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 Oct 2014 kayla eggfoot
decker
walls
 Oct 2014 kayla eggfoot
decker
i cant ******* breathe
i imagine you as the wall
that generate blood and ******* anger
all ive wanted was to be good enough for you
i can never
and will never
you never saw my first steps or heard my first ******* words
but somehow you tried **** for the first time when i was barely able to know who you even were
off and on in the picture
18 ******* years and you would think you would finally care
but a needle in your arm has more power over me
im so sorry i could never make you happy
make you proud
im ******* sorry
but im not
how the **** am i supposed to be sorry for someone who does not give one **** about me
your body and your family are giving up on you
and thats not stopping you
have fun in hell
Feeling a little hopeless again;
Lost in depressing thoughts
Of the brokenness of this world.
Yet all I can do is sit here,
Feeling sorry for myself
Instead of taking a leap,
Trying to make a change.
What can I even do?
I'm just an insignificant girl
Who lives in a fairy land.
What to do besides let
The world pass me by
As I try my best to stay sane
When all that surrounds me
Is complete and utter insanity.
Can I take a stand?
Can I be brave and join the madness?
I guess all I can do is try.
You never know how much
One seemingly insignificant girl
Can do in a big world.
© Michelle Brunet 2013
 Dec 2013 kayla eggfoot
Alicia
Hand me another gift sweetheat
How sincere
I adore the idea of materializing our love
Or is it even love
Or lust
Or anything but lonliness
Because I don't like cold sheets
& neither do you
But I think we both know
The sheets are always cold
Cold with the thought
That maybe it's not the sheets
It's us*
a.m.
It hurts me to know that I'll never be the one to listen to your painful past. I won't be the one to hold you when you're hurting. It won't be me to wake you up at 4 in the morning because I had a bad dream. I won't get to feel your warm body next to mine when it's thundering outside. I won't get to hear you sing in the kitchen while you bake my favorite dessert. It won't be me that runs to you complaining about how hard school is getting. You won't be the one to come comfort me when I learn how boys can be jerks. I won't get to look out in the crowd during my first game and see you sitting in the stands. I won't get to surprise you on your birthday by making you breakfast in bed. I won't be the one sitting by the front door, waiting for you to get back from your long trip. I won't be the little girl you always tell your friends about. I don't get the chance to sit on your lap and listen to bedtime stories. I won't be the one supporting you as you follow your dreams. I won't be able to grab your hand when the scariest part of the movie startles me. I won't get an attempt to destroy dinner and go with you to pick up Chinese. I'll never have the chance to ride in the car with you on those long road trips. You won't get a chance to yell at me for staying out to late. You won't have the chance to watch me grow into the young lady you wanted to be. I won't get the chance to tell you 'goodbye' as I leave for college. I won't be the one to whisper 'I love you' with tears in my eyes. I won't be the one to come back and visit on holidays. I will never be the one to tell you that daddy burnt the turkey for tomorrow's dinner. I won't be the one to call and say I talked to mommy yesterday and told her I needed to see you both. I won't be the one you spend your last moments with. I don't get to be the one to carry on your name and be the woman you taught me to be.
It was magical to see him crack
It was not a symbol that his youth was gone
But a glimpse of the innocence behind his façade
Sounding cynical, but loving the show
So put together, seeming inhuman, but when emotions came
Sickly interested and fulfilling that craving
To see one at a downfall
It was magical to see him crack
Hold me in your arms,
Kiss me till dawn,
With you I can do,
Life,
Cause the world likes to see me, without scars and wrinkled skin,
I'm the supposed perfect image,
But with you I'm tousled hair and pimples,
Bruises and pain,
I'm dripping in vain with agony and I cannot show any part of that,
Or else they won't love me, And I refuse to let them in,
But you
Oh you,
Accepted and explored and challenged me,
You gave me victory and I was lost before,
Not that you found me in my woods, but you gave me comfort.
And that's all I ever needed,
Was for someone to violently and selflessly think about me everyday
 Dec 2013 kayla eggfoot
Kagami
I have a blog now for people with anything on their mind. If you are one of those who do not know who to go to or what to do, message me here or visit my blog and leave a comment in my story post. Let someone know what is going on and possibly find others as well.

http://i-am-okay-now.blogspot.com/

It was just made a few days ago, so I am the only one that has done anything so far, but if word is spread, I will do my best to help in any way I can.

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