Good morning, good afternoon
Dear teacher I wish to see you soon,
You are like the shine of a star,
You are like a lemon but never sour,
You are bright with a unique spark,
Without you everything is dark,
Without your sunshine and your helps,
There wouldn't even be Michael phelps ,
In you there rests a soul,
Hot and cozy like a delicious soup bowl,
Your scolding is a clue of care,
You aren't partial but are totally fair,
You are better than superman,
You are a youth he's a gran,
Dear teacher love you most,
For you with respect I raise a toast.

A mother's love is never faltering.
A mother's love is never halting.
A mother's judgement is never erring.
A mother's dream is to supply all needs.
A mother's goal is to instill good deeds.
A mother's commitment, is to the one, that
she loves!
A mother's reward is thanks, for all of
the aboves!
This mother says 'she will always protect
you all your life'...'Just to see that there is
no danger or strife'.'For a sharing of love
is my duty to you'...'Your happiness, i'll
guarantee to make, you safe and true! '
'I'll kiss those owie's to make them not hurt'...
'I'll buy you nice things for school, maybe new
shoes and a shirt.' 'My love will stay forever
and ever'...'To you i'll never say never! '
'My love for you shall never fade'...'And
that's the promise that i've made! '

You tell an innocent joke
About cutting or suicide
Not really knowing that
I'm sitting next to you
Just wishing I would
Die

You say that cutting
Is the funniest thing
In the world, why
Don't you tell that
To that poor hurting
Girl

All you ever do is
Laugh about
Suicide, but do
You know how it
Feels, to wish that
You would die

You tell a harmless
Joke, but to me its
A another cut, it
Reminds me that
My life is in a rut.

You laugh at me for
Crying , you say that
I'm a ***, my heart
Grows a little smaller
It’s  beat begins to
Lag.

I'm A Freak, Not a Poet
I want to write my thoughts
I want to express my mind
I want to write down my feelings
I want you to read what I feel
I want you to feel what I feel
I want to create an expression
That makes me a freak, not a poet

I don't study much
I'm not over-educated
I'm not William Shakespeare
I'm not Oscar Wilde
I don't know anything about verses, stanzas and syllables
I don't know poetry
I'm just a strange girl
I'm just a freak, not a poet

I love you
I have to thank you
I thank you for trying
I thank you for being so kind to me
I thank you for trying you best
I thank you for trying to make it work

But we both knew
We both knew
That this friendship wouldn't work
In the end with both got hurt even more than necessary
Because you see
I'm broken and you aren't
If you stay with me you will be broken with me
You will get pulled down into the pit of despair and sorrow
With me

I can't have that
I'm broken you aren't
If you stay dear, you will be taken down with me
To suffer and be punished for you crime
I do not want you to feel that

I wish for you to stay
And help me heal
But you can't easily mend my broken,
Shatter heart
I'm useless now with out it
I'm sorry dear
I do care for you
I do love you
You are like a sibling to me
But I do not wish to hurt you
After all Broken hearts are hard to mend and fix
And Broken Friendship usally don't work out

The voices keep stirring my twisted memories
I’m never alone, never alone, never at peace
The memories occupy the insanity......
I can’t release what controls my mind.......
Am i insane?
Am i ever to walk by myself?
The voices abuse
The voices
The **** voices keep me screaming in silence
So much violence, so much torment, so much pain
The voices keep me tied to memories i cant let go.......
Please let me go, let me go, please let my insanity blow away
Is there anyone
Is anyone there?
I know my mind is slipping to darkness, slipping into an abyss
The insanity always wants to reminisce, keeps my pain fresh
How much longer?
How much more can i take?
The voices ****, voices won’t escape, my memories are my fate
I’ve lost all faith, no one can rescue me, is this the way it has to be....
These **** voices won’t let me be free, they won’t release, my mind is under siege

I am abnormal,
I might seem strange.
But if I showed my true colors
you would think I was deranged,
derailed and horrifying,
I might seem strange...
But I'll tell you one thing, I am not a freak show.
I'm not a freak show.
He’s not a freak show.
I'm not a freak show.
He’s not
and
I'm not just another freak show.
We’re not here to amuse your sick needs
and
sit there until you ridicule me
so much that my heart bleeds...

Who told you I was prepared for this
I didn't
and
I sure as hell didn't ask to be known this way
because I will scream it out loud,
that “I am not just a freak show!”

I smile to keep from crying as I lay my head down tears that I been holding back rolls down into the palm of my hands fist full of tears and a heart that will not mend.

