The truth is i am afraid
Afraid of being too close

My heart beat accelerates when you're around
Hands begin to tremble as i entwine my fingers

Evading your eyes,
Shivers surge down my spine as
I recall how you whispered "mine" against my neck

How long can I hold my breath
I need to breathe

How long can i pretend?
There is no end

Hands clasped over my mouth
to keep the whisper of your name from escaping my lips.

Heart beating faster
Thighs clenched together

Your proximity humours me

Fleeting moments
memories fading

Although you may never understand
Those were some of the best times of my life thus far.

All that remain are  silent flash backs
That leave me smiling and shaking my head at what was.

It creeps up on you
No it creeps up on me
It is unwelcome

Overwhelming as it makes it's presence felt
I did not know that this is the hand that would be dealt

Sharp pains begin to spread
Arms go numb
those who do not know are fooled by a smile

Yet how long can it disguise the pain of a poison,
One that i can not deny

I miss you

Yet i stay silent
because you need it

Never let the child within die
She is the moon
She is the sun

She is the key to your Happiness
She survived the bruises
She survived the pain

Do not let Fear **** her
Live

Breathe she cried
Just breathe she begged

Banging her fist on her chest
Clutching her throat suffocating

Drowned by her own tears
Held captive by her own fears

Breathe she whispered
You need to live.