ridin' wild with the broken down trannies in zoot suits n' water pistols aimin' to capture the sun from ten feet underground i swear it's darker than my gut insides crawlin' around in the glitter and filth i caught me diseased wealth heartache and small pond fame i caught me a sugarless daddy and a stage name i caught me a gutter and a song but still i wonder  how to walk but i can sure sweet talk sssssssslither love

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.........................................................­. he broke me

Why did I have 2 turn in2 a woman
Why couldn't it have been a bird or spider web
I am silence in the explosion
The space between worm and seed
in the apple
A gasp to flee
From the tree
What can I hide beneath
Why must I see
Rain
Sky
Fleeting




4/8/10
Where shadow meets sea

4/8/10


oh
carve out the night
the thieving ghosts of stone hours
memories memories memories
languid sonnets, melodies
of swaying love to the
knife in the neck
& the kiss in the breath
somewhere between
darker & darker
the shine in
the face
b/w parted
legs

where we fall
like the fool
like the sun
like the dandelions
breath

into eachother
numb &screaming; w/ laughter
then jolted into knowing too much
of eachother
of this look on my face
that always get’s me into trouble
& the tongue of dawn
ascends us upon
a day tumbled
weary & in love

I go off in your skin
u go off
wearing my dress
covered in blood  lust  
loneliness
forgiveness
& us
we are us.

always

in the wind we tumble and fly
together always
one wing
you and i


4/8/2010

beneath the  dance.   eyes  

a wild  fast  junkway   thrill cry
a bone hand
a porcelain bullet

the moment is caught
this is it
jump off
into her

one night to know
what it’s like
to be
right.  the other kind
rich and fine

find
something of yourself
in the enemy

thighs

crimes

money

lies





money

lies
thighs

crime­s
mon229pm  4/5/10

i’m  love  
black  death  boy  
sweet  night  
crippled time
swoon away  
our  ma-ma-ma-ma-midnight  
devines the  dust
portrait of us
saint our sweat  
hello lost it
hello love
hello divided eyes
amongst the coils and coals
of our crap heater
of our crap apartment
of our too good feelings
and disappearing world
ur hand slides down my face ........................ ........leather smiles unshaken, confirmed
down my chest towards
some light I ignored
sweaty hand
***** hand
beautiful smile
beautiful teeth you have
the windows shake
the agony of an uncontrollable world
shatter illusions
while filling it with new one’s
I am love
I am love
this is love


mon 228pm
4/5/10

with my head behind a cloud
thoughts ping pong around  
drown
drown
loserdom in a stip mall parking lot
kicks against the curb
three quarters and a fist
life a near miss
sweat steaming the distortions of the face
cops handy mans hookers and housewives
l.a., l.a. l.a. paved my brain
a candy bar and a bar and a heat wave
and a drawn on face
l.a., l.a. l.a. paved my brain
and a tic tac toe hopscotch foot tied race
l.a., l.a. l.a. paved my brain
to an anvil off the top of the capitol building beauty night line daytime sky sky orange high
touch me
somebody
reach out and ***** out my stutter heart time cvrime buy buy buy
not buy me anything
feel me something
feel
what?
who am i
satturday or Tuesday or Noday
cement
pavement
horse drawn nowhere
freeways
freeways
thunder

4/5/10
219pm

feelin' wild like runnin in the trees jumpin from the slums of the mind the oily quick sand hands called silence and control, america, how i wish u'd unbigbrother urself and support the artists, but that would require slime'ing away from big bank funding, corporates drugging us zombies called humanity... to be an artist at times can be so liberating and so uncertain. hello eviction notice, hello

oh sweet world, shiver into me
your claws& diamond dust
the last sweet dance
tender romance black
on the clock
the jaw of luck  the chainsaw &
the melody  the love &
disbelief  the betrayal
& the bloom, the laughter
after doom   the broken
ballroom   the earthquakes
& the prayer   the family
& the stairs collapsing the light
glimmer & glare   the utter
despair &   goodness
breathing me in
spinning me round

sometimes I’m up

sometimes it’s down
& when the wisdom is found

the cycle will go on

cyclone, dawn,

& ground

death,
rebirth
& all the causes
of
everyone

the prophecies of a junk yard princess
16 ****** and high
no alibuy bye
I’m a junkyard millionaire
I’m a freeway square to nowhere
a junk dog captain
a lover to lose
a loser to love
a shining piece of junk in the sky
to pry for a night
some secret that’s a lie
some secret I’ll let you buy
I’m dangling from a tree
the shadow is only me
nothing
nothing u see

2.10.10

the nights death
  murmured in his hand
twirling dawn
stars crawl home
gold streaking
     sky
crumbling the
black
i’m on my back
wishing to go back
a finger over my
     mouth.
i won’t shout


2/5/10

1/20/10


thrill me
oh dangle tooth will
& chop shop boy
& chop suey love
  rain spilling in the park
a child in the dark
lost on the broken bench
beneath the old iron light
green, hungry, oh
want
thrill me
dying flame thrill
ill with ur 1 way so down
highway
paving the sound    track of our death

1/19/10


I’m  a concrete rose, you’re a midnight
Horse
Wild flame mane black ripple me with ur touch
Rotted crowns fall 2 dust
Beneath your steed stomp feet
Our masters
Gouge their eyes out
I’m cleched in ur sweat
My concrete turns 2 rivers flowing
Death
Wet night
Midnight
My midnight horse
My voice

