No matter how many mistakes
You’ve made
I’ll always be the one to blame

Sure I put no effort into this
Guess I don’t love you
Guess I’ve given up on what you miss.

I was only 15
She was so much bigger than me
But I’ll “have to understand, Kate.”

I understand perfectly.
That no matter how hard I try,
Something will always come before me.

And you swear,
You try your hardest.
But I don’t believe you or the promises you make.
And I’ll carry you
The farthest
But they’ll always get first on what of you to take.

And I
I’m done being so
Heart broken over something I can’t fix.
I’ve tried
But in my mind I’ve always known
That I will never have you the way I did.

You don’t know what’s going on.
You have no clue who I am.
But when it comes down to it
I’m not sure you’d give a ****.

You asked me to follow the sunset
And never come back
And I would have followed you anywhere
You had empty valentine hearts
On your skin
I didn’t know how
But I was determined to fill them in.
See I’ve been feeling empty
And you’ve got so much to give.
I’ll never know if you leave
I’ll never know if love exists.

We were connected by the mouth
Knew we only had now
And that yesterday was better than ever
My heart was aching
My trembling hands
Trying to find a grip on forever.

I know I’ve messed this up
I know I’ve got some flaws
I know I make this hard
But I’m trying to fix me up
You see it’s hard to go on
Gets harder every day
I know I’m not a hero
But we’re the best we’ve got

You dug your hand
Right into my chest
and tightly grabbed my heart

You squeezed until
It burst right open
And blood came pouring out

You ripped it out
And threw it down
Making sure it wouldn't bounce

You lit a match
And started flames
Watching ashes blow in the wind

My heart was yours
And you destroyed it
You wouldn't even tell me why

But the worst part
About all of this
Was the constant smile you wore

So God and I broke up
I just couldn't do it anymore
I felt like everything I did
Was just wrong in His eyes
So I left Him
And I knew it hurt him
But I needed to go
Even if it hurt me too

After the break up
I did what I wanted
Even if they were bad things
I felt free
But I felt empty
I didn't see a purpose
In living anymore
So I tried to stop

But it didn't work
And when I woke up
I cried because I missed
My old best friend
And I just felt
Like He missed me too
That He wouldn't let me go
Because He needed me here

When I spoke to God again
I expected Him to be angry
But all I felt was love
And I wondered silently
Why I ever thought
I could just be happy
If I let Him go
But now I know

So God and I made up
And life is still hard
But I always have someone
To listen when I cry
And He never turns away
Some people call me crazy
They say He isn't real
But I just don't see why

In the dark I made a mistake
Taking shots  
Just not a break
I guess
I said yes
I think about it every day

And my eyes will take surrender
I can’t put my life back together
I’ve learned love is suicide

I see
Nothing but a blur
And my lungs will always burn
Why
Can’t I
Let that ugly piece of me go
I
Don’t want to think
A single thought about me
Why
Can’t I
Let that ugly piece of me go