1/19/10


I’m  a concrete rose, you’re a midnight
Horse
Wild flame mane black ripple me with ur touch
Rotted crowns fall 2 dust
Beneath your steed stomp feet
Our masters
Gouge their eyes out
I’m cleched in ur sweat
My concrete turns 2 rivers flowing
Death
Wet night
Midnight
My midnight horse
My voice

1/17/10

dopesick boy
make me dope sick
his black in the blue
eyes vanish
he vanishes
the skeletal frame
of his guitar
& all the almosts
that got shot
cause he shot up
the broken window in time
the self steams out of in
the night
his black & blu eyes
pinned
pinned wings in a glass
case
another face
wings evaporate
dust where a boy once sat
holdng my hand in love

I drew his cartridges of loaded hope and daddy’s dancing shoes from his piano too many women n’ ***** bluez that cut of coyote teeth on his mirror in lipstick
A portrait of a saint
A portrait of a ******
A portrait of love and death
A portrait of humanity
I’m alive
I    th e   stra n g e r
I the collapsible paraplegic
I the daughter of the govenor and the daughter wailing sax

His mirror melted into red wax
Of confusion
In this open room bathroom where he is lying behind me invisible through all the lipstick he bought me that is drawn all over his reflection, my reflection, this place, this death sentence, the rest of my life to lead after 16 on my own, I can only hear the image screech I used to be behind me
26 wires into different parts of him to machines that make him breathe
candy colored computer heart pumps and wicked adreneniline bumps and heart breaks and candy necklaces and bad legs and I don’t know this now but in three days after a year of this ******* he’ll be gone
stroke.
Here I go.
Again.
On my own



1/10/2010

To my maybe baby
I’ll stalk u like the moon
The cat whispers to the grasses to
sway in the noon
That the sweet rain fingers to caress
out full the blooms
Of wild indigo and white knighted
striped maroon
That dance u in the fields to take off
ur shoes
And scent ur sweat with lavender
and croon
U to always be watching and over me
like the melody moon

Into u
I’m so in2u



1/9/10

decomposed by burning flowers
whose jaws sink
teeth’d hearts
  @ 3am
when the back
    sweats
& the lips
      red
     whisper
some
forgotten truth
that vine the body to the stake
    that serenade me to the wake
   soft away   away to sway
    ‘til the sun burns the fog
    & blinds the way
        towards some grey future or
past day
my shining canines         white decay
     through abyss and bliss I smile all the
way in rags & glitter
& furs & pain
a Tuesday morning.    Life starts again

lovely ladies bleeding
   sad rhythms fast times
       on the dance floor
     blind
by shakes & strange
oozy
        
drinks that drip trip     slow
                    & melody
      & beats
        of bad boys
          disko

       mama is dead
    she died on
the
        dance    floor
         big mama is
     dead
       she was queen
  in her
    head

but the drugs
  told her that

& now the sirens
         buzzard
         the fluorescents  trash  on
   people fly from windows
   fly home.

to beat
    the wrap
until next time
  
    which is already tonight

Cadilac cars
              & black.
          fast.
                         yards
              pass
     yellow dotted lines
        smack
        tire
        speed.
Curves.

taste the sunset
       sweat the sunless years
   the graffiti    shift. Shock.
boom.
1/4/10

the vroom.
the legend to all
       10 boys who will ever
   know my name
remember the night
     the tight dress of pch
curves
black lacquered love
wet fast wicked unwanted.
black lacquered love
         asphalt crumbles to sea
mesmerized & deep
This night belongs 2 me. This night belongs 2 me