You have me stuck on
repeat playing this love
song all day long
each day I profess
my secrets in various
tunes describing
how magnificent you are
how special you are
how much you mean to me
I wonder if you will ever tire
of the continual song
until you recite back a melody
complimenting mine
mirroring my emotions
by simply saying ditto

each limb stays still
stuck to the soft sheets
not willing to move

my stomach rumbles
with no desire to eat
no longing for water
but anger of emptiness

never ending thoughts
repeat with a huge
to-do list accumulating
creating jitters displayed
by bouncing limbs

I am conflicted
unsure of my true feelings
but fully aware of
my ill health and
my wishes to get
so much done

warmth invades
each particle
each desire
each breath as
i long to change
like the soil
sprouting new buds
giving life to
magnificent beauties
clarifying for me that
the time is now
the season is here
for every step i make
holds purpose

every time I act you speak

giving suggestions based

on perceptions you see

never aware of the entire

interaction.

I attempt not to take it personally

but my instant reaction is anger

and embarrassment, as if I’m wrong.

the words you choose are poor

so I wonder if what you say is really

meant for me or the mirrored you.

He heals me with

Every encounter.

Holding on to

Each moment

As if its the

Last time I will

See his

Magnificent soul

Eyeing me.

the bird chirps, flapping
its wings to soar.
it's sole purpose living
each day, breathing and
eating for survival.
the bird lives simply.

the trees stand tall
as roots dig deeper,
grounded. leaves appear
in cycles contributing to the
intake and release of nourishment.
the tree lives simply.

the human wakes with many
contemplations, desires, goals.
numerous expectations all
constructed from illusions.
a definitive role continuously changing.
the human lives complexly.

What changed?