still in my heart this I say
as I close my eyes and drift away
slowly I feel your touch once more
I hear your heart beating like before

in a dream so real, I wished I stayed
like a character in a show that I once played
it started with laughter and a few cheers
nothing else mattered when I had you near

you said your lines and I believe it was real
got me in so deep with everything I feel
but as the show went on it all turned sour
the curtain closed down in the final hour

you took a bow, as I walked away
then woke up this morning with a smile today
to think that it was all fabricated in my mind
what I once was seeking, now I find

the truth hurts, so I must accept
now live life where there is no regret
our time is short, we don't have lots
joy will be found, when the madness stops

I love my Hair That falls down my face, I love it even more when it shines with the suns rays

I love my eyes, They’re dark and deep, The only time I really close them is when I fall asleep

I love my smile, That I show to the world, I like Spreading happiness with it to every Boy or Girl

I love my skin, every  freckle and mole. It reminds me that I am the one me. Heart body and soul

I love every single part of me, That makes me “the only me” In a world filled with so many others, These things that I possess are the only thing that matters

They’re not wrinkles they’re laugh lines, They’re not yours, they’re mine, It is God's blessing, a gift from heaven. Another me out there, will never happen

In this darkness I rest in this solemn fate

This empty space surrounded by hate

No peace, no serenity, no salvation

No hope, no love, no solution



Unaware if my eyes are closed or open

With A heart, battered, bruised and swollen

The walls are closing, I feel constricted

Words like brail are all encrypted



I clenched my hands till it bled

From hurtful words often said

A mouth, dry like the dessert sand

filled With spoken words that none understand



“Help!” I screamed, “Get me out of here!

save me from this dread and fear!”

But nobody answers, nobody cares

No sense in yelling, if nobody’s there



I wish I could cry, but my eyes wouldn't allow

I didn't know about this up until now

as the dust chokes me like the hands of death

Yet I still live, gasping for my breath

like a story that finished with lose ends

cuts like a knife with a wound to mend

one thousand nights with tears falling

with only one name that he is calling



in the middle of the dark all on his own

the memories flashes back in a mellow tone

with every beat that synch with his pain

a bitter sweet symphony inside remains



with all his might he lets it go

like a water fall he lets it flow

there's no easy way out from this predicament

nothing else will work.. not even a replacement



as time passed by he realized all this

all is worth it even if sometimes you miss

for the pain he feels will soon subside

and look for that happiness he once found inside



so he closed his eyes and said these words

"nothing else is more important in this world

but to keep pushing forward and to be free.

once I lived for you...  now I live for me"

Dear Love,



Although I am not sure if we have met, I never stop believing that someday we will be together. I am happy to say that I can’t’ wait to show you all of the songs and poetry that I have written just for you.  Just to warn you though, they’re all cheesy and corny, but that doesn’t mean that I didn’t write it from the heart. It’s just that everything that I have seen from movies, or heard from the radio or couples that I know had inspired me to write what I truly feel. It made me fall in love With “Love”, and I always wanted to feel this with someone and I’m hoping it’s you…. Some days I wondered if I ever came across you before. I wonder if you were that girl that served me ice cream when I was walking down by the lake, or could you be a stranger that accidentally bumped in to me as I was boarding my bus in the morning. Or maybe you’re somebody that I have known all my life but never really looked hard enough that you were right there and that you were everything that I have been searching for all along.  Whoever you are, I just want you to know that I’m looking forward to everything that we would go through together, like the time I would surprise you on your birthday, and got you that dress you’ve always wanted. Or those long walks on the beach which I honestly find as a big cliché, although I do enjoy it, (kind of like everything that I’m writing in this letter ^_^), or maybe you want to be adventurous and bike down a meandering path from a place out of town. Whatever gets your kicks, I’m always down for it, coz I know I would do anything just to get a smile from your face, or a laugh which is even better (I have a terrible sense of humor). I also look forward to the hard times, like you getting jealous from this new girl at work, or complaining that I don’t spend enough time for this relationship, saying that I’m always busy and I’m not doing anything to make it better. I just want to make that promise now that whatever happens, I know that you are the only one for me, and I would do anything to fix it, even if the situation that we would be in would be so grim and so out of rhyme, that the only thing that would make it better is to call it quits.  I would make it work out, trust me I will find a way.







I hope that you won’t find this letter strange (because I am), although then again I truly believe in voicing out my feelings, and right now I have no one to share these overwhelming thoughts that billowed within my heart and soul for the past 5 years of my single life and I really think that it should come out. I also believe that everyone has a soul mate and writing this letter which is directed to fate would lead me to the right person.  so I’m just putting it out there.  People can call me a looser. That is absolutely fine.  That makes the 2 of us if you have read up to this point (JOKES!!) But in all seriousness, I’d rather shame myself writing this than to stay silent and not letting the world  know what I have in mind for you and especially, for us. So whoever you are, I thank you, for spending time reading this letter from a person that is wishing to meet you soon.







With all My Heart,



K

I bled myself dry today, here on my floor.
I've watched the shadows dance from my ceiling, all the way through my door.

The same one you walked out from, and the same one you closed then.
The scene in my mind that plays over and over again.

I could hear the clock tick, but I'm still inanimate.
Down here Drowning in a puddle of memories and regret.

Though I do feel like it was self inflicted,
For my heart is binded and restricted.

A poison for pleasure, your kiss is criminal.
Blurring the line between lust and love, so subliminal.

To want and need you but yet to refuse and resist.
As the image of your face spray out of the gapping wound like mist.

But what am to do, stay within this crime?
Even if You chose to leave, without reason or rhyme?

No, I shouldn't. Like a storm it will past.
Weather it, for sure it won't last.

Find my feat again, she's not worth the tears.
Stand up again, and forget all my fears.

2 choices really; first lie here and die
Second is, patch your wings and fly.

the stars are shining bright, underneath this pale moonlight
2 bodies, still like a blanket of velvet sky

in this very confined space, all doubts and fears are erased
a moment bare with no despair

and the air that breathes within this sheet is shared
with 2 hearts beating, they both declare
to an unknown force that feels no remorse when it's no longer there.

in this moment, no shed of torment could ever compare
to a bond conjoined by fate. no lies, no hate no sadness too great,
could ever be faced by 2 but virtually one. and when all is said and done,
what remains is virtually, None.

the stars are shining bright, underneath this pale moonlight
2 bodies, still like a blanket of velvet sky