And the sign says "Long-haired freaky people need not apply"
So I put my hair up under my hat and I went in to ask him why
He said you look like a fine outstanding young man, I think you'll do
So I took off my hat, I said "Imagine that, huh, me working for you"

And the sign says "Anybody caught trespassing will be shot on sight"
So I jumped the fence and I yelled at the house
Hey! What gives you the right!
To put up a fence and keep me out, or to keep Mother Nature in
If God was here, he'd tell it to your face, man, you're some kind of sinner


he said, say now mister, can't you read
You got to have a shirt and tie to get a seat
You can't watch, no you can't eat, you ain't supposed to be here
And the sign says "You got to have a membership card to get inside" - uh!

And the sign says "Everybody welcome, come in, kneel down and pray"
But then they passed around a plate at the end of it all
And I didn't have a penny to pay
So I got me a pen and a paper and I made up my own ******' sign
I said, "Thank you Lord for thinking 'bout me, I'm alive and doing fine",


Signs, signs, everywhere there's signs
******' up the scenery, breakin' my mind
Do this, don't do that, can't you read the sign

**** these dysfunctional thoughts
that takes my thoughts away

i can only get mad at myself
why do delusions consume me

i know all the pieces should fit
but i can only point the finger at one

i need to rediscover my computations
or at least know the dangers of my path

trailing dreams from my days gone past
haunt me and live happily in my mind

**** this roll of film stuck in my head
if i could put a big magnet on my head
to erase my past i most diffidently would

it's burning a hole in me
this life of delusions

a life of only breathing

i had once feel lost
in a place i know well

maybe it was the spice i smoked
why did i agree to take a puff

****,
i didn't have clue
where i was at
or what day it was

we sometimes don't think what we do
or even ask our self should we do it

we always try to stay ahead of the game
but it only takes one time

that one unthought decision
can effect your life

to remissness in self pity
leads to nothing helpful

to cry about the past
does absolutely nothing

to say how bad you have it
is somewhat selfish

to say that no one knows what you go through
only means you don't have a clue

to say that life  unfair
what is fair, you tell me

don't you know that
you control your own destiny

don't you know that
you are the only that can create your problem

a problem is on a problem if you create it
your life is your on life you create it

if you don't understand
talk to the creator

our father who walks in heaven

the father
the son
the holy ghost

their all in one

LOVE

when he looks at her, he tries to read her
he thinks he knows what she is thinking

when she looks at him, she tries to read him
she thinks she knows what he is thinking

yet he tries hide his own thoughts
which he knows he very well indeed

yet she tries hide her own thoughts
which she knows him very well indeed

she stutters briefly when she tell little white lies
she blinks rapidly when she can't tell the truth

he stutters briefly when he tell little white lies
he blinks rapidly when he can't tell the truth

her body language tells all
his body language tells all

why does she think that she can constantly get over him
why does she constantly dig her own hole

why does he think that he can constantly get over her
why does he constantly dig his own hole

it's just what end do they want to be on

the receiving end or the giving end
it's not about winning or losing

it's  all about hurt for both
one want to feel dominate

why can't they be truthful
why can't they be equal

fabrication does come from ones imagination
imagination does come from ones thoughts

70,000 thoughts a day give or take a thousand

how many do you  react on
how many do you ponder on
how many drive you
how many hurt you
how many make you cry

how many are real
how many are make believe
how many are grotesque
how many do you care about
how many do you continually think about

thought

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a body of thoughts.

a single act or product of thinking; idea or notion:
to collect one's thoughts the act or process of thinking; mental activity:

thought as well as action wearies us.

the capacity or faculty of thinking, reasoning, imagining, etc.:
All her thought went into her work.

a consideration or reflection:
Thought of death terrified her.

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I would take any pain
to keep our love sane

i would hide any hurt
just to keep you smiling

i would starve myself
so you never have to hunger for love

i would hide any tears
to fulfill your dreams

i would travel a lifetime
to keep your happiness

you are the reason
i love
i smile
i dream

your are why i'm
so happy
so fulfilled
so loving

my life is built around you
for a lifetime and together

we can always love each other
through the true meaning of real love

to protect
to honer
through sickness
though health

to death
when we continue
our everlasting love

Lets be real, what do you want out of life
Are you happy where you are at in life

Do you feel unsatisfied and you want something different in life.
Are you uneasy about talking that first step towards your dream.

Are you truly happy are just content, just cruising in life
Do you ever say, ****, my life is so boring, day in and day out.

Do you not think of these things, because you were taught a simple lifestyle, brainwash to think, that you will be the person that you are or the person that someone else wants you to be.

life throws so much at us everyday, weather good are bad it's always there.
we all know that the only person that can truly drive you is yourself and the only motivation you truly get comes from your thoughts.

