What do you say to a child in pain
when nothing can ease the burn,
          the hole,
the enveloping wave
          of darkness?

Words are not a chain
to fastly anchor
          one's soul,
to cling, to save,
          to harness.

Time is the only healing rain
to calm the churn,
          make whole,
to fill the vase,
          drown the sharpness.

And love. Mountains and oceans of love.
This is all I have to give.
My words are not enough.

5/15/14

dear technology, you are starting to ruin our lives
we're just a little too invested in these laptops and hard drives
something has been lost and we need to get it back
we have lost the ability to truly feel and interact
social media has held us captive and kept us down
immersed in a cyber sea, we are starting to drown
but when I'm far away and i need my loved ones near
just a few clicks will show them I care
but its hard to wrap emails in ribbons and bows
what we would do without Facebook and twitter, no one knows
Dear technology sincerity has become a thing of the past
people start looking for love on computer screens so nothing lasts
nothing is private, all data is open to the universe
chords attach us to the world and that's how we converse
to these gadgets we've fallen prey
we need a social media free vacation to get away
on this journey of life I cant derail from its tracks
so hey technology, I'm gonna unplug and relax

I've never been that girl
You know what I'm talking about
the girl with the perfect hair and flawless body
contoured full lips and sparkling eyes ..

I look at myself and I see none of that
what do I see?
i see a girl who's sad and terrified
a girl who's drowning in her own fears
a girl who sometimes feels uncomfortable being in her own skin

I wanna feel good about myself again
I miss the days when I was a kid
when I didn't give two ***** about what anyone said about
but I grew and so did my insecurities
I need to start paying attention to myself and my needs

but don't get me wrong
I know there are things about me that are unique
like my quirky laugh and other things
I also know that I have to accept how things are
I can make it easy on myself or make it hard.

sometimes we need to stop and take a good look at ourselves
stop and just take a look in the mirror
are we really who we think we are?
the time we take judging people we should judge ourselves
we all have a past that we're not proud of
believe I know
I've done some things that I wouldnt even dream of doing now
but that's why the past is the past
and the future is the future
every new day we face
we get a chance to make things right
we get a chance to change our fate
and create our destiny.

see it's not that I still want you
although part of me will forever be in love with the thought of loving you
I will forever be in love with my thoughts
of you turning into the boy I thought I knew
but I can never forget you
I can never forget the day you came into
my life and changed my universe
your witty conversation and deep voice were once the highlight of my life
but now they're just a memory
you taught me how to love
and you gave it abundantly
then one day you took it all back
i will never forget that day