Key - Hello Poetry

Key Sep 2012

Nobody
wants
to
listen.
Nobody wants
to hear me.
The same thing, I repeat
Over and over again.
This girl.
This girl.
This girl.
That's how it starts.
But she made me lose my mind.
I no longer know what to do with myself
My thoughts,
they're killing me.
They're consumed of her
and all the wrong she did of me
It's driving me insane.
I'm losing motivation
And sense of determination
A bitter taste is sweltering in my mouth
Every word I speak has venom.
Not sweet venom.
Bitter, blatant venom.
My heart, frozen.
Feeling cold all the time now.
What has love done to me?
Screaming it from the top of my lungs
Better yet, I should ask
What have I done to myself?
All the blame befalls on me.
My stupid, idiotic decisions
A hole and a rock
Sounds like my best friend right now.

Key Sep 2012

If I could, I would.

1 hour later
The tears still streaming
Knowing I was a fool
And staying.
What sense was that?
Knowing that you kissed me
And then kissed her
Only to kiss me again.
Why did I stay?
In front of my eyes was the truth
Yet, I overlooked it
I listened to your lies
Over and over again.
I never rued anything in my life
But if I could,
I would,
Take that relationship back.
Take that kiss back.
Take that I love you back.
Take that “yes” back.
I should have gone with my gut instinct.
I should have listened to my heart
When she said no.
Funny when the brain and heart agree.
That never seems to happen
Yet, I ignored both.
Karma pushed me through
And I swear I will never cheat on another girl in my life.
I will never play her.
I will give her all of me.
I will not shut down.
I will not hesitate.
I will be hers
And only hers.
If I ever find that lucky girl.
She’s out there I’m sure
Just not now.
She’ll be the one that I tell I want to marry
I will put that idea in the air first.
She’ll be the one I say I want to be with you forever
Although I don’t believe in forever
She’ll be my forever
As long as she’s mine.
I will be hers
And I will treat her the best I can.
Karma had to lose herself in me
Just for me to grow up quicker.
Just for me to quit the games.
Just for me to slow it down.
Just for me .
The tears never flowed because my heart was broken.
The tears streamed because I understood all the hurt
From all the girls
Who let me in
Who’s hearts I caressed then crushed
Who’s minds I played tricks with like I was Houdini
Who’s eyes I looked into and lied to
If I could, I would
Apologize to every single one of them.
If I could, I would.

Key Sep 2012

Untitled

I got a lot on my mind
I'm dying to let it out.*
This relationship has gone sour
The sweet venom losing it's edge.

I'm opening my eyes to a new reality
How could hope fail me
I believed in you & I
It's ashame to watch it die.

Checkers, chess, hopscotch,
I played those games when I was 12.
You drag me around like a rag doll
A piece in a game I don't want to play

Love is faith
Love is hope
How can we overcome if you don't have both?
How will we survive when mine continue to die?

We're holding on by a thread
I see the splits
I see the rips
This is done for, no more bliss

Letting small things go
When they really continue to build up
Creating frustrations in me
I don't need to know.

My lover, my best friend, my everything.
That's what you're supposed to be
Yet, I feel like just your "*****"
And I'm not down with it, you see

Trust, trust, trust, and truth
Lying about small things
Why should I believe you?
Without trust, why should I love you?

Taking my innocence for granted
You'll rue that
Taking my heart and slamming it
What's wrong with you?

Acknowledging your love,
Well I'm still looking for it.
You're my karma.
I'm the one that got away.

Key Sep 2012

Dynamic Love

Lets go back to the start
Where we first met
And everything was fine.
I felt at an all time high with you.
Cloud 9 existed without the need of any substance
Just your love was enough
Eyes low, heart racing
Your smile, just your smile
Sent chills down my spine
The love felt so genuine
So true
So real
Your touch electrified it
I knew it wasn't a dream then
What we had I cherished
I cherished like my favorite stuffed animal
The time passed, and passed
Your love changed
My need for you died
It blew out like a fire lit candle
To this day I wonder how such love
True love could vanish before my eyes
And every time I think about it
I feel a drop in my soul
A pinch in my heart
And I hear laughter in my head.

Key Sep 2012

Pain & Faith

I happened to fall off
Once I saw I couldn't have
What I thought belonged to me
My heart ached
Like my soul was dying
My mind laughed
'Cause she already knew
What was going to happen.
A fool, my heart has played
Numerous times.
Hopelessly feeling like you're the one
A sad reality I live in
In my dreams you shall remain
With the faith
That one day
The seams will burst.

Key Sep 2012

Untitled

This magical feeling
Inside your gut.
It gave you wings and made you fly.
Makes you feel like forever exist.
Slowly, it failed.
The high expectations became
Disappointing failures.
Continuous walking back and forth.
Pain & ****-ism,
the era it became.
Oh how thou Love fell like humpty dumpty. The pieces couldn't be put back together again.

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