Find an inspiration that can push you. It could be from a mentor, music, a friend or a loved one.

This is so easy to say and yes so hard to do or even understand what i am trying to say.

One day it will come clear, not necessarily this writing, but your true purpose in life.

Picture yourself in a boat on a river
With tangerine trees and marmalade skies
Somebody calls you, you answer quite slowly

Cellophane flowers of yellow and green
Towering over your head
Look for the girl with the sun in her eyes
And she's gone

Follow her down to a bridge by a fountain
Where rocking horse people eat marsh mellow pies
Everyone smiles as you drift past the flowers
That grow so incredibly high

New paper taxis appear on the shore
Waiting to take you away
Climb in the back with your head in the clouds
And you're gone

Picture yourself on a train in a station
With plasticine porters with looking glass ties
Suddenly someone is there at the turnstyle
The girl with the kaleidoscope eyes

i've been running around in circles, hiding from my own lie's

living in my own chaotic delusions and insecurities

with thoughts of mellow drama and lonely dreams of sin

i think about my life and think of where i've been

i feel nothing but tension in a real life fantasy

i seek through my own shadow, a life with no dreams

i'll shed my skin to find my only find friend

i am just worthless lire, i am just an imbecile

screaming at every step i take, killing myself with every breath i take

leaving every promise empty, trying to find a center in me

mother mary won't you whisper something good i've done

why can't i sleep forever or start things over

You had something to hide
Should have hidden it, shouldn't you

Now you're not satisfied
With what you're being put through

It's just time to pay the price
For not listening to advice

And deciding in your youth
On the policy of truth

Things could be so different now
It used to be so civilized

You will always wonder how
It could have been if you'd only lied

It's too late to change events
It's time to face the consequence

For delivering the proof
In the policy of truth

Never again is what you swore
The time before

Now you're standing there tongue tied
You'd better learn your lesson well

Hide what you have to hide
And tell what you have to tell

You'll see your problems multiplied
If you continually decide

To faithfully pursue
The policy of truth

Someone to hear your prayers
Someone who cares
Someone who's there

Feeling unknown
And you're all alone

Flesh and bone
By the telephone

Lift up the receiver
I'll make you a believer

Take second best
Put me to the test

Things on your chest
You need to confess

I will deliver
You know I'm a forgiver

Reach out and touch faith
Your own personal Jesus

Feeling unknown
And you're all alone

Flesh and bone
By the telephone
Lift up the receiver

I'll make you a believer
I will deliver

You know I'm a forgiver
Your own personal Jesus

Reach out and touch faith

you live the future in fire
you love to break the law

which one can you trust

you love to bring sorrow
you love to bring pain

i want to meet you and shake your hand
you are the reason for change

we are all god's children
come on in

love is for real

Can you feel like a child?
Can you see what I want?
I wanna run through your wicked garden
Heard that's the place to find ya
But I'm alive
So alive now
I know the darkness blinds you

Can you see without eyes?
Can you speak without lies?
I wanna drink from you naked fountain
I can drown your sorrows
I'm gonna burn, burn you to life now
Out of the chains that bind you

Can you see just like a child?
Can you see just what I want?
Can I bring you back to life?
Are you scared of life?

Burn, burn, burn
Burn your wicked garden down
Burn, burn, burn
Burn your wicked garden to the ground

Can you feel pain inside?
Can you love?
Can you cry?
I wanna run through your wicked garden
Heard that's the place to find you
'Cause I'm alive
So alive now
Out of the dark that blinds you

Can you see just like a child?
Can you see just what I want?
Can I bring you back to life?
Are you scared of life?

Burn, burn, burn
Burn your wicked garden down
Burn, burn, burn
Burn your wicked garden to the ground

one time a thing occurred to me
what's real, and what's for sale?
blew a kiss and tried to take it home

it isn't you, isn't me
search for things you can't see
going blind, out of reach
somewhere in the Vasoline

two times and it has rendered me
punch drunk and without bail
think I'd be safer all alone
flys in the vasoline we are
sometimes it blows my mind
keep getting stuck here all the time

you'll see the look and you'll see the lies
you'll eat the lies, and you will.

it isn't you, isn't me
search for things you can't see
going blind, out of reach
somewhere in the vasoline.

