When you find comfort in failure
Means you've dripped empty from
betrayal
Means your soul has been filled with pain
That drove you to failure lane
That your struggling to stay sane
when you've lost all cause
When you're reminded every minute of all your flaws
When disbelief slowly tip toes
And survives off your misery
But you've grown cozy to this
Less efforts are made to live
Lazy as the ******* don't give
Comfortable when everything is screaming for help,Cause you've gone deaf
When the only thought  that gives you comfort
Is 'it can't get any worst than this'

A grasp for hope but not for normality
I grasp for something more in the world
Why ever desire something such as normality?  That’s like asking for less of something, anything in this enriching world of ours
See we have all the tools, all the elements and wondrous things in this world
And us as foolish
Truly foolish humans
We strive for lack of greatness
We strive to settle in and be
Content as we are
To be simple-minded
To hold something so magnificent only to say we should put it down before it breaks
To grasp for something, anything other than normality
Is also surrendering to the cold, hard fact that you will never be satisfied
You will never quench the thirst you so desperately crave
You will see the chaos of the world
You will see Evil’s eyes stab strangers
As well as the ones you love
The upstanding citizens will become
The pirating thieves deep in the night
Lit by the beautiful bright moon
A helper, lighting the thieves’ way to safety

“CLINICAL DEPRESSION”

You try desperately to cling to a familiar happier past but the hopeless future
  
Is all that you can see through the tunnel of your vision.  The black demon Misery tears

from your soul all that is light and happiness.  It is then you feel the full Measure of your

emptiness bearing down upon you, as the overwhelming sadness of This world assaults

your senses.  The dawn brings a black flower of despair that blooms quickly and drinks in

your fading sanity; you are left as though dead, Staring into an abyss, that drains all

energy and motivation.  Though you ache For it, no comfort or reprieve is found; you are

helpless to defeat even the gravity  which holds you to your bed, now you’re only world.

Friends and loved ones Beseech you, “pull yourself together” and “it can’t be that bad”.

Nevertheless, even Well-meaning love and compassion cannot penetrate the darkness that envelops.

Finally, as you feel the rope tighten…

So deadly, so treatable. Learn the early signs and get help.