Suffocation is the only word to describe this feeling
It's heavy in my heart
It's filling up my lungs
It's your lead hand on my throat
It's the words clogging my windpipe
It's the betrayal that holds me under
This is the purest form of suffocation

That side of me
Its ugly and disgraceful
Manipulative and jealous
Insecure and angry
Fragile and sharp
To bury this side
To smother it
To cut it into pieces would be a breath of fresh air

My heart has control of my tongue
And the poet has heard me speak
Trespassing with his words of silver
And a lock on his heart
He waltzes onto the stage again
Wearing his drunken emotions like a robe
Dripping with resentment
I am like all the others
Another stepping stone
Or a cliff to jump off of
Another reason to drown
Barb wire crowns
An electric throne