I've learned that happiness
cannot be found in the form of a little
purple capsule.
I've learned that Pisa will have to wait until next time.
I've learned that the third mushroom
held in my sweaty palm was not as
big a deal compared to the other two opening my mind.
I've learned that a part of me
died that night where we ****** in a
room with no furniture.
I've learned that life is work and that
the molotov cocktail of Dubrah and eay mac
that came spewing from me left an orange tang
upon the floor.
I've learned that pain is better than numbness
and that jabbing a sewing needle repeatedly in my arm
was an educated decision.
Most importantly I've learned that together we are better than alone.

I let my demons swallow me whole
Then ask of them to let me go
But it's all too late
And I've lost control
Of my own tangled soul

The Girl Who Walks Past Me In The Hallways Everyday

I've noticed you from the start
The way you walked into the hall
With your head bowed low
Denying any eye contact
(You still do that, though)
And I wish I could tell you
How amazing you just look
So you wouldn't walk past me—
That same pair of feet
Feeling hesitant to leave

We are complete strangers
But I feel like I've known you for years
The way you try to hold back your tears
The way you try to contain your laughter
The way you untangle your earpods at the bus stop
The way you trip over your own shoelaces
And got mad at yourself
The way you make me feel
So completely into you

You are dull, oridinary, nothing special
But that's not what I see
I've always hoped you'd walk down the hallway
Looking at tired faces and weary eyes
Instead of rugged plain white shoes

The way I see, I could hug you tight
And hold you close, tell you
"Everything will be alright and I am here for you"
The way I see, I could tickle you
Tell you silly jokes and make funny faces
To make you laugh even harder

The way I see, we could share earpods
But you wouldn't even need them anymore
I can sing your favourite songs for you
And when you're tired, do not hesitate
To rest your head on my shoulders
I could keep you company on long lonely bus rides
The way I see, I'd tightly knot your shoelaces together
In case you fall for someone better

I can be the one to prove your typical
"I can never dream of someone thinking of me,
Dreaming about me and wanting me" quotes
wrong
I will tell you how much I want to be with you
Every minute, second of my life
I will tell you how much I wanted to dream of you
In my sleep everynight
I will tell you how much I love you
And just how much you mean to me

You,
The girl who walks past me in the hallway everyday
Hold your head up and look me in the eye
*"You look really amazing today"

Being different wasnt her choice
that she is special,said her maker's voice.
That wasnt the kind of 'special' she thought
through life- with the fact she fought

Always seen in a different way
Never felt special,not even for a day.
Assimilation was a term- to her unknown
nothing but pitty towards her was shown

A knife of the table was taken,
inhaling the last breath-only then she was awaken.
**A new life I shall begin,
in a new body- I will fit in.

Raindrops on roses
and making men
bump their heads
to keep us
staring out of our windows
or stuck in our beds.

Tears merely

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