Black
The smell of nightmares
Melted
Frozen in time
2:00
November
Sixteeth
We left it all there
And there it still sits
Motionless
Black
Melted
We can never go back

We left it there like normal
It was all so normal

Now

It's over
All over

I will follow you down
Your grave bent and furrowed
If I keep up my ways
Golden brown my lungs

What's down there
You'll show me
You will know by then
Dig mazes for us to follow
And we can build a life in the dirt

When I visit you are still
The ground falls under my feet
I know you have tunnels already
You can show me decay
Stash away our jewelry
In hollowed out dirt shelves

Like every great
You had to go first
To dig us tunnels
And make us a mud house

Why didn't you tell us
Battled and bruised
Fragile heart
Tell us to leave you alone
Your hard work should have paid off
In the garden or buying yourself something nice
We ****** you dry
It's all our fault
Your heart broke
And then you died

Why can't songs end at the same moment the engine shuts off?
Don't leave me to go through this day singing unfinished verses
At least let my favorite part come to end
Let's sit
Everything else can wait
This is a moment I don't want to miss

Our every thought is drizzled
with tots and children and kids
With a cherry on top of guilt
Wondering how we did

Every move
Always momentous
Should we do this, or this, or this

Smiling to peers
Always friendly
Will accept you with warm regard
We're judged mostly as "mom"

A house as fragrant as pumpkin pie
With pictures on the wall
Something to dust
When we remember to forget who we are

Here is the blank space I dread
I am prolific and insightful
In my head
Getting it down on virtual paper
Easier said

I see what you've done
You made me a mother
To take care of a boy

I’m half the girl I was when you met me
I’ve grown up and away from you
And you’ve grown down to me

No funny games today
I have things to get done
Go find someone else to play

Go be the boy that I've been groomed to oversee
And I’ll be here when you’re done
I'll be doing dishes or laundry

I've got surprise for you
I have three children
And you’re not four