The gravity that once held me up has me
falling
And I can't help it because I fall in
The love you keep
taking
From me so I take in
What I can still grasp as I'm
walking
With you to this paradise so we walk in
Together only to walk out
parting
Ways because your part in
This relationship was never there, constantly
lying
Just to see if you can lie in
My heart that's already
broken
The pieces that came back as one broke in
Several more pieces as I'm
dying
And still you never open your arms so I can die in
Them.

usually it's always been
me, my pen, and paper.
finding the exact words
to express how I feel.
but it seems to be
I'm at my most difficult point.
my dreams are ******* up
I'm in so many unfamiliar places
With so many unfamiliar faces.
my thoughts are consumed
of so many things at once
I can't seem to find the reason behind thinking anymore.

this feeling called love,
maybe I'm just no good at it.
you're supposed to be able to love yourself
and I do
but it's the things I do
to be completely in love w myself
is it right?
To put in fake hair
because my deepest desire
is possess what I don't have.
To put on chemically processed make up
just to make my eyes stand out through my frames
because if I could, those frames would be in two
and maybe I'd feel more beautiful.
To put my checking account on empty
trying to keep up with the latest trends
and sometimes then
I'm not satisfied
because then it comes down to
personality.
And that I won't even begin to touch upon

This infliction within me
I'll live with it.
For now.
I dream of your face
Of the relief I would have
If I could just touch you one more time,
even if it's just to slap you.
For all I wanted was a sorry.
Guess you couldn't own up to your actions.
This infliction within me
Makes my heart skip a beat.
I don't need you in my life
But I have this pain aching for you
Aching for something you won't give.
Did you ever love me?
I wish you'd just tell me you didn't
Then I could move on with my wounds
This infliction within me
Can't stand to know that you'll stick to your lies
Keeping them right by your side
Makes me want to break down and cry
This infliction within me
Just wants to move on
Just wants to forget it all
Within due time
I tell my heart
However, she'll just keep skipping that beat
Until that time comes.
This infliction within.

The love stored in my heart for her
Can only live there for so long
I feel the doors ready to bust open
I feel the love trying to escape
To find it's way to
Intertwine with her.
So perfectly we fit
So eyes open we see
So mouth closed we say
I love you.

Speaking of deeper
How deep is your mind?
Can you travel with me
deeper than you can see?
Open your eyes
and adjust them to this
new level with me
We're just searching for the deeper meaning of
Everything
Just searching