God is going to bless me with so much
I don't know when and I don't know what
But I know God is going to do great things for me
He is going to bless me with beautiful visions
And a beautiful future
I am blessed and I am recieving blessings every day

I have many things to look forward to
And I can't wait to see what will happen 
God, make me extrodinary
Guide me in the way I should go
Make me shine the way you need me to shine
Make your home in me and renew this temple

It’s hard to say exactly how I was feeling today
When I saw you admit that you had actually made a mistake
You humbled yourself and admitted you were wrong?
You admitted you messed up? Mr. Perfect? NO!
I was glad for a little while, pleased that you had finally fallen
Pleased that you were hurt in the same way you hurt me

Later, my heart softened
After I yelled at you in my head
Reminding you that you made a mistake when you left me
Your life fell apart when you left me
You are where you are now because you left me
Back to feeling sorry for yourself
Back to the drugs, alcohol and girls
Broke, no life, and about to lose everything

My life is OK, better than yours anyway
I’m still here, but you’re too proud
I still love you, but you’re too proud
Drop your guard and humble your heart
Admit that what you’re doing to yourself is wrong
What others have done to you and me was wrong
That the path you have chosen to live is wrong

I told you that you were going to do this
But you never listen
You never heeded my warnings and dove in head first
I won’t rub your nose in it, I think what you’re going through is punishment enough
But I don’t feel sorry for you either
My heart hurts for you, which leaves me a little bitter and confused
I feel some compassion for you because I love you
But these feelings also confuse me

I should be leaping for joy that you’re hurt
I should be malicious and excited
But I am not
When you truly love a person, you hurt for that person
These are new feelings for me
And I do not understand them
I do not understand this feeling of being compassionate
for someone who hurt me so badly!
I guess that shows how much I’ve changed
And how much you really mean to me

I’m getting tired of writing these monologues in my head
Over and over again I write them!
Only to become so aggravated that I cannot speak them
Even in my drunken bliss
I am tired of repeating myself
Over and over again

The things I long to say to you but do not dare
These are things I must keep to myself
And you must figure out on your own
I want to yell at you! I want to scream at you!
Throwing my fists electrically through the air
But it would do no good
You would shut down and not listen
Yelling would get us no where…

I forgot how much you like to drive
You always said that driving gave you a sense of freedom
It made you feel better
Blasting your music and singing
The smell of burning rubber coming off the tires
The wind on your face when the window is down
And the wiper blades squeaking as they wipe off the rushing Seattle rain

Driving fast helps you breathe
Calms you down, helps you focus
Just continue talking to me
And drive back to me when you’re no longer sad

I love it when you surprise me
Showing up at the café to say, “HI”
Taking a chance that I may be working
You came in the other day on your own accord
No one was with you this time
I was on your mind and you wanted to say, “HI”

It’s one of the best days I’ve had since we broke up
It shows that you’re coming around
The frustrating part is that you’re still fighting me
So determined to be single
You’re fighting your feelings when you should really just let go!

I haven’t felt single this entire week
Even though we broke up

I didn’t feel single until today
When I saw your status change
Who’d have thought that a status change would be the breaking point?
The point where you almost feel like giving up
The point where your heart actually feels broken
And there’s a pain in your stomach

I’m past the point of being sad
And I don’t quite feel empty
And I don’t feel like I’ve lost anything
But I do feel angry
I do feel like I’ve been ****** around
I do feel lied to
And that pit in my throat is forming again
Making me want to *****

I still have faith in myself and our friendship
But do you?

Just being you, you leave me breathless
Looking at your picture makes me smile
Holding your hand walking next to you
Makes my heart skip and sing
You make me sing and dance

Lying next to you makes me feel complete
Everything about you makes me happy
The wave in your hair
The way your little nose comes to a point
Your beautiful powder blue eyes
The goofy smirk you make when you’re drunk

I love how even in our distant silence
Your heart still speaks to mine
You’re still crying out for me
Still hanging on, Holding out
I only want to make you as happy as you make me

Your prose greatly outweigh your cons, you said
I adore you so much that I can’t even begin to make a list of cons
Because they are things that I can see past
Or that will change with healing and time