Young man, its time to wake up.
Your love affair with death has got to go.

From many long years, you have to rake up.
The Leaves from the past.

Slow suicide is no way to go.

Blue, colored gray days
Dizzy weakend by the haze
Infection is not a phase

The cracks and lines from where you failed.
They make an easy man to read.

For all those times you bleed.
For a little peace from God you plea and beg

Your not a fake now, so wake up.
Now is your time not to go.

i admit it, what's to say
i relive it, without pain

bacckstreet lover on the side of the road

i got a bomb in my temple thats gonna explode
i got a 16 guage buried under my coat

i pray,
once upon a time, i could control myself
once upon a time, i could lose myself

indian summer and i hate the heat
i got my hand in my pocket so determinded and descrete

there she was with him on the side of the street
they think i have my eyes closed
but i'm looking at them the whole ******* time

i explode

once upon a time, i could control myself
once upon a time, i could lose myself

when i see a shooting star, i wonder how fast it's gone.
i don't wish upon it.

when i see a rainbow, i wonder were it starts and ends
i don't think about a *** of gold.

when i think of lucky charms, i wonder why is that man short
not that he's a lepracorn.

when i find a penny on the ground, i look for more
i don't think it's luckey.

when i hav a eye lash by my eye
i get ****** if someone tries to blow it.

when i find my lost keys, i don't say thank god
i say ****

my glass is never half empty or half full
i drink it all

i always finish what i start,
i'm finished when i get tired.

i always say what i do and do what i say, sometimes

i don't lie, sometimes
i don't cheat, sometime

but i write to much, talk to much, speak my peace, tell you how it is,
don't care what people think and will tell you to shut up.

but my qualities are,  i'm real, i help others, i show love, i inspire, i teache,
i love life, i enjoy *** and i believe in GOD and JESUS CHRIST

i have crimson eye's
in moonless skies

i bleed from my consciene
i steal from the dead

i play with fear
i run with hate

i never think it's over
it's never to late

i creep through the night
i hide during the day

i play these games
of frieght and hate

i make people cry
and wish them for dead

i'll give up a life
because i'm already dead

i'll travel the world
just to find you

i'll teach you sin
just to know you

your life will go nowhere
your feelings will be dead

you'll love my ways
they always do

i'll be your conscience
i'll teache you my ways

you never think
that you learn my ways

but you came to me
not i to you

Crimson eyes in moon lit skies
Feeling of gray makes my day

Desire for depression leads to pain
Manipulation is your only game

Signs of fright are why you fight
Feelings of love you can not instore

Loneliness is see in yours eye's
With tears of passion for a life

Confusing ways with confusing lies
One day I hope you can open your eye's

Bleed is what my sins tell me
Greed leads me to my own misery
Hurt is where it leads me
Pain let's me know that i am filthy

Lies is what they me
Despise is my way of living
When I die who will take me

Lord can you forgive me

I'm tired of being wrong, in the times of unknown.

I'm tired of being being right, when it causes a fight.

I love feelings, that i'm a believer.

I hate the feelings, from this world of hate.

I  challenge the uknown and the one's that hate.

To figure things out, to embrace their hate.

When I think about love
I think about God

When I think about hate
I think about ISIS

When I have anger I see red

When in love I see blue

When depressed I see gray

When I'm happy I see bright colors

When sad I see dull colors

With God I see white

When dead I'll see black

Trending? This will be hard, but I'll try to make it rhyme

We had Mother Goose and Dr Zeus with bedtime stories

now to the past

I'll start with soda's in 1886
A foutian drink by Dr. Pemperton

Radios in 1920 on KDKA
By Westinghouse a electronic firm

We then had TV's in 1925
Started by a man in the Soviet Union named Leon.

We then had car's in the mid 1900's
They were manufactured cars by a man named Ford

Let's not forget Edison and Tesla who brought us important life things that we now use

Lets jump ahead from the past with simple things.

Fast food, subways, and buses

Beepers and pagers

Cell phones and lasor ligbts

And by all means, don't let a cop hit you with a tazer.

