I thought the older we got
the more the age gap would close
52 - 35 = 17

But
You're forever old now
52
and I'm the age you were
35
When I was
17

On the cold floor I can't go any further
I'm low
I am in it

These days are frightening
I can't see the light
But the floor feels right

Maybe they'll think no one is in here
Or I'm here, but don't notice no light
Or I just am having a mom moment
And I have no place else to be

I don't.

Ego
Synapses
There is something here
It yearns for you
Its thousand year twin
How
When I’m all bundles
Nerves
Wire
Bones
Circuits
Skin

Evolution so much
I can read this
And think this
And feel

Cloned

Forgotten


What ever genius in my singular creation
You
Give me God

Lists and errands
I'm not lists and errands

I am here
I am today
Mounds of feelings and fibers

More than a mother

My head is a checklist
It's all a checklist

Are these quick words
even written
right?

It won't ever stop

Meet my tears

With little hands you crawled from my womb
But you're not a baby now
You could be anyone
You're made of stardust and dinosaurs
And people I've never met

I gaze at you looking for some resemblance of anything I know
And you raise your brow and give me a dead stare
Because you find it weak of me
To love you so matter-of-factly

You can see
I don't know anything
Or  you

She figured me out by 15

We're all infinite
And doomed