DO YOU EVER FIND YOURSELF IN A LONELY PLACE
DO EVER FEEL THAT THINGS ARE OUT OF YOUR REACH

THERE WILL COME A TIME AND PLACE
AND I WISH YOU SAFE FROM HARM

IT WILL HAPPEN TO YOU
THE THINGS YOU DO TO THE PEOPLE THAT YOU LOVE

THE GUN IS LOADED AND I ASK THE QUESTION
CAN YOU ALWAYS STAY TRUE

THE LITTLE THINGS THAT ****
YOU NEVER THINK WHEN YOU DO THEM

COMING UP AND GOING DOWN
TEARING AT YOU BRAIN

A LITTLE WHITE LIE
YOU TELL THEM ALL THE TIME

YOU SAY YOU NEVER HAD ANYTHING TO DO WITH IT
YOUR PUTTING OUT A FIRE, WITH KEROSENE

SHUT YOUR MOUTH YOU LOSING FOOL
HERE COMES A LITTLE THING

LITTLE THINGS THAT KILLS
YOUR STONE COLD

a lot of people forget about the simple things in life
a quite walk alone
a good conversation
a caring feeling for others

a lot of people take things for granted
a place to live
a good friend
a job

a lot of people forget simple words
a good morning
a hello
a how are you

a lot of people think that their problem is the worst
a bill collector calling
a thought of illness
a love gone bad

a lot of people get upset at objects
when something won't start
when something gets in their way
when something hurts them

a lot of people take out their frustrations on objects
a door
a wall
a piece of furniture

a lot of people like to pass blame
you were suppose to do it
you never told me
you never listen

a lot of people create their own problems
bill collectors calling
the electricity about to be shut off
saying the wrong thing

when is it time to change
what does it take
what has to happen

a lot of these thoughts are imbedded in you
some people have to learn the hard way

where does one start
can one actually change
and will it cost something

yes, it cost time

it's about you being second
it's about reading
it's about a relationship

it's about one person
he's kind
he's forgiving
he's loving

and he has always been there

why do we never trust the right person
why do we deal with the wrong

do you want to change
do you want a different life

It makes me wonder why people have so many excuses

Life isn't fair to me
I was dealt this hand in life
It's not my fault
No one care's

Always wining
Nobody loves me

Give me a ******* break

I hear people say that God works in mysterious ways
God is not mysterious, they just don't know him

If your one of these people
******* grow up

Educate yourself
It's a great big world we live in

Plenty of, places, people and things, including jobs
Step out and be your own person

Sorry if I offend some of you
But you need to hear it sooner, then later

Excuses are tools of incompetency that build monument of nothing
And people who use them are seldom good at anything else

Good Luck!

Who's love has fallen

As she begged me to promise,
never to hurt her
never to leave her
and to always love her

It was our first love, yet we were both very young

The first time she touch me
The first time I touched her
The first time we made love

We both trembled with excitement
Something so different, so new
A new feeling for both of us

Constantly battling who loved who more

Listening to nothing on the phone for hours daily
With few words spoken, but just to hear each other breath for hours
Was more then enough, with no one wanting to hang up

Scribbling I love you's, initials and our names
on every school book and folder

She was always telling their friends how much I love her
While I tell the boys and act cool and say she only wants me
Yet no one knows about our young passionate love

As we cruise the lake pontchartrain in my muscle car
with my group of friends, each with a girl in hand following

As we go to school dances
Running the streets during Mardi Gras
Partying in the Big Easy
Barn fires parting on the Mississippi river

As we work on our cars daily
the girls are always there
So much teenage clean fun

****, we did it all!
And we were good at it
Quaaludes, *** and beer

How grown up we felt

Now those times are gone
Yet still very vivid memories

As we grew older we drifted apart

Many, many years later
I sometimes try to find her

Sometimes I do
Sometime I don't

When I do, we reminisce

Her married with kids still in the same neighborhood
Me still single with a great career traveling the world