We had John Travolta with Disco's and Cowboy's

Madonna and Cindy that set fashion trends

We had Bill Gates and Steve Jobs that raced for computers

Mark Zuckerberg and Friend's, I'll give them a WOW for Facebook

We can't forget Google a d Hello Poetry
For they TREND everyday

Let's not forget the most important one, it was stared by a man, a man named Jesus

As I lay back and think about my life,
from my childhood to the end.

Like most kids we played our own way.
We made up our rules for the game of the day.

In our adolescent years 13 to 19 which is our puberty years.
We learn about life and what does it mean.

Then in our twenties is when we have fun.
We experiment with ***, drugs and love.

When we hit our thirties, life then begins.
We look for a wife, a job or  career .

The fourties then come, and then to some.
Life starts to change from fun and games.

When the fifties hit, it'***** and miss.
They try to have fun and sometimes it comes.

They then hit sixty, and it's now their time.
Time to slow down and have simple fun.

Now in their seventies, life starts to change.
Some get dementia, some go away.

Wow the eighties, life gets hard and help is needed.
Show them your love, their your family.

Then comes the nineties, there not much fun. We keep hope hospice in mind with love and god.

100 hits, someone made it. What a day, it's celebrated in every way.

Charmed I'm sure, as she says to me.
Be my friend, as I say then.

She takes me hand, what's her plan.
I walk with her, because of her.

She stops and looks, then kisses me.
I look and stare and say what a girl.

She pulls me in to her own arms.
I think and say, what a day.

She pulls me in bed and says what a man.
I don't fight back and try to relax.

She uses and soothes me because I'm her man.
I love her and **** her, because that's my plan.

As I gaze into wonder land
Trying to collect my thoughts
I always ponder why am I lost

I know were I've been
But don't know where I'm going
In this life of after tomorrow

Conclusional or conclusive
Delusional or illusional

Is this part of your life

I think with my brain
But yet, she tells me what to do

I love to read poetry in motion
I love to read poems that flow

But I'm caught in this crossfire
Because I must write about my life

I'll sing a little song
I'll sing a little song

It will be about me and you

I may do it right
I may do it wrong

But it will be about our love

About the way that I love you
About the way I hold you
About the way I touch you

I may serenade with a poem

I may do it right
I may do it wrong

But it will be a love poem

as my life keeps burning from my past
i see the fire below, which is my destiny

with the future of this time
as i leave this life behind
melting in the sandglass of time

controlled by powers unknown
suffice will never show

why do i believe in someone
who's rules are not right

no one ever told me
i would end up by meself

stretched out beyond belief
where theres no turning back

my life has now turned to stone
where i play games with myself

only to know that i would lose
to this paper trail of aftermath

how was i to know there was no heaven
and that i only believed that life was hell

i think i love
will you marry me

if you say you don't love me
lock the door and throw away the key

when i dream at night, i dream of you and me
please don't turn your back on me
your the only thing to see

we've come so far
please stay with me
which i pray to god for everyday

save all your love for me
give me something to believe in

in times of darkness, in times of pain
i then think of this lonely game
with a life without another

so my mind blows like the wind
shimmering through the leaves of time
the times of sorrow within my mind

i start to cry tears of forever lonleyness
one tear drop at a time

again i speak, only to myself
only to think of when i was young
i shined on like the sun

i now look to the skies and see nothing
but fragments of pain

as i cry out to the moon
trapped by the shodow at night
exposed by the light

i've worn out my welcome
by my own pressure
of wanting a life

you kicked me in the face and shoved me to the ground.

with only your words as you spewwed pain one word at a time.

will you keep on fighting to the end
will you keep playing this wicked game.

come down off your thrown
because one day you'll be alone

high and might as you think of yourself
somebody must change or you'll be on your own

you are the reason, i'm wasting my time

Feelings, is what they tell me

Low, is how my life goes

Lord, am I unholy

Control, is what they sell me

Despise, I let control me

Soul, is my own misery

Storm's, entertain me

The beast in me, is my only friend
Who helps me carry on.

As my hearts heart bleeds through my eyes.
Tears of my past now flows down my face.

Captured by my sins though life.
My skeleton's now dance around my head.
Hoping to leave this soul for dead.

With a tiring spirit from my hurt within.
My past has know caught up with me.
As I now pay for my sins.

