I just thought you should know that I can hear it in your voice.

The emptiness, the memories,

The thought of what-once-was.

I thought you should know that you're not fooling anyone anymore.

I thought you should know that

I know

You want to die.


I thought you should know that I don't miss you nearly as much as

I thought I did.

I thought you should know that my heart

Doesn't beat the same anymore.

I thought you should know that I gave up on love

The day you walked out.

I thought you should know that you never left my mind.


And I thought was happy the day you came back.

Again.


I thought you should know that

You attacked me like cancer.

And I hate it.

I hate that you're in my blood.

I hate that you're eating away at every inch of me.

I thought you should know that by hating you, in turn,

I've begun to hate myself.


I thought you should know that when they find me

On the bathroom floor,

You shouldn't act so surprised

When you discover it was your name

I carved into my arms.


I thought you should know you killed me first..

And I just cleaned up your mess

For the last time.

I should have ripped
The stars from his eyes
And tossed them back to the moon

I should have stitched
Our wrists together for eternity
So he could hold me in the dark

I should have listened
To all those slaughtered petals
Because in the end - he loved me not

I overdose
In those bright blue eyes
Every night
I'll drown in your ******* veins
If only you let me

Black tar cannot compare
To the plague caused by
The taste of your name
On my tongue
The scent of your breath
In my blood
It's hell laced with love
And I just can't ever
Get enough.

It's broken you know,
My heart, my life, my soul
I knew another
Could never love me
The way I loved you

But what are lovers long lost?
What are shadows in the dark?
What is it like
To dig a hole in the emptiness
Of yesterday?

You play me like a fiddle
And I let you
I let you
Pull me apart

Like it was nothing.

Well, maybe it is..
I'm hollow now
I gave you everything
But the skin off my back

And still you crave
Every inch of me
Until every breath
In my lungs
Once belonged to you

How can I ever be myself
If you caged me in hell?
How can I ever move on
With my veins knotted
Around yours?

How?

How can I ever get this bitter taste
Of loneliness out of my mouth
If you keep walking away?


I kissed the Devil's lips once
And he tasted sweeter than you.

All I ever wanted was
another hit of you
just one last whiff of tragedy
the scent of my blood on your skin.

All I ever wanted was
proof you thought of me
when your mind went quiet
and the shadows ate your heart.

All I ever wanted was
every word you spoke
tattooed on my wrists
so I could finally **** us both
with one swift stroke.

And when you two
Entered my room
All I could think about
Were her cherry lips
Wrapped around your ****
Her crimson hair
Tickling your chest
All I could think about
Was your hand
Enveloped in hers
Your words
Circling in her head
All of those promises
You whispered to her
In the serenity of 4AM
That you were recycling
From my tongue.

Does she know?
Does she ask you what I once
Meant to you?
Have you ever dared
To mention my name?
Or has she just merely
Encountered a stranger?
Am I nothing now?
Does she know how
You turned her into a criminal?

Stealing all of your intimate moments
Away from me.
Cat like thief.
And I'll claw her ******* eyes out.

I thought maybe
If I talked to you
Enough
Laughed with you
Enough
Maybe even
Loved you
Enough

That you'd one day
Find a way
To love me back

My mistake.

And the more you
Pushed away
The more I
Needed you
Close

When strangers speak
Of marriage
I still think of you
When lovers speak
Of nights on the lake
I still think of you
When shadows speak
Of the horrors within
I still think of you

And when the last pill
Slides down my throat
I still think of you
*To quicken my death