I don't even know why I expect you to relate to me
You and I are different, both of us have grown up differently
You are a stranger, at least in my eyes
We have never met before, and yet my words have struck you enough that you continue to read this.
Sure, you and I are different, our lives lived on our own.
However, with words, could you see things through my eyes?
Can we truly relate without ever meeting?
Maybe, just maybe you continue to read my writing, my scribbled thoughts, because they aren't just mine alone.
But maybe my words can speak your thoughts and feelings too

You can't escape it
It lives in us all
Some can in fact control it
But eventually it will be our downfall

Whether it be through misery or through pain
Maybe through greed, or through loss
Like a storm, first it sprinkles then comes the rain
But what will this emotion cost?

Will it cost us our happiness? Our joy?
Maybe our family? Possibly a dear friend?
Maybe a child's anger will cost them something as simple as a new toy.
But, point is, despite costs and control, anger will always win in the end.

Remember young rabbit,
**Run for your life, for the world is cruel.

My mind. It hurts.
My thoughts are eating me alive.
Sleep is not my ally tonight.
Nor has it been for some time now.
I fear closing my eyes because my dreams haunt me.
Opening my mind to face a distorted reality that villainizes me.
It's all my fault
That's what I hear my subconscious say anytime something goes wrong.
And it eats me alive. Killing me slowly.
My family is dysfunctional, past dysfunctionality.
My friends, must be make belief because its only when things get rough that they vanish.
I keep my problems to myself, at least for the most part.
I don't wish to put that burden on anyone else.
But yet I offer to take their burdens too, I only wish to help.
Because I know how awful it can be to feel alone with no one there.
Especially when you are the one who supports everyone else....

Falling down a rabbit hole
Deeper than I had ever dreamed
I fear this is my story
A once normal life from what it seemed

I live a life of deception
Afraid to tell the truth
I have no true recollection
Of who I once I was, because I washed it all away

I never answer to my name
For now I only go by Kay
It seems alien to me when someone says it
I wish it would just go away

I hurt the ones I love
When I begin to fall
Because when they try to help me
I try and take it all

All I am is selfish
Blinded by my own greed
Pretending to be selfless
Feeding off of those who succeed

And when you are done with me
I'll just go make some new friends
That shower me in pity
Until that next friendship ends

Because my life is falling
In a downward spiral
And I don't have much time left
Before my own health disease takes it all

I stand here like a doll
A plastic smile upon my face
I'm only here for your entertainment purposes
But don't worry, you can't hear my screams
For my face is frozen and my screams are muffled

**** with mother nature
And she's gonna get ******
She don't always act like a lady
She's the one who handed you the gift of life
And she can always take it away
Oh look up in the sky
It's about the size of Texas
Oh ****, it's the end of the world
But don't you come crawling to me

He is my guardian angel
And I, his little devil.
He is my night in shining armor
And I, his soft voiced siren.
He is my cupid
And I, his poisoned apple.
He is my superhero
And I, his crazed villain.
But through all of these examples, he was raised in the light.
And I was raised in the dark.
But with no ease, his inner heart is too strong.
Singing me as he attempts to rip me from the grips of the shadows.
My flesh burning for I have never touched the light....

I think you should be grateful
About this breakfast I've made and brought to your bed
But "Who the **** are you?!" is what I received instead.

I'm as fine as a glass of wine. That has been tipped over, shattered and spilling its reddened liquid across the counter top.