Sins in my life, in which I have never paid for.
Never praying for mercy to someone I don't know.

I hear that his name is god and he will forgive my sins.
Who is this man and where has he been.

Is it true that your a loving man and you don't care if I sined.
And that you'll make me a believer and keep me free from sin.

I thought from my past, that no one cared.
I now love you God because you are the only one who cares.

It might have been a mystery if you weren't at the end.

Go back in your life when you were a 10.

So hot, so many friends, listening about your life and thinking how it ends.

Never thinking why, but now your close to the end.

You look at old pictures and think of the times then.

Would you change life or keep what was then.

You
Lying
Egotistical
Manipulating
Self-centered
Deceiving
Conced­ed
*****

See ya would want to be you and don't let the door hit you in the ***.

Oh, buy the way, don't bother calling.

How do you define accountability

Is it taking care of things on time or
doing what you say.

That's being responsible.

Accountability ??

It should be about yourself.

Something you want in life, to where it takes many task to get there.

You are the one that can only do it.
You knock off each task one at a time.

This takes time, the more you accomplish the more drive you will have to get what you want out of life

Accountability means accomplishment
to one's self.

This leads to self satisfaction.

don't be stagnant

**Faith without works is dead

Life's not a fairy tale.

There's no one skipping around picking daisy's.

It's about making a paycheck and keeping a gun out your mouth.

Literally speaking.

all i can breathe is this moment
all i can touch is this air

where everthing feels like the movies
the stars and the sky and this world

the tears keep on flowing
i just want feel your life

yours eyes of beauty are still staring
the feelings you brring at night

your the closest thing to heaven
and i want to be with you right now

i want the world to know you
but i don't think that they'd understand

the love the we had for each other
was one of a kind in this world

Spinning in my head, with nothing in my mind.

My thoughts are reactions as I bleed

As my breaths go no where, I engulf to breathe.

My shivering spine, thats attached to my mind.

A mind that's dying within my head.

My eyes then roll back as I'm left for dead.

In life we all make mistakes
No one is perfect

The harder you try
The harder you fall
Regardless of the circumstance
You hear that saying a lot because it's true

You either make it or fail
If wrong please tell me

Have you ever been hurt by the simple things.  A word, a look

Do you talk down to people or inspire them.

Do you have a passion or a goal

Do you believe in a reason for everything or live for the moment.

What are your symptoms for life.

Do you react or accept

Do you know the difference between feelings and emotions, pain and hurt.

What is your true meaning, your purpose in life

What is your will

Magic or Deception

Illusion or Delusion

Belief or Fate

Truth or Lie

Nothing or Faith

To Live or to Die

What's the Mistake

Blinded by my emotions
I feel angry, I feel helpless
So in love with you

Together we try to find unity
These feelings between you and me

Reliance is all we have
Together we will learn
A life for you and me

We may do things wrong
Don't feel angry or helpless
This life is for you and me

Together we are Strong
We have mercy, life eternally

But in the end, it's about love
The love for you and me

i don't like him holding my hand
he's in my soul and mind

his controlling features leave me dead inside
with no signs of hope, of love and pride

wanting from my own hurt, this pain in my life
i'll tell you everything, about my life

if you can show me how
to break me from sin

please tell me how, because i think i'm falling
give me one last chance, just one more look

help me find this in my hearts desire
break me from my pain of fire

from satin's grip within, which he keeps me falling,
from this life, which i don't understand

please catch me now, so i'll understand
give life for one last stand

so please come take my hand, my heavens friend
make me understand

with my arms wide

Let him lie to be with you....
Let him shelter you from the news....

Let him teach you his own way....
Let him show you his hating ways....

Let him be your only friend....
Let him beat you when he can....

Let him teach you a life of blues....
Let him beat you black and blue....

Let him tell you it's his ways....
Let him feel you when he says....

He'll make you cry everyday....
He'll make you love his hated ways....

I live my life from memories
Of people and places of what I want to see

Forever

My common ground is my own mind
The love I have may one day die

Forever

I see my life of how I want to be
A brief description I see in me

Forever

Life will come with ups and downs
The feelings inside should never die

Forever

Keep on dreaming and thinking
About your life

Forever