When eyes grew out of my skin.
Every pore saw what you did.

And then they are still there.
Looking out for another one.

Every hair is sticking out.
To know the change in the air.

As I stand fully aware.
But my mind's nowhere near.

Tucked inside a shell.
So that I can't tell.

When you tear me apart.
You won't touch my heart.

It's swimming somewhere safe.
While you take your share.

Of what you can rip off.
My body is just flesh and blood.

And my eyes they all cry.
When you're done.

But I survived.

Summertime rolls around
Yet I am in my bed
Surfing dreams
Where I can feel my existence
Without consequences
Just imaginations.
Imagine not having to imagine
To just live.

Soft like a dandelion
Blown away by the wind.
Which carries your cries for help.
Crushed by the hands that feed.
Heaven had mercy finally.

Pain,
Constant pain.
Oh can you feel the rain,
As it falls from the sky.
Let it wash away my sins and sanity.
For awhile i just wish to be lonely,
In my own world.
Lost in a precious trance like sleep.
The weight i carry on my shoulders is heavy,
Too many unanswered questions
My thirst for knowledge is replaced by the fear of knowing.

Focus
Even for a second
Feels hot on my skin.
i shy away and retreat.
It's called limelight for a reason.
glaring and sour.
Full of intensity.
Not meant for my sensitivity.
Hence in the shadows, i sway.
nobody eye's to prey.

I have changed.
But I still look the same.
And I have the same name.
The same friends.
The same past.
The same judgement.
The same shame.