisdom is falling beneath me

Into the darkness of time I’ll shall sink within
No fault to blame me, but only to blame time

Rediscovering my computations of hell
A black hole is my falling beneath my feet

Where no pieces of the puzzle fit together
For this I have trained for throughout my life

Shedding skin and
I've been picking my scabs again

I'm down digging through my old muscles,
looking for a clue

I've been crawling on my belly,
clearing out what could have been.

I've been wallowing in my own confused
and insecure delusions

For a peace to cross me over
or a word to guide me.

I want feel the changes coming down
and knowing what I've been hiding in

My shadow change is coming through my shadow.
Clearing out what could've been.

I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
and insecure delusions.

I want feel the change consume me
From my shadow within

What does it take to step though
this shadow of mine i live in

If I use you, will I love you

If I love you, will you let me leave you

When your gone, why will i find you

When I'm sick, why aren't you there

I will follow you, even though I'm sick

When I cry, It's because I miss you

Why don't I hate you, but I should know why

The ones that care, are no longer there

Why don't I care, why isn't life fair

Please let me go, but I don't even try

Why do I follow you, for no reason why

Now that I hate you, why do I keep you around

I struggle with life, now that I'm on my own

Bury me softly in this womb
I kept this part of me from you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers
In a tomb... in bloom

Down in a hole and I don't know if I can be saved
See my heart I decorate it like a grave
Well you don't understand who they
Thought I was supposed to be
Look at me now I'm a man
Who won't let himself be

Down in a hole, feelin so small
Down in a hole, losin my soul
I'd like to fly,
But my wings have been so denied

Down in a hole and they've put all
The stones in their place
I've eaten the sun so my tongue
Has been burned of the taste
I have been guilty
Of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more
Of my feelings beneath

Down in a hole, feelin so small
Down in a hole, losin my soul
I'd like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

Bury me softly in this womb
Oh I want to be inside of you
I give this part of me for you
Oh I want to be inside of you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers
Oh I want to be inside of you
In a tomb... in bloom
Oh I want to be inside...

Down in a hole, feelin so small
Down in a hole, losin my soul
Down in a hole, feelin so small
Down in a hole, outta control
I'd like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

I let the sun beat upon my face
As stars to fulfill my dreams

I look to the skies to see where I have been
Time to clear the slate, to begin the day

Off into this human race, where I must live
Trying to create a new space, soon will be revealed

To live this life of craziness, weakens in my knees
This is a ****** up place, this world we live in

As life crumbles beneath my feet
I have no real place to go

Do I run or do I sleep, is this really me
This thing called the human race

To face this world that I must see

let the sun beat down upon my face, stars to fill my dream
i am a traveler of both time and space, to be where I have been

to sit with elders of the gentle race, this world has seldom seen
they talk of days for which they sit and wait and all will be revealed

talk and song from tongues of lilting grace, whose sounds caress my ear
but not a word I heard could I relate, the story was quite clear

all I see turns to brown, as the sun burns the ground
and my eyes fill with sand, as I scan this wasted land
trying to find where I've been

pilot of the storm who leaves no trace, like thoughts inside a dream
heed the path that led me to that place, yellow desert stream
my Shangri-La beneath the summer moon, I will return again
sure as the dust that floats high in June, when moving through Kashmir

oh, father of the four winds, fill my sails, across the sea of years
With no provision but an open face, along the straits of fear

let me take you there

I don't know how I'm gonna tell you
I can't play with you no more

I don't know how I'm gonna do what mama told me
To stay away from the girl next door

I can't believe what people saying
I'm gonna let my feelings tell me

I'm not satisfied sitting here all day long
She lives in the darker side of town

And when I'm out I see you walking
Why don't your eyes see me

Could it be you've found another game to play
What did mama say to me

And yesterday I saw you standing by the river
And weren't those tears that filled your eyes
And all the fish that lay in ***** water dying
Had they got you hypnotized

And yesterday I saw you kissing tiny flowers
But all that lives is born to die

And so I say to you that nothing really matters
And all you do is stand and cry

I don't know what to say about it
When all you ears have turned away

But now's the time to look and look again at what you see
Is that the way it ought to stay

That's the way
That's the way it ought a stay

as i looked into the dreams of her eyes
i can see the passion within her heart
to find the life that she is looking for

a life of love with only one man

a man to protect her
a man to love her
a man to hold her

a man to marry
a man with life
a man to bare their children

to start their life

as her lingering sent fills the room
i think of my lover, the girl i love

who's so sincere, yet very secretive
i close my eyes to see her

to only wish that she was here
not knowing where she is

she is my lover and i love her so
and it drives me crazy when she's away

the sent that she carries
drives me insane

for right or wrong
to live is to be strong

i want
i will
i love

i must have it all

to know is  to learn
to laugh  is to cry
to feel is to love

i have
i need
i care

i must have it all

to give up is to burn
to live is to die

Simplicity in life
Is something I look for
Hardly found, dually noted

In thought and mind
of a life I can not find
visions of freedom
stay in my mind

as I lay the tracks of my past
They away then turn, from my districted ways

Simplicity I look for
Simplicity I must find

This train of thought
Called contentment
I must find

Tell us what you're going do tonight, mama.
There must be someplace you can go
In the middle of the tall drinks and the drama,
there must be someone you know.

God knows, you're looking good enough,
but you're so smooth and the world's so rough.
You might have something to loose.
Oh, no, pretty mama, what you going
do in those shoes?

Got those pretty little straps around your ankles
Got those shiny little chains around your heart.
You go to have your independence
but you don't know just where to start.

Desperation in the singles bars
all those **** offs in their fancy cars.
you can't believe your reviews.

Oh, no, you can't do that,
once you started wearing those shoes

They're looking at you, leaning on you
Tell you anything you want to hear
They give you tablets of love
They're waiting for you
They got to score you
Your handy with a shovel and so sincere
Ooh, they got the kids gloves on

You just want someone to talk to
They just want to get their hands on you
You get whatever you choose
Oh, no, you can't do that,
Once you started wearing those shoes.

LIVE
       LIFE
             TO
                THE
                      FULLEST

                                     LIVE TO LOVE
                                                              OR
                                                                  LOVE TO LIVE

                                                                                        DON'T WAIT
                                                                                                              TO
                                                                                                                 THE
                                                                                                                      END

With the noise of the city
With the cries throughout the night
With sirens blaring

What a hell of a night

This is very true
For those who don' know

It's a different lifestyle
that you should never know

If you don't know the city
It's whaht we love

Visit it once to see
A different side of life

For you, are our silent leader
For you, who makes me a believer
For you, are the men of men

For you, lead me
For you, guide me
For you, teach me
For you, love me

For I, have learned your silent ways
For you, are the one and only for me

For you, taught me my ways
For which, are mysterious ways to me
For what, I do not understand

For I, am just for your cause
For that, I will protect them
For that, I will keep them close to my heart

For you, have never failed me
For I, have failed you

For you, are my Daddy
For you, are the being,  beyond life

For I, will always follow you
For you, have always lead me

For I ,will follow you to the heavens
For where, I will live with you my Daddy

when you told me that you loved me
you promised me, that you would never leave me

even though you left your lover, for me who was another
you said you loved me so and would never let go

the loved we shared, the times we cared, the fun we had
were the happiest days of my life

you then just left me, without telling me, your sorry
with a blink of my eyes, you were gone from my eyes

leaving me with a heart ache of no other kind
i have never felt before with tears in my eyes