You are the light that shined on my darkest days

The answer to every prayer that I have ever prayed

A sign of hope that you'd hear people say

From here on out everything will be ok




I can compare you to a fluke accident

Because I found you while in a worst predicament

On your white horse you arrived in astonishment

And saved me from an absolute abolishment



Words are not enough to describe

The overjoyed feeling I feel inside

To have finally found someone to confide

And tell the whole world that you are mine

Won’t you come and comfort me?  Blind me with angst, and fill my eyes with tears.  Bathe me with dismay, in your pool of fears.  Embrace me with regrets, caress me with hate.  I will not question you at all, for this is my fate.  Constrict me with your tendrils, do it with glee.  Hold me close in your darkness and never set me free.  Tell me lies, sing them like lullabies.  Let me sleep encapsulated in a blanket of demise.  Make me dream nightmares, the scariest ones. Tear my soul into pieces, then burn them in a thousand suns. You are my friend, my lover and my wife.  Ever since the day she left my life.  You’re the greatest company I have ever had.  So please stay eternaly, and make me sad.

Forever yours,

Kiss me like you mean it, touch me like you do. Let it linger in the Meadows,  and sweet like honey dew.  In the heat of the summer, you and I are subdued. Twisted and contorted, stuck together like glue. Your tenderness, endearing. passionate out of scale. Love me excessively untill my skin turns pale. Never let me go, never be exhausted. Paint me in red all over, untill we are encrusted.

“I can still feel the warmth of your body pressed against mine.  We were watching fireworks by the lake, during Canada day, there was a slight chill in the air but I didn’t mind this at all.  I had my arms wrapped around your waist and the back of your head was resting on my chest.  We were both looking up in the sky in awe, as it exploded with multiple different shapes and colors.  That moment for me felt like a dream, it felt like my life could never be better.  It was like something that you could only read about in Romantic novels or see in movies. I didn’t know that such a feeling was ever possible. To experience such an ethereal, unmoving moment in your life, and it didn’t even compare from what I had imagined before.  The connection between two people with different views and beliefs, somehow found their way to each other, standing there on the beach frozen in time while everyone around were loud, noisy, and full of movement.  You and I were perfectly still, and we didn’t care about anything else that was happening around us.  With my heart beating uncontrollably, at that very moment in time I knew I was in love.  I wanted to stay in that moment forever, I didn’t want to leave that spot that we were standing on and go back to my ordinary life, I just wanted to be there with you until everything else just faded away and that the only thing I could see or feel or hear, was you.  But like every great moments, it must come to an end.  The last firework exploded as a big sphere of light in the sky and people applauded.  I remember how amazed and astonished you were when you looked at me and exhaled “Wow! Did you see that? That was amazing!”  I love how your face look like when you smile, it wasn’t pretentious or forced.  I also love the sound of your laugh, which highlights your smile even more.  Like a child giggling after hearing a silly joke, it was true and innocent.  I never knew that one day, all of those would disappear.  When I was with you, I thought that I would feel this way for the rest of my life, but like those fireworks, they do come to an end. I know, someday I will find someone, and I also know that someday I will fall in love again.  I would probably find the love I truly deserve, but the saddest part about it all, is that it wouldn’t be with you and it would be different.  It won’t be the same love, the love that taught me how to feel this way in the first place.”

Time is an essence but still I miss your presence here
Thought I paid all my penance and erased all of my fears
I find it hard to condone the reality of your absence but still
I have a heart, dry as a bone, with all these memories to ****

It’s as if neither heaven nor hell could ever be an answer
To the questions you left behind that I must now ponder
Was it me or was it you?  
Was it Fake or was it true?

Unsurmisable this epic tale that hasn’t reached its end
Insurmountable a two headed beast of guilt and hurt that I must tend
A cry that echoes from the deepest darkest bowels of the earth
To the farthest, widest, vast heavens
A sigh of loneliness that is incomparable with any tragedy’s worth
And worst of all, a heart that’s broken

A wish
I watched the sky tonight and saw a shooting star. Excited, I placed my hands in my pockets, closed my eyes and concentrated on making a wish.  I ask for happiness to be fulfilled for a person that I truly and sincerely care about.  I wished that she would find peace of mind, that she may find the courage to face the day regardless of all the hardship and dismay it offers.  I wished she would find the courage to smile, maintain delight and keep living life to its fullest extent regardless of the world presenting itself as a grim, iniquitous and relentless person.   I wished that she could find the strength to cope, after experiencing several, unfair and traumatic hardships of everyday living.  Most importantly, I wished that she would find Love.  After making my wish, the shooting star finally disappeared in the sky.  Feeling at ease, I felt content with my wish, with full knowledge that this person I was wishing for would never end up being with me. After exhausting all possible ways to make her fall in love, I took the chance as a last ditch effort to make her happy and wished upon a shooting star. I know this well, From What I’ve learned before, life never gives what you earnestly want, but only what you need.  I waited for several moments for another shooting star so I could make a wish for me.  But nothing was showing.  It made me realize that maybe I should stop wishing, but start praying instead, so I turned to my faith, knelt down, placed my hands together, closed my eyes and concentrated on a prayer.  I prayed for happiness to be fulfilled for me, the only person that I should sincerely care about.  I prayed that I would find peace of mind,   that I may find the courage to face the day of all the hardship and dismay it offers.  I prayed that I would find the courage to smile, maintain delight and keep living life to its fullest extent, regardless of the world presenting itself as a grim, iniquitous and relentless person.  I prayed that I could find the strength to cope, after experiencing several, unfair and traumatic hardship of everyday living.  But most importantly, I prayed that I would find love and finally I added:  Dear God,  if I can’t find love with another person,  please give me the tenacity to find it within myself through your words, wisdom and eternal passion.  Amen

an eternity to wait and a life time to fulfill

a picture of your face in my heart is instilled

with my endless nights and my lonely days

u came from nowhere & shined like the suns rays



a new hope for my withering soul

death was upon me, i could hear the bell toll

i was lost and hopeless looking for a sign

and there you were as the universe aligned



if only you know what this means to me

i may not be with you, but i thank you eternally

i will pull the moon down and all of the stars

just to be with you wherever you are



i cant find the words to say

or even explain what i felt that day

there is no poem that i could ever write

how you changed my wrongs into everything right



but all these words i could never say

because i fear that it might just scare you away

although i really wish that you would feel it too

when i stare into your eyes to let you know it's true