The tears that I cry is not always for you but for a broken heart or two, as I sit here with nothing but a memory of you my tears full up my fist and there is nothing that I can do.

I go insane, crazy sometimes, trying to keep from losing my mind, eyes wide closed and can’t see what’s in front of my face because the tears has blinded me.

My fist full of tears has away to remember me of what life is and hope it was meant to be lived so please save me from my fist full of tears and this empty place so I can't be easily erased.

I have this little friend the name I shall not tell.
She wanders through my mind like a maze.    
She the only thing that keeps me company.
She’s a really good friend,
keeps the happiness in me like it’s nothing.
I think she wonderful.
She sits in my mind,
trying to find ways to make me miserable.
Well.... that little friend is the voice in the back of the head. She makes me have wonderful  thoughts, but who cares about that.
My little friend is my little friend that I love and cherished like a my friend I would have real life.
Friendship is like a scrambling puzzle
she is the other half of me
when i see her it is like seeing the sun smile at me
she make my day brighter
that fills our life with a light so bright
we might fight and argue
but we still stick together
she has a heart of a lion
she is the other half of me
life without a friendship is like a sky without sun

Dear fake smile you have been great.
Nobody could see what was straight
I mean they all thought I fine
I felt lost in the line
But every time those tears came you were there
My fake smile that is always here
I took a deep breath and smiled
I said I'm ok but I lied
I was dying inside everyday
And I'm becoming worse all the way
I need someone to save me
But how can they help when they can't see
Cause my fake smile hides all this pain
I'm really starting to be insane
Cause I'm hurt very hurt but yet I'm trying to be strong
I can't hold on for too long

But I guess my fake smile will once fall of and I hope I will be brave enough to cry cause tears Is all I have .......my fake smile

Deep in my mind lies a labyrinth,
And that’s where I seem to be lost.
I don’t know if I want to find my way,
I just don’t care no more.

I don’t belong in this world,
I don’t feel at home.
I belong somewhere else.
But don’t know where to go.

I’m trapped in my mind,
Where my nightmares live,
I don’t know if i want out,
The longer I stay the more I like it in here.

don’t cry...
don’t need to say
how much it hurt today
don’t cry...
thats your so lonely
wishing you could just fly
don’t cry...
he’s not of your worthy
when left without an apology
don’t cry...
wipe your tears off ,let them dry
when he pull off your heart and throw it away
don’t cry...
over someone left when promised to stay
over someone left you mesury
be happy...

Creating spaces
Clearing the distance

I fight with my all
Head and heart fold
Under the resistance

I become defiant of my own existence

Ignorance is bliss
Isn't it ?

Magical movements
I change the scenery with my eyes
So that I can see it clearer
And not be so blind

I feel scattered
Thought process *******  
I feel out of time
Off balance
And out of luck

Just one of those days
In my own head space

Nothing of yesterday
Nothing that can't be replaced

Heart’s in the clouds
Heads a disgrace

Need to fuel
My energy
As I drain every trace

Just feeling Down
Don't really need a reason

Like I am a thousand piece puzzle
Just scattered in pieces

I hold no reasons
Tomorrow I'll be different

I can guarantee it
Writing how I feel it
Creating spaces to deal with it
Distance to feel it
Today was an opportunity
And I made a meal of it

The day's almost over
and I deal with it

They broke me.
I withstood the ultimatums,
The disapproving glares
And choose my own path
With my head held high
But they've broken me.
I countered letter with letter,
Warnings with decisions
And clung to the fragile thread
Of myself, my whole self
But they broke me.
I bathed, changed, fed,
Clothed, comforted, taught,
And kissed my sweet babies
With a blessing from God
Without a single regret.
But now they broke me.
I stood by his side
For 5 years,
Through thick and thin,
Rough and smooth,
With smiles and hope and confidence.
But I'm broken.
They emblazoned scarlet letters
On our chests
And passed our ashes around
To be picked apart under a microscope
And while he cried in my arms,
Betrayed by the Faith and Love
That had been his salvation and refuge,
I broke,
Shattered into glass and soul.

shes a freak
everyone calls her that
dares to be different
doesn't tow the line
so she’s a freak
dresses like no one else
talks a cool lingo
she simply dares
it bothers others
she’s nothing like them
you know, those "normal" ones
so she’s a freak

At night I sit.
I sit alone, with no one by my side.
At night I sit.
I sit alone,with tears of Anger and Pride.
At night I sit.
I sit alone, and scream to the heavens Oh why!
At night I sit...
I sit alone.
My fears I try to hide.
But when I sit,
I sit alone with thoughts that won't subside.