Still as I wait for your memories to fade...I find myself spending days thinking of you.I hate it...I wish it gone I wish I never met you...But then I wouldn't have felt love.I wouldn't have felt your sweet kiss Or calming hug.I would have never discovered that someone could mean as much as you mean to me...
Oh His name was Joshua... The simple task of writing his name is hard.... Oh Joshua he had more value then I had realized... He had left me... Time and time again... I tried so hard to hold on.... To make everything right.... I swore we were meant to be.... I still believe.... Our memories were in to large of quantity to let go... Oh yes.... There were bad memories..... But oh yes.... There were good ones as well... The bad all came pouring down one after another.... He had left... He returned.... Leaving me more confused then ever.... I don't think he knew that I had cried everyday without him.... So I thought he'd leave me again so.... I cut... Putting cuts where only I could see.... Then when he left again just as I suspected... They got deeper and they got visible... Oh but don't get me wrong... Somewhere between the cuts and the tears... We shared some beautiful moments... How he'd stare at me... How he'd make me laugh for no good reason.... How he made it seem like he wasn't in his own pain... How he hid his scars...His pain.... How he'd hug me.... How we had kissed and both feeling what I believe to be the feeling... Of Soul-Mates.... We shared our laughter... We shared the pain.... We shared love... Though I always thought of his love to be lies... There were times I believed.... There were days I had cried.... There were days he wish he had.... But in the end Joshua Is gone and I remain here alone... Still thinking of him even after all this time....
The rain makes me feel sane and today the rain has to fade and now I'm insane and I'm stuck feeling pain because you've sprained my heart it'll never be the same I'll try to restrain,my hatred for you is contained will this feeling ever be sustained?...
The truth about love is It hurts you,Your not in love if at one point you didn't doubt either yourself or the person you claim to love...The truth about love is There are good times and there are bad...But if it's real love it won't matter as long as your together...The truth about love is You don't see it coming and if you do,you can't avoid it.You were suppose to fall in love you were suppose to hurt at one point...Your suppose to doubt it...Your suppose to feel like it's a mistake or like you don't deserve to be loved..Everyone deserves to be loved....Everyone has a soul-mate but humans tend to not see when or soul-mate is right in front of us...And then they leave and we believe we've lost our only chance but they'll return if it was meant to be...
I fear falling in love because I fear the broken heart, I fear the broken heart because I fear the pain, And I fear the pain because I'm unsure if it'll ever fade
In your eyes what am I... In your eyes am I a monster? In your eyes am I a beautiful woman? In your eyes am I a nuisance? In your eyes what am I... Am I smart? Am I funny? In your eyes do see the woman you could love forever? In your eyes do you see someone to love or someone to hate? In your eyes what am I?
You said you loved me from the start, you stole my heart, I was your game, The only one to feel pain, I think I've gone insane, your the only one to blame.
I cried in the rain with hopes you'd stay... I cried in the rain wishing you'd make the pain go away... I cried in the rain and knew you'd be my soul-mate... I cried in the rain knowing you'd be the only one to love me.... I cried in the rain wishing you'd always be mine... I cried in the rain when you left me... I cried in the rain when all the good thoughts went away... I cried in the rain when I lost the thing that made me whole...YOU...
It felt like I gave you everything... I gave you my heart to love with, I gave you my smiles and laughter, I gave you my arms so we could hug, I gave you my lips so we could kiss, But I never got the thing I wanted most, YOUR HEART...