How do so called human beings
beat a man in a cage

then douse the man in gasoline
leaving a trail of gasoline to him

light it with the man watching
while the the flames come towards him

being spit on and cursed be these ****** up losers
watching the man go ablaze

while other so called *****'s
laugh and watch him burn to death

one who says they will never know everything
who has an expanding mind

that looks for knowledge
and knows the true meanig of listening

holds the first key
the last key to life is

strive not to be a successs
but rather to be of value

If you don't know ask
No question is a dumb question

The words Yes & No
Are complete sentences
no need to explain

your thoughts are your own
your life is always second

be your own person
who cares what other people think

if you do nothing wrong
**** them

stay real
never put up a front
never lie

live to help someone
show that you care

if you need help
i can find it for you, seriously

i always open my mouth
step in if something is wrong

i talk a lot
I carry a wise mind

i am somewhat demanding
i don't mean to be overpowering, but I sometimes do

i don't *******
i keep it real

I diffidently know what i'm doing
I don't play games

And I am no better the the next person
I just follow a different agenda

love another

Keep yourself in a state of positivity  
Something will always be worse

Keep your head up
Communication

There is a flip side to everything
Complaining does absolutely nothing

Crying makes it worse
It's only a ******* dream

Showers in time
They will always be there if you let them

Distractions in life,
like bombs in the  night

Just splash it all away
Don't let it control your life

The only way to lose it is flush it all away
A freak of mother nature

Learn to sink or swim
Deal with it

It is sometime very hard
But the pieces will eventually fit

when they fit
wash the temple
rediscover

horror!
specified from a thought
of a meaningless life

pain in darkness
fighting every step

****** now the only passage
as it looms over you with frighting sights

why does this follow me over
deeply planted from something in my mind

trust in me, I hope is well
as I trust my self

things of non belief
I run but just can't move

feeling like I am frozen in time
with these feelings following me

locked up in myself
feeling nothing but agony and tragedy

a walk away and try to let it go
as I walk away closing my eyes

Waiting, watching the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech

As he opens the door, she rolls over
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over

She lies and says she's in love with him
She dreams in color, she dreams in red

Talking to herself, there's no one else who needs to know
Memories back when she was bold and strong

And waiting for the world to come along
Swears she knew it, now she swears he's gone

She lies and says she still loves him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man
Yeah...

She loved him, yeah... she don't want to leave this way
She feeds him, yeah... that's why she'll be back again

She can't find a better man

all these bugs
i got bugs
i got bugs in my room
bugs in my bed
bugs in my ears
their eggs in my head
bugs in my pockets
bugs in my shoes
bugs in the way i feel about you
bugs on my window
trying to get in
they don't go nowhere
waiting, waiting...
bugs on my ceiling
crowded the floor
standing, sitting, kneeling...
a few block the door
and now the question's:
do i **** them?
become their friend?
do i eat them?
raw or well done?
do i trick them?
i don't think they're that dumb
do i join them?
looks like that's the one
i got bugs on my skin
tickle my nausea
i let it happen again
they're always takin' over
i see they surround me, i see...
see them deciding my fate
oh, that which was once...was once up to me...
now it's too late
i got bugs in my room...one on one
that's when i had a chance
i'll just stop now
i'll become naked
and with the...i'll become one

Lonely as the darkened light
Drifting by the shores

wounded by emotions
with no words spoken

as you walk in your own thoughts
through thunderbolts of lighting

drowning in you waves
little secrets turn to gray

smile-less laughter
dancing with a life

with your frozen words
little secrets or big ones

all the stories you tell
empty meaningless words

is it something you take to your grave
lose you mind over or just live your life

deepest lies
you sometimes can't high

back doors and hiding thoughts
you try to leave behind

but nothing seems to fit
isn't it something

you don't won't it
but what can you do

nothing worse
isn't it something

the waiting is driving me mad,
I try to put this past behind

I see myself like a picture
I just want to be free

Free from what I hold
These thoughts inside

That I must hide

there's nothing to do
but I can't keep up with myself

under my tongue and eyes
i hold the presence of my anger

traveling through my emotions
trying to find something

beating my head on the wall
trying to break this confusion

I see these needles that make me bleed
I feel is if I am pin cushion

filled with pain and pity
boasting my pride

but deep down inside I hurt
never knowing laughter or love

my feelings are gone
my excitement is gone  
my drive is gone

the only love I have
is for the dope man

what's the truth
how do I escape from myself

endless ****** up behavior
I must lose

this is not for you
this is not for you

is it sacred
what comes from you

dedication,
with no power
is nothing to do

this is not for you
this is not for you

True innocents,
can only come from a child that does not know life.

A child that will cry,
from not understanding what they do wrong.

I child's life,
is something that is very special.

It should be nurtured, cared for, and taught real love.

It should not be disciplined or condemned.
It should be cherished, taught, inspired and motivated.

Always remember your actions in front of your child.
Because what you do, they watch.
What you say, they duplicate.
What you teach by not thinking, they learn.

You may not think they watch or listen.
But, yes they do.

Their curious, the what's , the why's, the how come's
are part of every child's mine.

We were once there and some of you may not think
your like your parents.

But your only lying to yourself.

There is something in all of us, that is in our parents,
Weather good are bad it's there.

Guide your children as if they are a fine jewel.
But actually they are much more then that.

It's a life, our future, the one's that will be watching over us,
when we fall back to a child's mind in our elderly years.

A good night, the best in a long time
A new friend turned me on to an old favorite
Nothing better than a dealer who's high
Be high, convince them to buy

What's my drug of choice?
Well, what have you got?
I don't go broke
And I do it a lot

Seems so sick to the hypocrite norm
Running their boring drills
But we are an elite race of our own
The stoners, junkies, and freaks

Are you happy? I am, man.

Content and fully aware
Money, status, nothing to me
'Cause your life is empty and bare

You can't understand a user's mind
But try, with your books and degrees
If you let yourself go and opened your mind
I'll bet you'd be doing like me
And it ain't so bad

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