1/17/10

dopesick boy
make me dope sick
his black in the blue
eyes vanish
he vanishes
the skeletal frame
of his guitar
& all the almosts
that got shot
cause he shot up
the broken window in time
the self steams out of in
the night
his black & blu eyes
pinned
pinned wings in a glass
case
another face
wings evaporate
dust where a boy once sat
holdng my hand in love

I drew his cartridges of loaded hope and daddy’s dancing shoes from his piano too many women n’ ***** bluez that cut of coyote teeth on his mirror in lipstick
A portrait of a saint
A portrait of a ******
A portrait of love and death
A portrait of humanity
I’m alive
I    th e   stra n g e r
I the collapsible paraplegic
I the daughter of the govenor and the daughter wailing sax

His mirror melted into red wax
Of confusion
In this open room bathroom where he is lying behind me invisible through all the lipstick he bought me that is drawn all over his reflection, my reflection, this place, this death sentence, the rest of my life to lead after 16 on my own, I can only hear the image screech I used to be behind me
26 wires into different parts of him to machines that make him breathe
candy colored computer heart pumps and wicked adreneniline bumps and heart breaks and candy necklaces and bad legs and I don’t know this now but in three days after a year of this ******* he’ll be gone
stroke.
Here I go.
Again.
On my own



1/10/2010

To my maybe baby
I’ll stalk u like the moon
The cat whispers to the grasses to
sway in the noon
That the sweet rain fingers to caress
out full the blooms
Of wild indigo and white knighted
striped maroon
That dance u in the fields to take off
ur shoes
And scent ur sweat with lavender
and croon
U to always be watching and over me
like the melody moon

Into u
I’m so in2u



1/9/10

decomposed by burning flowers
whose jaws sink
teeth’d hearts
  @ 3am
when the back
    sweats
& the lips
      red
     whisper
some
forgotten truth
that vine the body to the stake
    that serenade me to the wake
   soft away   away to sway
    ‘til the sun burns the fog
    & blinds the way
        towards some grey future or
past day
my shining canines         white decay
     through abyss and bliss I smile all the
way in rags & glitter
& furs & pain
a Tuesday morning.    Life starts again

lovely ladies bleeding
   sad rhythms fast times
       on the dance floor
     blind
by shakes & strange
oozy
        
drinks that drip trip     slow
                    & melody
      & beats
        of bad boys
          disko

       mama is dead
    she died on
the
        dance    floor
         big mama is
     dead
       she was queen
  in her
    head

but the drugs
  told her that

& now the sirens
         buzzard
         the fluorescents  trash  on
   people fly from windows
   fly home.

to beat
    the wrap
until next time
  
    which is already tonight

Cadilac cars
              & black.
          fast.
                         yards
              pass
     yellow dotted lines
        smack
        tire
        speed.
Curves.

taste the sunset
       sweat the sunless years
   the graffiti    shift. Shock.
boom.
1/4/10

the vroom.
the legend to all
       10 boys who will ever
   know my name
remember the night
     the tight dress of pch
curves
black lacquered love
wet fast wicked unwanted.
black lacquered love
         asphalt crumbles to sea
mesmerized & deep
This night belongs 2 me. This night belongs 2 me

daddy was dead & i liked being used
I shoulda probly taken a shower
Rinse off the fog I drew on invisibility
   & youth
         & barrel gun'd eeyes
           that mirrored only dice
                & worlds of ice & rust
                          & sweet white dust
                                    & tattooed drums

                                                          their
                                            pumping           pain

                                                   into my
                                                     sweet sweat
                                                            16 yr. old
                                                                   frame
        there i was
                on some polar bear closed shop rug
                       midnight.
                             naked.  he had taken my
                                          clothes off.
                                           I didn't wanna ****.
            i wanted to cuddle this stranger
          cuddle the fluffy bear beneath my back
       under the body i refused to look @
               his hand on his belt buckle.  caching
                 zip.  daddies last breath.  1 blk

     away.  15 min.s   b4    here now i lay
                   prayers in the grave
                              men smothering my face
                                       unshaven memory.
                                             mind games.

biting the walls of lust
hammering my feet in the ground
trying to make sure i'm not too around
so i won't get down
with the boy above


listen to this sound….


Dedicated from the underground….





To you




Please, please please

I only kinda wanna be found












Down
Down
Down



Inside out
Upside down
Boy above
Boy I love
Feel me feeling me to feel you






      underground






5.26.09
1239am
to you
THE UNDERGROUND

Just hanging out
Getting ready for work
Maybe I’m too happy to be a poet
Maybe I’m too pretty to be good
Rub some lotion on my hands
Pick my teeth
Don’t use a comb
Life is sweet

7/22/09

Everything
Trips to a slow melody
The glass’d out kids
Magician away their keys
I’m lying on the floor
In a backwards dream
Fragmented, distant
Reaching 4 me
The beauty
Of love & disappointment
Couch cushions sprawled all Over the empty room of empty kids and lost hero’s singing through a tube
Somewhere along the way we stopped being young
& all this fun turns to stupid self annihilation
& my burnt out friends pass like clouds & evaporate